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No, not the fitness kind of running. I use the term running when I’m referring to forcing momentum in my career. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I finally have space to run. I’m not exactly sure which direction yet, but I do know when the time comes: all will be clear.


In the meantime, I’m working for the insider and also looking for a small part-time gig or bookings. It also looks like I will finally put money down for my enrollment in SAG.


Good things are coming my way and I definitely feel it in my bones.

Let It Go and Breathe


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The Goddess of Bad Timing strikes again. I applied to work on a social media advertising shoot and the production company reached back to me, but I misread the schedule and now I can’t do it. Frustrating.


Instead of being upset about it, I’m just letting it go. Something better usually comes along anyway so it may just not be the project for me. In the meantime, I’m going to scan things twice before applying or saying yes, so I no longer cause myself further upset.


In other good news, I did find something that does work with my schedule. Hopefully, I get it. The project looks fun with national coverage. Fingers crossed.

My Latest Obsessions



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The above meme was chosen for a reason. My latest obsession is listening to True Crime podcasts, namely ‘My Favorite Murder’ hosted by Georgia Hardstark and Karen Kilgariff. What makes that program so good is their retelling of horrific murders (solved and unsolved) while injecting some humor where they can into the situation. Some people I’m sure are offended, but I enjoy it because not only do they talk about the crimes, but the patterns of the crimes. So in essence, I’m learning how not to get murdered. Here is what I have learned so far:

  1. 15% of homicides are committed by someone who is a stranger to the victim.
  2. That means the remaining 85% is committed by someone the victim knew.
  3. The majority of those homicides are usually related to money or domestic situations or simply put…don’t get robbed, don’t join a gang, and don’t get into or stay in a relationship with someone abusive and controlling.
  4. There was an abundance of horrific crimes in the 70s and the 80s, though forensics and detection were rapidly improving towards the late 80s.
  5. Many of the most notorious serial killers had a head injury. Which freaks me out because so do I, but the difference is they also had some sort of drug problem or abusive childhoods. Neither of which I had. Although I have a strong urge to punch exceptionally rude and nasty people in the face, I can say that you are safe…For now.
  6. I knew there were people like me who are also interested in following True Crime stories, but what I didn’t know is how many of those people are trying to help solve some of the unsolved crimes! I may add the kidnapping and possible death of Nefertiri Trader to a later post because she is local, the case will be 5 years old this year, and still has not been solved. Maybe sharing on here could help.



Another thing I have been obsessed with recently is the RPG ‘Stardew Valley’. I know this game is not new, but shockingly I have never heard of it until I saw a guy ranting about it on Twitter. According to this dude, games you play on mobile phones, “baby games” like ‘Animal Crossing’ and ‘Stardew Valley’, and Nintendo games do not make you a true gamer. I personally don’t mind “baby games” so I downloaded it to my laptop. I have no regrets and believe it or not: has a slight bit of difficulty.


I’m still doing a ton of work for the insider and I’m officially off of school in the next few days (yay!) I’m looking forward to a productive Summer break. Cheers.






Deconstructing the Centrum Commercial: An Actor’s Perspective


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I was trying to avoid talking about this commercial. As a former Tom Hiddleston fan, I didn’t want to come off sounding like a hater, but I have thoughts and they need to be written down.

The first time I saw this commercial was on Twitter. I wasn’t exactly sure what I was watching and I’m pretty sure my first words were “What the hell?” The second time I saw the commercial, again on Twitter, was in a retelling by Phil Wang who created a hilarious re-working of it which you can see here. 

Actually, it was Phil’s version that helped me to understand a little bit better! Here is my breakdown:


As an actor, I truly can’t knock Mr. Hiddleston for booking work. It is not a 9 to 5 job. We get paid per project and when that project is finished, there is no more money. Even with all of our efforts, there will be large gaps in between where there are no jobs to be booked. Hence why you hear of A-list actors that are on top of the world one day and then completely bankrupt with no one wanting anything to do with them the next. I also can’t judge him for basically selling a vitamin brand since I too sell vitamins through a different company. Centrum is a huge brand that sells globally (and also the reason why this commercial was aired in China), I’m sure he was paid a pretty penny for his participation.

Now let’s talk about the concept of this commercial. It was shot from a first-person perspective. Some viewers online were impressed at the thought of shooting a commercial featuring Mr. Hiddleston as the first person’s love interest. It’s not a new concept (NSFW) although I suppose for advertising purposes it is. However, it came off as more creepy kidnapper than a loving boyfriend. Which is very unfortunate, but still good for press and sales apparently.

He starts off the commercial by preparing breakfast in the kitchen with Us, the significant other walking in. He says “I finished up early so I thought I would make you breakfast.” …Finished up from where sir?  Are we supposed to view ourselves as dating Tom Hiddleston the Actor or Tom Hiddleston the Corporate Executive? If we are supposed to view him as an actor, I assume he finished up from a shoot. That means if he is preparing breakfast for us at, let’s say 8 am, his call time was at the butt-crack of dawn or even earlier. Probably at 3 am.

He is also wearing an apron to cook in that suspiciously matches the clothing he is wearing. Was that a conscious choice by the wardrobe department?  Are we supposed to believe that he has a multitude of aprons that coordinate with his daily outfits? This is a question that needs answering.

He presents this weird ass breakfast with one fried egg with a strange vegetable/fruit salad mix, which I’m sure is meant to be colorful and healthy just like the colors of the Centrum bottle. Great, except I’m not eating that. Yes, I like pepper on eggs. Yes, I like vegetables and fruit sometimes mixed in a salad, but that combination looked like an upset stomach waiting to happen. Moving on…

He is sitting down to talk to us in an EXTREME close-up. It pains me to say this but the current styling of his hair and facial hair is not a good look for him. For those of you that are new to my blog and haven’t read previous entries, I worked at his table when he visited the comic con in Philadelphia three years ago. I do have a good reference of what he looks like in person, so I can confidently say this isn’t it. More often than not a beard usually does wonders for men or people who identify as men. It’s the difference between looking like a 12-year-old for the rest of their days and looking like an adult. But it doesn’t suit him. It looks really patchy and takes away from the fact that he actually has a jawline. Photo for reference below:



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I have learned he is in a stage production right now wearing the same look as he does in the commercial. I’m sure he is contractually obligated to keep his facial hair for the time being but my hope for the future is that he realizes its not a good look and shaves it off. Also, his hair has way too much product in it for how thin it is. It looks greasy and in desperate need of a clarifying shampoo.

Another poor choice that I noticed with the filming of this commercial was the height of the camera. Since it is supposed to be filmed from the perspective of a more petite Chinese woman, Mr. Hiddleston is often seen tilting his forward to look at his subject. I don’t know if you have noticed but this guy has a pretty prominent forehead. Add the fact that the camera adds 10 pounds and it creates unfortunate results. I’m really trying not to sound bitchy when I say this, I just know that it reads poorly on camera and makes him look like one of the Greys:



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It just seems like this commercial was an exercise in making a normally attractive man look as terrible as possible.


My favorite part about this commercial is near the end. Starting with him saying “I’m going to leave for a few weeks” and he puts on a blazer. We, the significant other, is now fixing his shirt and blazer with strangely detached hands. I could only imagine how that looked on set. First, they had to put out a casting for a hand model with well-manicured nails to fix his jacket. Second, they would have had to place the camera over the model’s shoulder or the model was crouching underneath the camera and holding their hands up to fix the jacket; all the while Mr. Hiddleston has to hold an endearing boyfriend smile for like 5 years.


Plus there had to be several takes involved so I’m sure at some point in his mind he was thinking “did we get the shot?” “Hurry the hell up!” At least that is what I would think in this instance.

Third, he leaves the house with NO Luggage, NO House/Car Keys, and NO Cell Phone. He just disappears into the Ether.



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This is where my logic kicks in and I ask too many questions which would have ultimately lead to my firing from this commercial. HOW? I feel like Mr. Hiddleston’s common sense would dictate that there was something off about his exit. Like no bags to carry at all? I mean if I was leaving my boo for a few weeks I would at least say “I have my phone on if you need me.” Nothing. Of course, they are paying him handsomely so I’m sure he had to bite his tongue, but this is a burning question that I have amongst many others.

I hope my analysis clears up any confusion surrounding a confusing commercial. Cheers, and take your vitamins!

My Current Duties and an Update





Some major things have happened over the past couple of weeks working with the Insider. While I can’t discuss the specifics, what I can say is that there will be more duties on my plate now. I’m not seeking a promotion as the meme suggests, but I’m preparing myself for what I’m sure will be a long week. This could be both a good thing or a not so good thing. We’ll see how this will progress.


In the meantime, let me share some interesting news: I managed to land an interview related to my post about A Scam that Built a Community I’m not sure when the write up will be completed, but as soon as I know I will happily share it on this page.

Captain Marvel Review

Captain Marvel (2019) poster
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On St. Patrick’s day, instead of getting drunk off of Guinness and Jameson, I decided to watch ‘Captain Marvel’. This was the better choice and I want to present my review for you here. Normally I would post this review on my YouTube channel, but due to technical difficulties I wasn’t able to record, but I still want my thoughts about the film to be on documented in case I get back online.


To begin: if I were to sum up this entire film into one sentence it would be “Let Carol be great.” The story begins after she wakes up from a recurring dream she has and is trying to figure out why. As the story progresses we find that her life as Carol Danvers was one of trying to be strong and get ahead, but always pushed down by her peers and her family as being weak. The same trend continued when she was later blocked of her memory and trained to be a Kree warrior.


Without giving too much away of the plot I want to share what I really liked about this film. First, out of the entire MCU, this was the first film where I really liked Nick Fury’s character. Don’t get it twisted, I have always liked Samuel L. Jackson, but the character Nick Fury was always a little bit lacking for me and I think more time was taken to flesh him out as a character in this film. Carol is a solid hero and I think Brie Larson plays her well. This is going to sound a little crazy, but I truly appreciate that they cast an actor to play her who doesn’t have a lower vocal register.


Maybe it’s just me feeling bitter since I have a super high voice that makes me sound like I’m perpetually 8-years-old.


For some reason, many lady superheroes are cast with lower voices to show maturity, strength, and sexiness; but that’s lame. Just because her voice is higher doesn’t mean she’s not strong, or mature, or sexy, or won’t whoop your ass.


Going back to Nick Fury for a second…I felt so seen when they featured his bond with Goose the Cat (Flerkken). I, too, am a total softie when it comes to cats, so I get it. This film already earned high points for me when Goose had her own poster for the film. After the movie was over, all I could think about is wanting an orange Tabby girl of my own. In my mind, this film was a success.


I loved Maria Rambeau, played by Lashana Lynch and her daughter (and future Captain Marvel) Monica Rambeau, played by Akira Akbar. I loved that Maria was not only a pilot, and a strong woman in her own right. However, there is a strong criticism about how they meshed much of Monica’s storyline into Carol’s which is not cool. I admit I’m not as familiar with the storyline so if you want to read a really good explanation of why this is not good, please check out this Medium post by Court Danee.


This is also a perfect segue into what made me unhappy about the film. I know this was an introduction to one of the strongest characters in the MCU, but it was a little dry at most parts. There were jokes, that I know were supposed to be jokes, but they really didn’t land all that well. Also, with the film taking place in 1995, it seemed like the directors were trying to shove in as much 90’s nostalgia that they could. Nothing wrong with the ’90s, and in ’95 I was 12-years-old, but it just felt forced. This film is about the hero Carol Danvers, not whether she listened to Garbage or not (I love Garbage, so no slander from my part), though I do appreciate the recognition of the inequities women still faced during that decade. The CGI was a little rough (the same could be said about any MCU film) and at parts quite cartoonish for something that is trying to pass as live action. There were also parts in the story that I felt was missing and made the plot a little choppy. I’m sure those scenes were probably filmed which would have given a better explanation to the overall plot but somehow ended up on the editing room floor.


I still enjoy this film and would recommend it to others. Bravo for a first run ‘Captain Marvel’!


Update on Possible Representation




Not long after my previous post about meeting the talent manager at the large casting event in Poughkeepsie, I submitted all of my materials (headshot, resume, and current reel) for his consideration. He responded back to me that he is looking for more clips of other work I have done, namely commercials but any other work on bigger projects would do.


At first, I was a little crushed due to the fact that I have the hardest time booking those types of roles as the production companies won’t look my way without representation. It’s the reason why I had to attend such a large audition to begin with. That open call was the only way (at this point in time) for me to have a chance at a speaking part in a major feature film or television production.


However, I’m going to find a way to get into something. Even though I’m not signed with this particular manager, he did add me into the email chain dedicated to clients. So I may have a shot yet. I am being proactive about my search too. I updated my account with to remove any and all background work, removed live theatre work, student films, and promotional modeling. It is now hyperfocused on anything related to film, television, commercials, and industrial shoots (as they are speaking parts). This will probably work since I’m more specific about which roles I’ll take.


While it’s still not a guarantee that he will sign me even after all is said and done, the worst that could happen is the addition of credentials on my resume for someone who really wants to sign me. That being said, I have a good feeling that he will be my manager. Wish me luck!

What Do I Write About?!


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Good grief this was a week for news, huh?!


I’m having a hard time focusing on a topic. Do I write my thoughts about the College Cheating Scandal? Bryan Singer’s long overdue firing from directing ‘Red Sonja’? How about the latest scandal involving Brett Ratner, the CEO of Warner Bros. and the actress Charlotte Kirk?


And that was only a small handful of what happened this week.


I can’t blame this Mercury Retrograde because I don’t believe in it. Truthfully I think this planet and everyone on it has been caught up in a vortex of bizarre behavior since 2015. With it being 2019 I think we are experiencing the worst of the vortex and soon we will be out of it (if we all survive that is.)


Until then, I’m just going to keep my nose to the grindstone and mind my business. This is too much.


Letting Go of Entitlement

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I was on Twitter today where I saw actor Laura Benanti respond to an incredibly rude tweet. The person who authored the original tweet complained that they paid good money to see Laura perform in a show, but she wasn’t in attendance that day. So as a result she, and I quote, “doesn’t want to see her again.” Laura responded by telling the complainer that she had to take her kid to the hospital that day and she “hopes that she never has to see her again either.”

Seriously? I swear some people really take the cake.

Shows have understudies for a reason. If a performer gets sick or has an emergency, the show is covered an can go on. While I’m sure it can be a real bummer when your favorite actor can’t perform that evening, you also have to remember that they have lives outside of their performances too.

Let me put this into perspective for you:

You work in customer service. You have people who appreciate the service you provide for them and begin telling other people that they should go to your store and ask for you because you are the best.

Now stick with me.

You get terribly ill one day and you have to call out of your job to go to the doctor; so a fellow coworker is called in to cover your shift while you figure out why you are so ill. On the same shift a customer comes in based upon a referral and asks for you. The coworker proceeds to them you are are out for the day because you are unwell. Now the customer is enraged and posts a bad yelp review because they spent money to see you, and you had the AUDACITY to be sick…

See how ridiculous that sounds?

Keep in mind that even though entertaining is a public job, that it’s still a job. Entertainers are going to have off days when they just want to keep to themselves and not be bothered by fans. It doesn’t mean they don’t appreciate you, but it does mean that you need to respect their space. They don’t owe you anything for the job they do. Much like you don’t owe anything to the customer who’s chasing after you with a million questions when you’ve already clocked out for your lunch break. It’s nice, but you deserve to take a break too.

I hope this helps to keep things in perspective.

Business Trip

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I had to fly back home over the weekend for an impromptu business trip. The purpose of this trip was to collect work assignments and credentials from my job with the insider and an audition.

I want to talk more about the audition.

I traveled to Poughkeepsie, NY for an open call audition. It’s for a new HBO series starring Mark Ruffalo. They needed a few actors for small speaking parts. I fit the specs they were looking for, so I registered and flew out to attend. There were over 3,000 people waiting to be seen. The beauty of this open call is that if there wasn’t a speaking part available, then there is still background work; but I’m aiming for nothing less than a speaking part this year.

When it was my time to audition, the people coordinating the event moved me into one of the lines to meet with a casting director. The man I met with looked over my headshot and résumé for some time. He asked me questions, we did some improv, he looked over the casting sheet, took some time to think where to place me, and then he said he will pitch me for a callback.

Now here is where it gets interesting.

The man is not a casting director at all. He is a talent manager who is great friends with the head casting director and helped out with this massive open call. Even better than that, when he was looking over my résumé, he then gave me his contact information to send over the materials to him and see if maybe we could discuss possible representation.


Now I know with talent managers it tends to be a tricky situation. They are not talent agents (there is a difference between an agent and a manager). There is not a guarantee that they can get me work. Also, I’m sure his purpose besides helping the casting director, was to also headhunt new talent as well.

I have a good feeling about it though. I’ll explain why:

I overheard his conversation with the person standing in front of me. He was pleasant to them but very honest. He didn’t think their résumé was strong enough for a callback even though they had talent and drive. He recommended to them to get more productions under their belt first and from there, try again. He didn’t tear them down. He didn’t try to peddle off services to them. He simply gave them the advice they needed to succeed.

Another thing about the situation that made it feel right was that I just told myself on the train ride to Poughkeepsie, that if I want more opportunities like this to shoot for bigger roles…I’m going to need representation. Lo and behold I end up in the line with the talent manager.

I’m satisfied with the way things went for this trip. My sincerest hope would be for me to land both the part and have a manager. But if I had to choose between the two I would probably pick the manager simply because they can help place me in front of the people I need to see, in order to get more chances at a speaking role.

Fingers Crossed! 🤞🏽