Vacation is Over…

And my dad is in his 3rd visit to the hospital. There is so much to be done from now until I leave for school and I’m worried about his health. My sincerest hope is that he heals well and everything comes together for my move so I can finally get some semblance of peace.

Clubbing in Vegas

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I went to Hakkasan last night and I really just wasn’t cut out for it. In fact I left before Steve Aoki went on to spin. I like going dancing and listening to DJs spin is really fun…but being packed in like a sardine and having drinks spilled on me wasn’t my idea of a good time. I kinda wanted to see Calvin Harris since he was performing at the club directly across the street from my hotel. When I got home you could hear his set bumping from my room. Alas and alack, no one wanted to go see him last night. Instead we are going to that club tonight to see Hardwell.

Personally I think the best way to enjoy big events like that is to be friends with the DJ, you usually get access to space near the booth without completely being in the fray and still have a good time. That, or I may just be getting old and the night life may not be my scene anymore. Sigh…

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I Received Some Great Support

Yesterday was my last working shift at Firefly. I bumped into the HR woman in charge of hiring me. I gave her my thanks as she was super helpful in giving me the information I needed not only for the bartending gig, but for the stage crew gig as well. I gave her the whole rundown of the events that happened: getting hired for brew crew, not getting called by the stage crew people until the day of the festival when I already committed to the other job, the stress of having to turn down the crew job I wanted for the job I committed to first. She was very sweet and gave me this word of advice “No worries dear. Sometimes you have to go to the dance with the boy who asked you first. It was just meant to work out like that.” Mind-blowing and she was right. I’m now going to use that advice with whatever I do from now on. Maybe I’m not actually the Goddess of Poor Timing.

I’m the Goddess of Poor Timing pt. 2

As of right now, the festival is already 10 minutes and I’m still not assigned to a bar tent or making any money right now. As you very well know, I turned down the stage crew position because it was so last minute, and that position is now gone. Now I’m working nothing and missing out on money that could definitely go towards my education. I may be super emotional just because it’s incredibly hot out here today and I need to pee. But honestly looking at how my life operates in general…well constant misalignments like this is one of the reasons I’ve just don’t want to carry on anymore. I’m cursed, I swear! 

I’m the Goddess of Poor Timing 

It’s the first day of Firefly and I’m already over it, and I haven’t even started yet! Why am I so upset? Well it’s due to the fact that I WAS actually hired for the Firefly Stage Crew, but had received no correspondence about this position until today! My feelings are so hurt right now as this poor timing thing is a life pattern I’ve never been able to shake. I always miss golden opportunities, meet the right guy at the wrong time, and like today, I’m scheduled to work something different on the same day. This is really upsetting…

Writing 

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There have been a few gaps in between my blog posts and that is no accident. I’m having a bit of a weird kind of writer’s block. It’s not that I have nothing to write about, on the contrary, I have everything to write about! However, my life is moving so fast at the moment, it’s easier for me to do a quick post on Instagram instead of really taking the time I need to craft a post reflecting my thoughts. Plus I have a tendency to pump out too much information which isn’t necessary either.

This is a real problem. And now my meme collection grows larger by the day. I’m not sure if I’m going to have any storage left. 

Hopefully I can get some writing done on vacation…

Tarot Reading 

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By this time next week I will be out on the west coast to visit my friends. One of my friends in particular I look forward to seeing because I read her tarot cards every year. This time will be different for many reasons: first, this will be the first time that I will read her in person. Second, I bought a pretty new deck to read her with. Third, I enrolled in a class taught by Veronica Varlow on how to give better readings. 

Even though I’m Episcopalian, I still get drawn to the realm of the metaphysical, and tarot for me is a great tool. I don’t get rattled by it like many in the Christian faith do as, more often than not (at least in my case) the tarot depicts what a person’s current situation is and how to improve it. That is how I approach my readings as well.  They tend to be very lighthearted, small readings. I keep the questions very general and usually only asking “what’s next?” I use very visually beautiful cards and I don’t always use reversals (although it’s in good practice). I tend to let the cards speak to me and let them pop up for a better reading. (See Doreen Virtue’s approach to her Angel Card readings.) Overall, I keep gloom and doom to a minimum.


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I’m also offering a little plug to all that read this. As you know I’m going to college overseas in September. Even though I have applied for all of the financial aid that I can, I still need a chunk of money in my account to prove to the Irish government that I can financially support myself. I decided to do a fundraiser using small tarot readings for $7 to help me go to school. If any of you are interested please leave me a comment or email for more info. I take PayPal and I am working on getting a Venmo account too. Thank you.


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Today’s Audition 

I knew I was going in for a beauty campaign today. As it turns out it may be a Korean beauty company that I auditioned for. It’s very serendipitous, especially with a video I watched the other day from NPR about Pore Vacuuming in Seoul, South Korea. With K-Beauty, I’ve only used a couple of products. A fairly decent cleanser and collagen sheet masks. My skin is very problematic and needs the most help out of my whole routine. As far as makeup is concerned, I have that covered. K-Beauty foundations and BB creams are often too pale for my skin anyway. I won’t, however, shy away from eyeshadows, liners, and lip products, especially if they are really pretty. 

I’m not sure if I’m going to land this campaign, but it is directing my attention towards using more K-Beauty. Maybe this is the formula I need to fix my face! We shall see.

A Personal Trend 

It seems that every time I break down into uncontrollable sobbing, the next day it manifests into something amazing. This happened when I got accepted for school, when I cry about money, when I generally feel like my life is going nowhere: and then BOOM!!! PROGRESS!! 

What the hell?

As much as I like having increase in my life, the fact that I have to go into a mode of deep depression is not my idea of a good time. But then again…it’s not supposed to be my idea of a good time, but that of my creator. I couldn’t possibly tell you why this is, maybe it’s to show that I really want it. Maybe it’s negative energy I need to release in order for the good to come in. It could possibly be an alarm telling me that the good is coming and uses my tears as an indicator. Whatever way it is, let’s just say that currently I’m a hot mess of tears, and that most likely means something amazing is going to happen tomorrow. 😭😭😭😭