Things Have Been a Little Hectic

(Source: Classical Art Memes Facebook.)

Especially with my dad, a.k.a. The Six Million Dollar Man. He’s back in the hospital currently with multiple small surgeries already done and more to go. While non of his issues at the current moment are fatal, he was definitely teetering on that edge. Hopefully his medical team is able to repair him so his entire body doesn’t blow up.

All the while that is going on, I’m still trying to make headway at home. I went to the job interview I mentioned in a previous post, yesterday. It went well and I’m optimistic. It would be either administrative assistant work or in my old field of HR. I’m also trying to find some part time work, as well as applying for more gigs here and there. I will also be stage managing a show at the end of February, so there is some money to be made there. I just wish I have some kind of breakthrough work wise. Things are getting to be too stressful and hard to manage with little money and so many goals to achieve.

The College Student Diet

(Photo taken in my kitchen.)

I had to put my attempt at the Keto diet on the back burner due to my limited budget. I’m in between bookings without much money coming in so I had to make do with what was already in my pantry as well as purchasing some extra items.

No, it’s not the healthiest and no, I won’t lose weight (I gave up trying.) It’s basically sustenance until I’m in a better financial standing.

A few things you don’t see in the picture that I want to share with you:

•I have frozen vegetables, that I threw in with that bowl of ramen along with garlic and ginger to taste. It was super tasty.

•I have a bag of apples and oranges that are fresh and cheap. I eat them all of the time.

•We keep water stocked in the fridge at all times and the Hawaiian Punch is low calorie and my alternative to soda. I also drink powdered greens that I sell, along with an abundance of tea (decaf Earl Grey and Herbal.)

•I have both real milk and almond milk in the fridge and chia seeds to make pudding with.

At least I’m trying to do better right?

Aggressive Spamming

(Source: Facebook.)

This is a personal opinion blog, it’s not a news source, just a journal of yours truly. If you haven’t followed this blog for too long, you will also find out that I state strong opinions and pretty much expect to get flamed for them all the time. With that said, one thing I have done since the creation of this blog, and at the recommendation of WordPress, is to put limits on the comments section. I didn’t understand why since I’m open to conversation. It certainly wouldn’t be the first time I got into an argument on social media over a strong opinion. However, lately my comments section got overwhelmed with spam.

Now I get it. 🙄

Imagine getting email notifications saying “you need to moderate your comments!” Which made me think that people were either really interested in my blog or they want to cuss me out. Instead I find multiple comments from the same account (with pretty much the same comment at that) blowing up my feed. How annoying.

It’s silly to have such high security on something as small as the comments section. However, I spent the better part of 20 minutes marking these random comments as spam; which was way better than having to go through each individual page to do it. If you leave me a comment that I have to moderate, I’m sorry it’s not you I’m blocking, it’s the spam.

Some Thoughts…

(Source: Someecards.com)

This post is inspired by the recent article about the Non-Sexual Assault, but Sexual Coercion by Aziz Ansari to a young woman named “Grace”. I’ve read the article along with many think pieces and social media posts with various opinions. I have my own thoughts and conclusions, based upon what I read coupled with my own experience…however I’m not going to delve that deep. Rather, I want to talk about one glaring element in the original article and the screenshot of the text messages between Ansari and “Grace”:

the fleeting hope of having some sort of a romantic connection with a rich and famous man, while not being famous or rich yourself.

Let it go. It’s not going to happen.

This makes me sound like a total bitch and I’m sorry. It’s the truth and I want you to understand why.

Yes, there are very famous men who do end up meeting non-famous women and/or fans and end up becoming their girlfriends. However, you have a better chance at winning the lottery than that ever happening.

The reason is because you’re not in alignment with him.

I’m not here to tell you that famous men, primarily actors, are gross. Especially since my dating history consisted of mostly military men, I can say without a shadow of a doubt they are WORSE than actors when it comes to romance. The big thing I want to convey is that these type of men typically date within their station. Someone, who like them, achieved wealth and status. This is why there are so many showmances and scandals, because they date their co-workers who are like them. Why do you think Prince Harry is marrying Meghan Markle? Because she is within his station due to her success as an actress and a humanitarian. They shared common interests and their mutual friend felt safe to set them up. This relationship wouldn’t have worked if they were at odds with each other.

It’s alignment.

Now that’s not to say that “Grace” didn’t have some prestige. She was invited to the Emmys and all, but the only thing she had to find in common was to talk about an old camera Ansari was using…and that’s the ONLY common ground they had. Even then he brushed her off at first, which really should have been the tip that this wasn’t going to go her way. All I’m saying what “Grace” really should have done, is to continue to put her nose to the grindstone and work until she is the master of her craft. Then at that point, and only then, would she get the man she truly wants.

(Source: Facebook.)

With that said, do I feel that men like Ansari are blameless? No, absolutely not. Consent is important and it something that he, and other men can benefit to learn. What I am saying is that we need to stop chasing these stupid men. Accept the fact that you may be single for a while or never be with someone at all. It’s better than putting yourself in a position that harms you rather than serve you.

(Source: Facebook.)

Anyway, that’s my two cents on the subject.

An Interesting 48 Hours So Far…

(Taken on the bus, yesterday, en route to NYC.)

I’m still cautious about life right now, but like I said, I’m strangely optimistic and I feel like 2018 is going to be lit. Starting yesterday, I made the big trek from Wilmington to New York (approx 3 hours one way) for an appointment related to a commercial. I can’t say what for as I’m bound by a Non Disclosure Agreement (more on that in a moment), but as I said before, it may be my highest paying job.

While taking that trip, a recruiter from an HR company (much different from my old one) reached out to me and wants to meet me. This is an informal job interview as she was interested in my profile. What interests me out this company is that they specialize in event planning. As you know, I work events either for money or free admission. I don’t have a ton of experience in the planning side of it, but my skills still may be of some use here. Just like my previous job, this is a temporary agency. That means I’m not bound to the job forever. I will reach back to her on Monday, since yesterday wasn’t a good time to talk at all.

Speaking of events, I also received an email from the music festival I worked this past year, inviting me back. The money was good, but the hassle to travel, the long hours in the hot sun, the lack of organization, and some of the rudeness of my fellow coworkers, is kind of turning me off to it. Let me put it this way: my friend who landed me the job, and was so excited to work again this year, quit suddenly because of mistreatment by management. This girl will happily suffer it out for the 4 days if it means a big paycheck. I knew it was bad when she said she was out. So… I think I will pass this year.

Fast forward to today. I went to an open casting call in Maryland for a very popular show that I cannot name. The main reason why I did this is so I can get on the roster and get a little credit for showing up. That seems to be the standard for many of the agencies, they will know that you’re committed if they see you in person.

Now about Non Disclosures. I do try to limit my conversation about what projects I work on and anything that happens on set. Some programs do allow us to be more open than most, but still within reason. You really don’t want to ruin the project for future viewers, myself included, and that’s a good thing. However, after getting dinged for even mentioning that I was working on a popular show, I’m much more careful. Especially since I’m working on more high profile projects, and with my recent eligibility in the Union, I’m bound to a lot more secrecy. It may mean a little less content on here about upcoming projects, but I will still try to inform and entertain as much as possible.

🤔

(Source: Facebook.)

Not two hours after writing the previous post about entering into a field of land mines, a.k.a. gross people, in my industry, I ran into one of the people I used to work alongside with everyday. He said he couldn’t be happier that great things are happening to me, and he hopes my career blossoms in big ways this year.

(Source: Giphy. Ok but seriously, who is chopping onions in here!?)

Fine then. The gross people won’t stop me from being great. Which is a good thing too.

I’m strangely optimistic.

Now optimism isn’t the same as excitement. No. Besides, any time I get too excited, the rug gets ripped out from under my feet.

So I’m entering this field with a LOT of caution, some hope, and zero giddiness. I hope to report some progress soon.

The Belly of the Beast

(Source: Futurama FOX and Facebook.)

I booked my first job of the year yesterday morning. While I won’t share what the project is about, it does have a possibility of the footage being used on a national scale, which means it will also be my highest paying job. Needless to say, I was excited.

Then that bubble got popped. Later on I caught an article about James Franco and his involvement with teen girls and a revelation by Ally Sheedy. I guess it was a good thing I never worked on his project. Still I am complicit because I paid money to train at his school, paid money to see his film, and wrote a whole praise post about him.

Given how terrible the abuses are in this industry, it makes me wonder if I really should stay in? I know it’s wrong to assume that everyone in the industry is like that, or to try an jump ship so soon after making gains, but I just don’t know. All I do know is that I feel like a piece of crap right now.

Some Thoughts…

(Source: Facebook.)

I don’t have TV in my home right now. I haven’t had access since before I got laid off from my job and became homeless. Which leads me to watching everything by way of digital streaming and DVD. I didn’t watch the Golden Globes because of limited access, however, I tried to keep up with the program by way of recorded highlights and Twitter. There were two major takeaways I wanted to address because they involve a bit of shaming, self-righteousness, and hypocrisy.

First: Why are we shaming actresses who are not wearing black?

It wasn’t required dress code for the Golden Globes. It was an option to wear if you wanted to stand in solidarity with the women who were abused. That’s not an open invitation to abuse more women who chose not to wear black. We don’t know their stories or motivations as to why. Truthfully, it’s not our business to know. Much of the shaming came from other women too, which is incredibly disappointing and hypocritical.

Second: I understand the point Natalie Portman was trying to get across.

She was genuinely trying to call out the selection committee for not choosing any women directors for a nomination. Yeah that is wrong. The people that are siding with her, missed that major point and for some reason got mad at the nominees. Lest we not forget, Guillermo Del Toro, who is from Mexico; the country which bigoted constituents from my country are rallying to build a wall against; the country which our current leadership says has “Bad Hombres” coming from there; the country which our leadership deemed so dangerous, that they have emboldened ICE more than ever to rip families (including women) apart, and wrongfully profiled legal American citizens…

won.

Sometimes we get caught up in the marginalization of women that we forget about other marginalized groups as well. But I have already addressed that issue a few posts ago.

(Source: Facebook.)

James Bond Needs to Die

(Source: Facebook.)

Let me clarify, first, by saying I’m a big fan of the Bond movies…but I’m tired of them. All of this speculation going around the internet about who the next Bond should be is the straw that broke the camel’s back. I’ve gone on record on my Instagram, Twitter, and Facebook crying out that Bond needs to die. I will go further in detail here.

Spectre:

The most recent film in the franchise is the one that did it in for me. Besides the fact that they pulled the storyline from the 3rd Austin Powers installment, they wrote a terrible Bond Girl:

Bond’s main squeeze is a classic example of telling you that a female character is strong/intelligent/empowered but having her get beaten down/captured at almost every opportunity. Lea Seydoux’s Dr. Madeleine Swann is the most useless “tag-along girl” that James Bond has had in decades.

(Source: Forbes.com contributor Scott Mendelson.)

The biggest issue I have with the franchise is that 50% of the films are actually any good. With that being said, why to we want to put a black man or woman in the starrer role that could potentially flop? Why do we need to reboot at all? There are so many options and stories to tell in the Spy genre, that we really don’t need another Bond.

(Source: IMDb.com Jeffrey Wright in Casino Royale.)

If anything, the production company should make a Felix Leiter film. Felix is the U.S. equivalent of James Bond and is a C.I.A. agent. The name Felix is unisex so the character can be a he or a she. With that in mind, and with a little bit of bias, I would like the character to continue to be portrayed by Jeffrey Wright. I say with bias because he and my uncle attended school together as kids and he has always been kind, even years later (when my uncle told us that he bumped into him in L.A.)

But I digress. It’s not my decision to make how they go forward with the films. Though my attendance to the newest film is questionable at best.

Bots

(Source: Facebook.)

This meme was originally tweeted out in response to Don Cheadle’s retweeting of a random bot on Twitter. It was directed to the bot and not to Mr. Cheadle. I decided not to sully Mr. Cheadle’s tweet with my response and instead, I’m using it here. Why? Let me share the tweet. Just so you know, Don Cheadle is a real person, David Goodman in this account is not:

(Source: Twitter.)

So, a few thoughts…First and foremost, I’m getting super tired and annoyed with bots and real people telling celebrities, who engage in politics, to shut up and entertain. They are tax paying citizens just like the rest of us. Believe it or not, I get tax deductions taken out of my acting checks and so do they. It’s also very rude to say that all an actor, musician, athlete, celebrity of any sort is only there to be a minion and entertain you. Especially since you have no idea where they came from or how they became celebrities in the first place. Some come from wealthy families, others like myself, came from the dirt. Either way it’s still a job, so we are working just like anyone else on this planet.

Second, I’m getting REALLY sick and tired of troll accounts and bots that are coming out of the woodwork on all forms of social media. They are doing the absolute MOST to divide and piss everyone off. For example: yesterday, a troll account tried to spread a rumor that black women were boycotting the upcoming Black Panther movie. The reason was that Michael B. Jordan, who plays the villain in the film, has a non-black girlfriend in real life.

(Source: Facebook.)

Seriously?! No black women are boycotting this movie! We don’t care! We are watching this film! And yet, a bunch of men on Twitter believed it and tried to drag us! 🤦🏽‍♀️

(Source: Tenor.)

Aren’t people aware that there are more sinister things at work here? These distractions are placed there to ruin us and they’re working. Bots like the one Mr. Cheadle retweeted, should not have had any sort of engagement whatsoever, and yet here we are. He has a massive platform and now that bot has more exposure. That means more fake profiles and cyberattacks.

Instead, here is a good rule of thumb: just block them. It’s not like the admins of Twitter are really doing anything to solve the problem anyhow.