I don’t want to talk too much about yesterday’s mass shooting because it is too sad and too close to home for me being a habitual member of the gaming community. What I do want to talk about is the fragile ego of individual, themselves, who premeditated a mass shooting in the event that they lost.
What the hell?
In a world that’s finally opening up about issues surrounding poor mental health, we still struggle to dive deep into harmful personality disorders. I say harmful because its usually the people around the individual that suffers more loss than the actual individual. Just look at our current leadership for a perfect example.
Where does the breakdown happen? Is it from birth, a traumatic event, or the way someone was raised? Did they never lose in life and now when they feel a minor and/or perceived loss they must react in a murderous rage. This is just a game. People lose. It’s part of the process. You learn, you grow.
So what can we do as a society? The murderer used their loss as the final straw, but it didn’t start there. We would really have to look back and see where the red flags were ignored as well as when the poor behavior was rewarded. We also have to recognize a pattern that many people on social media are violently resisting: the fact that the majority of the mass shooters are male and white. Sorry, not sorry, this is a glaring pattern.
Just a couple of more weeks before I jet off to another land. I’m a roller coaster of emotions, but I will be alright. The big stuff is still yet to come:
•Having all of the necessary documents
A couple of things about this move are making me a little nervous. For starters, even though I have proof of acceptance to the school, medical insurance, money for cost of living, a valid passport, and accommodation, the immigration officer is well within their rights to block me from entering the country. I’m a U.S. Citizen, and unfortunately my country is not in good standing with the world right now. This is a valid reason to not permit me to study in Ireland.
The other concern is when I get there, will I be approved to work part-time? When meeting with the second round of immigration officers, I have to prove my finances by way of bank statements and additional income. I really NEED to work while I’m there. My family is not rich and we still have a slew of money issues.
I’m trying to hope for the best though.
As of right now, my notices were put in for work and next week is my final week at two of my three jobs. The last one I’m working all the way until it’s time for me to jet off. I have no idea how I’m going to pull it all off, but I’m going to make it happen.
Cruel fate, why do you do this to me?! There is a new movie being shot in Philadelphia that is backed by the Russo Brothers and stars Chadwick Boseman called ’17 Bridges.’ It starts filming late September after I leave for Dublin.
This would have been to closest I’ve ever been to work with people from Marvel (besides Creed 2 and the Wizard World Convention a couple of years ago.) I am sad and will have to live vicariously through my friends who will undoubtedly be working on this project.
Welp, it’s not Sunday. Not only did I fail to post ‘Work Update pt. 2’, but I also didn’t post a new episode of ‘Save the Drama for Your Shamma’. My apologies it’s been a long week.
Here are the updates:
•I lost one of my shifts at the restaurant, which sucks because I was starting to build up some more cash. It also came at a time where I did get a windfall of money from my Grandfather to complete my move to Dublin; however, having extra padding is super helpful. I’m going to put in my resignation notice soon anyway, so there’s no use in complaining about it now.
•Other particulars for school have been in place for a while now with the exception of student accommodation. Mainly because I’m not using student financial aid and paying on my own instead. This means I have to find my own accommodation and it’s been difficult. Dublin is one of the hardest cities to find housing. There are plenty of apartments I could live in…if I was wealthy. Unfortunately I don’t have that kind of money to live in one of those spaces so it looks like my first semester may be spent living in a hostel.
•I WILL have a new episode of ‘Save the Drama for Your Shamma’ tomorrow and again on Sunday. I just had to get my life together in the meantime.
That’s all for now. I hope to have better news next time.
I kept my mind open at the staff meeting for the theatre to see what’s happening next. There were a lot of questions for why things are the way they are. Although there is a game plan moving forward, I still think the entire staff should tread carefully in regard to those changes and their own job security.
Thankfully, I still have my hours…for now.
I’ll update about job #2 on Sunday.