Burlesque and Pole Dancing

(Source: Facebook, Artist Unknown.)

A couple of things have come up in the striptease realm for me. One of them I am definitely involved in and the other one conflicts with my schedule.

(Source: The Lost Pinup Page On Facebook .)

There is an upcoming audition for one of the big burlesque troupes in Philadelphia. Sadly I have to miss it because I can only do half of the shows on the list. I’ve wanted to do burlesque for quite some time; especially since I did a variation of burlesque, when I attended classes at my old Pole studio. I’m really disappointed, but I do hope I can participate in some way in the future.

(Circa: St. Patrick’s Day 2017.)

The video above is what happens when a slippery pole, felt carpet flooring, and too many cocktails are combined.

With that said, the pole studio I applied to is finally open and the owner and I are finalizing a schedule soon. I’m only teaching pole tease with heels (no pole tricks of any kind) and I need to come up with a routine. She is also making a promotional video for the studio and I am participating in that; so yay for pole fitness! I’ll post a video later of the routine I came up for November.

Going Keto

(Source: Facebook.)

The company I’m enrolled as a distributor with, just launched a whole Ketogenic friendly coffee drink.

Friends unrelated to this company, and have no interest in this company; started talking about going Keto.

Two days ago, a K-Beauty blog I follow, talked about the benefits of going Keto for beautiful skin.

As one of my theatre friends once said: “When the Clue x 4 hits you over the head, you must listen.”

So now I have decided to go Keto.

(Source: Tom Davies and Witchcraft Down & Dirty Facebook page. This is the way I will be drinking tea from now on.)

I’m an Ovo-Lacto Vegetarian. Unlike my vegan counterparts, I will eat animal products, just not the animal itself. Surely a vegan will flame me for eating dairy, however the big issue with my health (mentally and physically) is the over abundance of carbs and sugar (and not the caffeine and dairy as I originally thought.) Diabetes is also hereditary in my family, which means I have to keep my eye on it at all times.

There is also a lovely selection of the fruits and veggies I already eat that are included in the Keto diet (thank goodness.) The downside is having to let go of some of the things I love like bread (unless it’s low carb), pasta (I eat zoodles now), candy, alcohol (not really missing much here), sodas/fruit juices, potatoes, and other super starchy/high sugar fruits and veggies. Cheese, on the other hand, stays in the game.

(Source: Facebook. Dairy should still be consumed in moderation, but I will never let it go. I also have no intentions of getting married which should alleviate this problem.)

My first day on the diet was yesterday and I also included a cup of coffee with heavy cream and no sugar. I didn’t have a panic attack, and I had energy all day. As soon as I get my food right, my fitness will be next. I’m healing my body one step at a time.

I Got A Little Triggered Today…

(Source: Saturday Night Live and NBC)

I watched ‘Ingrid Goes West’ earlier today at the independent theatre I used to work at. It was a good film, but I got a little triggered. Much like the heroine of the film, I too struggle with mental illness; which left me questioning myself and life in general…am I like Ingrid?

The answer is quite possibly, yes. Though it was more on a “seeking out a boyfriend” level, rather than trying to make friends or try to be cool. (After being rejected several times, I came to accept being a bit of a loser with guys; but my friendships with women and men are my saving grace.)

In the end, Ingrid had a positive resolution. Me…well my luck in the guy department has not.

It is what it is.

Sword and Shield

(Source: Facebook)

While I’m still working on getting bookings to pad my bank account, I did sign up for another stage combat course!

This time it’s sword and shield. Taught by my same instructor that ran the unarmed stage combat course. Sword and shield is a SAFD category, though in this class and inspired by the recent Wonder Woman movie, my instructor wanted to take it to another badass level. The other cool thing about this course is that I will see many of my old classmates from my previous class and that too is very exciting. I can’t wait to kick ass and take names on the battlefield.

Mad Money

(Source: Is featured on the bottom left of this meme and Pinterest.)

I’m definitely going all in with my acting career. However, I will always have some sort of a side hustle to keep me alive too. Why? Because of things like this, or like this; or the two instances of my loss of employment that both led to extreme poverty and initially to homelessness.

My mother passed down a term to me that she learned from her mother…”always have Mad Money.” If you are familiar with the term, great! For those that aren’t, all it means that if you are a woman who is on a date with a man that is untoward in any way, you always keep a store of cash on you to be able to take a cab home and buy your own dinner.

When it comes to work, it should be the same way. I nor you should be beholden to abuse by superiors because you really need the work; and although it is my dream to take my career as far as it can go, the entertainment industry is basically the Wild West when it comes down to workplace conduct. I would love to be able to have the freedom to walk away with my chosen finger in the air if I hear a producer, director, co-star, or any employer say “if you defy me, you’ll never work in this business again.” That is when you can walk away with confidence.

Sigh…😔

(Source: Facebook.)

The prognosis on my dad is not good and he is depressed. No, he is not dying, but he has to get additional surgery and tons of antibiotics. Honestly this sucks. My dad used to be so healthy. Once again, I feel powerless in figuring out how to make things better. I’m a little worried about his condition affecting his quality of life. The whole healthcare argument in D.C. isn’t helping things either.

(Source: Facebook.)

A Serious Topic

(Source: Ekhi-Guinea, Deviant Art.)

The artwork above is not meant to be funny. What it represents to me is what I see going on in the World right now. While it has been said that right now is the safest time to be alive and that media coverage just puts more emphasis on the negative; when you have events like the mass shooting in Las Vegas last night, Puerto Rico in peril, violence in Spain and Catalonia, and anger over athletes trying kneel for the deaths in the black community…I feel nothing but powerless and basically watching my planet die.

All of this seething hatred means there is a serious lack of love and deep rooted pain. We somehow need to disrupt the pattern or drown in it. But how?

No Sense of Urgency

(Source: Facebook)

I have a laundry list of things to do today and the only thing I got done was: laundry.

I have no motivation. Or should I say, I’m not caffeinated. Because of my bad panic attacks I made it a point to severely reduce and even cut out caffeine in the past couple of weeks. It’s been leaving me super tired, foggy, and dragging.

What can I do though? I can’t get crippled by a panic attack like I did in Manhattan. I just want to function like a normal human being again…sigh.

Theatre Mouse

(Source: Pinterest.)

As I was sitting backstage; I was in the middle of reviewing my notes for when I needed to place props and move furniture. I noticed something in my peripheral while I was writing. Lo and behold…it was a little baby mouse crawling on my shoe. 😮

No, our theatre is not dirty. It’s just that we rent the lower auditorium in a church that is basically a million years old. Because of that, we have the occasional critter roam through the building.

I don’t have a fear of rodents really (I had a hamster once, named Hooba), but I don’t want it crawling all over me like this little guy did. I kind of want to name it too. Since we are performing Tick, Tick…Boom!; I think I will name it Jonathan, like the lead character and writer of the show Jonathan Larson.