The Weird Is Beginning To Show Itself

(Source: Facebook.)

I’m into the third week of my new job and it’s already starting with the nonsense. So far I have already received unsolicited life advice from someone I’m pretty sure is 15 years younger than me, cattiness between coworkers, and cranky customers. While I know this is typical of any job, I had sincerely hoped that I was going to enter into a more pleasant environment. Especially since management is cool with working with my schedule.

I just have to remember that all of this is helping me with my career goals and it’s not permanent.

Wiped Out

(Source: Facebook.)

I’m tired.

My trip to New York wasn’t exactly restful due to the fact that I had to come back late last night in order to work this morning. But this is my life now.

I didn’t mention the new job I’m working at now, simply because I wasn’t trying to jinx it. I had post back in March, talking about a job that couldn’t stick to my availability. I had to quit that job and remain worried about money for the next month and a half.

I’m happy to be working somewhere and the job isn’t bad. My financial goals for SAG and Dublin are still on track.

Celebrities Are Not Babysitters

(Source: Facebook.)

There’s been several people complaining on Twitter about appetite suppressants being sold by Kim Kardashian. Their anger is that she is promoting it to impressionable youth. How dare her?!

Let me be clear…I don’t like Kim Kardashian or her family. I think they get way too much press and to quote something I tweeted earlier: she enjoys wearing the cloak of a sex worker without any of the backlash. With that being said, I think people are making this a bigger thing than it is.

I sell diet products and I have used appetite suppressants recently. But if I were to tell you that, in my youth, a celebrity compelled me to be skinny, I would tell you no.

For me it started at home. Not to air out my dirty laundry, but my mom complained about being fat (she never was) all of the time. That mindset trickled down to me, which is where most of my issues regarding weight come from. So if kids are desperate to use this product, the people who raised them is where I would look to first. Besides, if she really is in charge leading youth to follow in her image, then their parents really are failing to guide them properly.

Stepping off my soapbox now.

Borg vs. McEnroe

(Source: Teaser Trailer.com and Pinterest.)

This film just completed its run at my job and I wanted to unpack my thoughts about it. Not the quality of the film, which in fact was very good, but the process that went into making it.

The reason is, there are so many locations used, crowd scenes, costuming, historical accuracy respected, camera angles, stunt doubles, and shoot days.

Let’s start with locations. According to Wikipedia, this film was shot over at least 5 locations: Gothenburg, Sweden; Södertälje, Sweden; Prague, Czech Republic; London, United Kingdom; and the country of Monaco. The stadium used to mimic the Centre Court arena was in Prague and not the actual arena in Wimbledon* if you can believe that.

Crowd scenes. Oh boy do I know about quite a bit about this. Working crowd scenes, seems to be what I do mostly on my background shoots. Whether I’m at a party or a courtroom, chances are I, and a number of other background actors are being herded to set by Production Assistants. For this type of crowd scene though, they needed hundreds. With enough costuming to cheat the shot and make it look like thousands were in attendance. I could only imagine the casting notice for a shoot like this:

Seeking Men and Women, ages 18-99 for early 1980s Upscale Spectators in an outdoor sporting event. Must have multiple Summer looks to choose from and period appropriate hairstyles.

I didn’t include a pay rate because I don’t know how much they paid their actors, but that would usually be a part of the casting call too.

Costuming for the late 1970s, early 80s would be a pain. Not only does the background have to be in time appropriate clothes, but the principals as well. Many of the actors, I could tell, grew out their hair to match the look of the era. Though some of them had wigs on that looked mighty questionable.**

The costuming wasn’t the only thing that had to be respected historically, but much of the play too! The stunt doubles that actually played tennis match are great at what they do, because it definitely looked like they matched key moments of play.

The camera work and later editing, is what made this film. I’m sure this was multiple shoot days as it usually takes about a 12 hour day to film 5 minutes worth of footage at different angles. Plus the days had to be sunny. This doesn’t include the hard work the lighting crew has to put in to assist with making the lighting look consistent throughout the entire tennis match.

By far one of the more impressive films I have seen composed on the independent circuit.

*I kept wanting to spell Wilmington, which is where I live lol.

**I have a different word other than “questionable”, but I’m trying to be polite.

Another Dream

(Taken on May 3 in New York.)

This time it was a good dream: I receive an email about finally getting to work on a project that I have been waiting on.

The real question is, how does this play out in reality? Right now I’m taking on work that is as close to the industry as I can get. However, even with all that I have accomplished, it doesn’t seem like it’s enough.

This dream that I had gave me a sliver of hope. Fingers crossed on a breakthrough.

Tribeca: The End and What’s Next?

(Photo taken last night on the red carpet at BMCC Tribeca PAC.)

Last night was my last shift at the festival. It was another star studded event featuring the film ‘Disobedience’, starring Rachel Weisz and Rachel McAdams. Both Rachels wore lovely gowns for the premiere and were absolutely stunning. It’s funny, now that I’ve have seen so many celebrities in passing, I’m compelled to get into better shape; though I don’t aim to be, nor could I be as thin as they are. My wish is to make my body better than what it is right now.

So the big post-festival question is: where do I go from here? I’ve already talked about my need to perform again. Yes, that has to happen before I sink further into depression and outdate my résumé. I’m thinking about doing some more training in my field, like an audition workshop, dialect course, or on-camera acting course. Something to get back into the flow. The voiceover project is coming along slowly, but I should have some better news about that later on this week.

I will say, this whole experience has motivated me to further work on my craft.

Filler Post

(Source: someecards.com)

Hello Friends,

Queen Procrastinator here. My apologies for being so late with posting on my blog. I was too lazy to write very busy and couldn’t make the time to write. But I’m back and brimming with ideas. Instead of writing a separate post each day, I’m going to write short topical blurbs I have to share/have opinions on, in this post. This way I’m all up to date and will have a fresh post for tomorrow. Ok, here we go.

Publicity Stunts

(Source: quickmeme.com and ABC)

I think the debacle with Conor McGregor is a total publicity stunt, here’s why:

I have found in the entertainment biz, that in order to keep the dollars rolling in and to create buzz, people pull publicity stunts, sell stories to tabloids, and drum up drama on social media seemingly from nowhere. UFC is a form of entertainment even if it consists of people beating the crap out of each other. Now while I’m a martial artist myself, watching others fight for profit is not my jam, but I get that it’s a business. The fight that McGregor had with Floyd Mayweather was insanely profitable, even though many fans watching it felt like they were fleeced out of their money. Much of the latest drama with CM flying in his people from Ireland (which is some next level shenanigans if you ask me) and attacking a bus full of fighters, feels along the same mode of operation. But what really stuck out to me that this may have been fraudulent? It was the subsequent interview with UFC’s owner, Dana White. He described the chaos in full, but for someone who claimed to be disturbed by the whole ordeal; he looked and sounded like a kid who’s struggling to hold in a secret that one of his classmates has a crush on his friend. It was really strange and frankly very suspicious to me. And while Conor McGregor did turn himself in for arrest, at best he is going to get a slap on the wrist. (Wealth and celebrity is a privilege.) Does this mean that all entertainment publicity stunts are done for profit? No. Some are done for vengeance, but profit leads the way most times.

Acro Yoga

(Source: Shared on Kurohime’s Palace FB.)

I was a flyer last night, which is shocking! I was always a backspot/base in cheerleading…I’m usually too tall and heavy to be a flyer. Somehow, during the quick lesson I took, I managed to do the “Bird” pose (as seen here):

(Source: Jeff Nelson, Yoga Journal , and Pinterest.)

All 200 lbs of me (no exaggeration.) I did have a spotter because I was a tad bit nervous about being up in the air. I want to practice some more (and drop some weight in the process) to see if this helps with re-conditioning my body back to the strength level it once was.

Working At The Theatre

(Source: Thespian Peacock Tumblr and Pinterest.)

In this case, I’m referring to the independent movie theatre I’m currently working at. I initially got hired in the Summer of 2016. Unbeknownst to me, the city planned to sell the theatre to a private buyer and I ended up being laid off after 2 short months of working, while the sale was finalized and renovations were made to the space. It’s almost 2 years later and I was hired back to my old position. I forgot how much I liked working here. Not just because I’m getting paid to watch movies, but the movies themselves are quality. As mentioned before, this is an independent movie theatre, meaning we play predominantly independent films (though it’s not part of a franchise either.) So far between my previous stint and currently I have watched:

•Weiner (documentary about Anthony Weiner.)

•I Saw The Light (biopic about Hank Williams Sr.)

•First Monday In May (documentary about the Met Gala.)

•Phantom Thread (the only movie I watched so far, that I hated.)

•All The Queen’s Horses (documentary about the Rita Crundwell fraud case in Dixon, IL.)

•A Fantastic Woman (winner of the Best Foreign Language Film Oscar.)

•Faces Places (Independent Spirit Award winner for Best Documentary.)

•And many more.

I’m eagerly awaiting ‘The Death of Stalin’ and to watch some of the AFI Top 100 films too.

Instagram Series

(Circa a few weeks ago with the ‘One Color Makeup Challenge’)

If you don’t follow me on Instagram, please do so! This blog is great for deeper thought, but Instagram is where I post all of the fun “behind the scenes” stuff. Since I’m working at Tribeca and got picked to the highest Crew position I can be in; I’m spending this week creating Instagram stories where I’m styling myself for the week. The theme: Creative Ways of Wearing All Black.

Storage

(Source: Iyanla: Fix My Life.)

The family storage unit had to be emptied because the rent was too high and we were getting behind on payments. This isn’t a bad thing. I take it as a sign that we have to get rid of more stuff. The biggest issue is much of it previously belonged to my great grandmother and grandmother. They shopped compulsively with no where to put things. After they died my family was left with the burden of picking up the pieces. Hopefully we can get it down to a manageable amount before I head off to Dublin.

Dublin

(Source: Facebook.)

Speaking of Dublin…I have a secret project I’m working on that will make my experience over there better. I’m not going to reveal too much as I don’t want to jinx it. Just know that once it gets closer to when I start school, I will write a whole post about it.

Whew! That’s all I have for now. Expect a fresh post tomorrow!

Kind of a Bum

(Photo taken today. Filter courtesy of Instagram.)

I have things going on, and yet I don’t have things going on. On the positive side:

• I got booked to work Tribeca Film Festival this year.

• I got a mentor to help me with my voiceover portfolio.

• I have two jobs at the pole studio and the movie theatre.

On the downside though:

• I haven’t been doing much performing.

Much of my depression, I believe, comes from the fact that I don’t feel like I’m doing enough; even though I’m doing plenty.

There are a couple of things coming up that I’m going to try to dip my toes into. First and foremost: Saturday Night Live has this Saturday and next where they will air an episode. I applied for this weekend, but if they don’t take me this weekend, I’ll definitely apply next weekend since I’m already going to be in NYC for Tribeca’s orientation. Also the community theatre in NJ (that I had the amazing ‘As You Like It’ audition, even though I didn’t get picked) is holding auditions for ‘Twelfth Night’. Which is funny, because I bombed the last ‘TN’ audition with Shakespeare in Clark Park, Philadelphia. Maybe I’m just supposed to try again with a different group. It would be earlier in the Summer, which is good, and in a very hip little town in Jersey. The only conflict is transportation, but I will figure something out.

Ultimately, I need to get out of this rut. Especially since it appears that most of my friends are working on various projects and shows (like Creed 2, which surprise, surprise…I didn’t get picked again 😏.) I don’t want to get into that jealous phase where I’m judging myself by another person’s highlight reel; so I really need to do something of my own soon. Even if the part is tiny, I don’t care. I want to be productive.

Rest

(Source: Facebook.)

Earlier this month, I read my March horoscope. The advice that was given:

Take as many naps as possible this month. You are going to need it.

I found it hilarious that a horoscope would give me this advice, but you know what? I do need it.

Tomorrow is the first day of training at my new job. I also have a private pole dance lesson to teach that night. On Friday, I have a modeling gig and later, I need to be at Wilmington Drama League to work their lights again. Pretty much for the rest of March, I’m going to be running between three jobs, a community theatre gig, a modeling gig, and a podcast interview.

I’m going to take a nap right now. ✌🏽

I Got a Job!

(Source: Fresh Prince of Bel Air NBC.)

After weeks of searching, I finally landed a job. I’m really super happy about it too since it’s close to home and I will earn money right away. I’m still gunning for the film festival job since that can be worked on the weekend; as well as possibly working my old gig at the independent movie theatre (also close to home).

The shifts are during the day, so my pole teaching gig is safe. I may have days free to work production gigs too! However, that will be on be back burner until I get my union dues paid.

While I’m on the subject about union dues, this is what this new job will help me pay for and hopefully with speed. Not saying I’m going to make thousands of dollars right away, but it’s possible to get a nice head start.

I have a lot of monetary goals and it’s fantastic to have another supplemental income while working on my career. This is so exciting.