My Career Is Stagnant At The Moment…

(Taken late last month.)

There’s not much I can do about it. What I can do is take stock of where I’m at now:

•SAG eligible

•A decent theatre resume

•A film credit

•Nominated for a regional award

That’s what I have for the time being, though I managed to get this done at a rapid pace of 3 years (SAG alone takes some people a decade.)

Right now, the only thing I have going on is my YouTube channel until I work another film in 2019. I’ll try to keep this page updated on any industry related things that may come up in the meantime.

Second Chance

(Source: Sailor Moon, Toei Animation. Creator Naoko Takeuchi.)

Remember two weeks ago when I submitted my information to a high level mover and shaker in the industry? That gig they advertised has come and gone with me not working on it, but they advertised another casting call scheduled for this week.

As always, I strike while the iron is hot with this strike leading to some success! I got a call back for a live audition.

This gig may also not be for me, however, I will definitely be on their radar for any future project.

The other rumor about this individual…they may be able to represent talent. Ultimately that is my goal: to get representation, bigger parts, and more work. Wish me luck!

Mini-Break

(Source: Pinterest.)

My family was away this past weekend. Dad is still getting treatment at the outpatient facility and Mom took a business trip out of state to consider a possible relocation.

It reminded me of the old days before I was homeless. I used to have my own space, a working vehicle, a job that paid all of my bills, and freedom…

So what did I do with my new found quiet time? Slept a bit, organized some papers, reassessed my life, and prayed.

Lately I’ve been down about my career. It’s been a dry year for me and seems like it’s taking forever just for me to pull together my down payment for SAG. Even though I’m working three jobs, the money is sparse; which makes me worry if I can even get to Dublin at this point. Having to focus on my family’s care has also added to the stress, which makes this break all the more beautiful.

My Mom will be home late tonight. My Dad, a few days later. I will miss the peace a quiet for now, but I know I will get back to it soon.

Tribeca: The End and What’s Next?

(Photo taken last night on the red carpet at BMCC Tribeca PAC.)

Last night was my last shift at the festival. It was another star studded event featuring the film ‘Disobedience’, starring Rachel Weisz and Rachel McAdams. Both Rachels wore lovely gowns for the premiere and were absolutely stunning. It’s funny, now that I’ve have seen so many celebrities in passing, I’m compelled to get into better shape; though I don’t aim to be, nor could I be as thin as they are. My wish is to make my body better than what it is right now.

So the big post-festival question is: where do I go from here? I’ve already talked about my need to perform again. Yes, that has to happen before I sink further into depression and outdate my résumé. I’m thinking about doing some more training in my field, like an audition workshop, dialect course, or on-camera acting course. Something to get back into the flow. The voiceover project is coming along slowly, but I should have some better news about that later on this week.

I will say, this whole experience has motivated me to further work on my craft.

Tribeca Day 1

(Circa yesterday on my break.)

Last night was my first shift of the festival and it was different for sure. The job of being an Orange Hat isn’t difficult, but there is so much excitement going on that trying to help our VIPs can be overwhelming. That being said, we have a mixed bag of VIPs to assist and that includes celebrities. When that happens, it’s essential to keep your game face on, and not get star struck.

Speaking of celebrities: I have also witnessed my first red carpet in real time. The flash from the cameras were blinding (I don’t know how they can stand it.) One thing I did notice was how quickly they do a red carpet event. It was all of 10 minutes max that I saw Ethan Hawke and Noomi Rapace (both appearing for their film ‘Stockholm’), fly through the entire thing with interviews included. Then the Tribeca crew had to replace the name tags of the previous paparazzi with different paparazzi, change the background, and set up new barricades for a new set of celebrities to walk past. Absolutely nuts!

Speaking of paparazzi: I made friends with one! I spoke to him on my break. He noticed I had Crew credentials on and asked me how I liked the festival so far. I told him it was cool and I had never seen anything like this before. Even though I have worked at comic cons, this was a new level of chaos. I also told him how I’m utilizing this opportunity for my career since I’m an actress too. We chatted for a while longer, he broke down the process of a successful red carpet experience for both the celebrity and the photographer. The process of selling photos, and showed me some of his work. He also does professional headshots, so I may reach out to him in the future.

Speaking of making friends (this post has the most convenient segues): the Orange Hat Crew is very cool. Since we are all mixed in the chaos together, we are also bonding. So far, I have met a woman who travels to work the big film festivals on crew (I wish I had the cash flow to do that.) I also met a woman who works both the HR division (my old gig) and is also helping out on crew. Another person I met is the one who was courteous enough to buy me the coffee you see in the photo, even though I didn’t ask him. He works on a production crew and is aspiring to be a screenwriter. When the festival wraps up there will be an after party in early May. I think I’m going to attend.

I think that’s everything I want to post about so far. Today is day two and it may be much of the same, but I will keep you posted on any new developments.

Preparation 


(I would smile but the mud would start cracking.)

I have something booked for next week which I will do a post on later. What this post is about is getting camera ready. Featured in this photo is a “Fango Mud Therapy” sample mask by Jor’El Parker. (The DC/Marvel references are not lost on me.) I got it by way of a subscription to Ipsy. My face had a major break out due to stress and transitioning of my skin care. It was a total mess and I needed a fix so my face would not look jacked up on camera. Prior to working in human resources and working at the bar, I used to work in retail selling cosmetics. I’m a bit of a product junkie and I try many things to see what works on my skin. (Prior to working in cosmetics, I never wore make-up or was particularly girly and glamorous. I was definitely more of a Tomboy.)

Even though I was a Tomboy, I still had acne issues and tried to keep some sort of a skin care regime. This has served me well in the anti-aging department (I’m 33 currently.) Right now I’m in a weird place between using hardcore anti-aging and anti-acne skin care. My face does not know what it wants to do at the moment. Like either be dry and wrinkly or oily and pimply; pick a stuggle dammit!

A couple of things I also need to add to the list of preparation is:

•Touching up my roots because they are looking a little silver.

•Shaping up my brows.

•Eye cream (always!)

•Teeth Whitening treatment.

•Wax, wax, wax!

•Continue to train my naturally tight, curly hair to lay straight and flat for the shoot.

•Body wraps, lots of water and continue improving my fitness regime. (Story about that later.)

This will probably not be my only post today as I have a lot on my mind and need to talk about it, but I want to get a power nap in and think about how I’m going to write it in the meantime.

Filler Post

(Source: someecards.com)

Hello Friends,

Queen Procrastinator here. My apologies for being so late with posting on my blog. I was too lazy to write very busy and couldn’t make the time to write. But I’m back and brimming with ideas. Instead of writing a separate post each day, I’m going to write short topical blurbs I have to share/have opinions on, in this post. This way I’m all up to date and will have a fresh post for tomorrow. Ok, here we go.

Publicity Stunts

(Source: quickmeme.com and ABC)

I think the debacle with Conor McGregor is a total publicity stunt, here’s why:

I have found in the entertainment biz, that in order to keep the dollars rolling in and to create buzz, people pull publicity stunts, sell stories to tabloids, and drum up drama on social media seemingly from nowhere. UFC is a form of entertainment even if it consists of people beating the crap out of each other. Now while I’m a martial artist myself, watching others fight for profit is not my jam, but I get that it’s a business. The fight that McGregor had with Floyd Mayweather was insanely profitable, even though many fans watching it felt like they were fleeced out of their money. Much of the latest drama with CM flying in his people from Ireland (which is some next level shenanigans if you ask me) and attacking a bus full of fighters, feels along the same mode of operation. But what really stuck out to me that this may have been fraudulent? It was the subsequent interview with UFC’s owner, Dana White. He described the chaos in full, but for someone who claimed to be disturbed by the whole ordeal; he looked and sounded like a kid who’s struggling to hold in a secret that one of his classmates has a crush on his friend. It was really strange and frankly very suspicious to me. And while Conor McGregor did turn himself in for arrest, at best he is going to get a slap on the wrist. (Wealth and celebrity is a privilege.) Does this mean that all entertainment publicity stunts are done for profit? No. Some are done for vengeance, but profit leads the way most times.

Acro Yoga

(Source: Shared on Kurohime’s Palace FB.)

I was a flyer last night, which is shocking! I was always a backspot/base in cheerleading…I’m usually too tall and heavy to be a flyer. Somehow, during the quick lesson I took, I managed to do the “Bird” pose (as seen here):

(Source: Jeff Nelson, Yoga Journal , and Pinterest.)

All 200 lbs of me (no exaggeration.) I did have a spotter because I was a tad bit nervous about being up in the air. I want to practice some more (and drop some weight in the process) to see if this helps with re-conditioning my body back to the strength level it once was.

Working At The Theatre

(Source: Thespian Peacock Tumblr and Pinterest.)

In this case, I’m referring to the independent movie theatre I’m currently working at. I initially got hired in the Summer of 2016. Unbeknownst to me, the city planned to sell the theatre to a private buyer and I ended up being laid off after 2 short months of working, while the sale was finalized and renovations were made to the space. It’s almost 2 years later and I was hired back to my old position. I forgot how much I liked working here. Not just because I’m getting paid to watch movies, but the movies themselves are quality. As mentioned before, this is an independent movie theatre, meaning we play predominantly independent films (though it’s not part of a franchise either.) So far between my previous stint and currently I have watched:

•Weiner (documentary about Anthony Weiner.)

•I Saw The Light (biopic about Hank Williams Sr.)

•First Monday In May (documentary about the Met Gala.)

•Phantom Thread (the only movie I watched so far, that I hated.)

•All The Queen’s Horses (documentary about the Rita Crundwell fraud case in Dixon, IL.)

•A Fantastic Woman (winner of the Best Foreign Language Film Oscar.)

•Faces Places (Independent Spirit Award winner for Best Documentary.)

•And many more.

I’m eagerly awaiting ‘The Death of Stalin’ and to watch some of the AFI Top 100 films too.

Instagram Series

(Circa a few weeks ago with the ‘One Color Makeup Challenge’)

If you don’t follow me on Instagram, please do so! This blog is great for deeper thought, but Instagram is where I post all of the fun “behind the scenes” stuff. Since I’m working at Tribeca and got picked to the highest Crew position I can be in; I’m spending this week creating Instagram stories where I’m styling myself for the week. The theme: Creative Ways of Wearing All Black.

Storage

(Source: Iyanla: Fix My Life.)

The family storage unit had to be emptied because the rent was too high and we were getting behind on payments. This isn’t a bad thing. I take it as a sign that we have to get rid of more stuff. The biggest issue is much of it previously belonged to my great grandmother and grandmother. They shopped compulsively with no where to put things. After they died my family was left with the burden of picking up the pieces. Hopefully we can get it down to a manageable amount before I head off to Dublin.

Dublin

(Source: Facebook.)

Speaking of Dublin…I have a secret project I’m working on that will make my experience over there better. I’m not going to reveal too much as I don’t want to jinx it. Just know that once it gets closer to when I start school, I will write a whole post about it.

Whew! That’s all I have for now. Expect a fresh post tomorrow!

Do I Bother?

(Source: Beyond Scared Straight, A&E.)

It looks like Twitter is cleaning house by suspending accounts left and right. Even if you did nothing wrong, but have certain words arranged in a tweet, it can trigger an algorithm that will automatically suspend you. This is one of the social media outlets I have recently put more time into engaging with people. As you know, social media has become increasingly important for promoting yourself and your business.

The day may come, where my profile will trigger the algorithm, and I have to ask myself “is it worth saving?”

With everything that Twitter isn’t doing, like not suspending our “leadership’s” profile for serious violations. Barely, if at all, suspending accounts that target and harass others for speaking out; but God Forbid, you mention suicide.

*sigh*

The answer is probably No.

So what will I do from here? Probably focus on another platform and build that. Jack and Twitter are on the wrong side of history anyway.

Fenty Beauty

(Source: Black Nerd Problems Twitter.)

Ok. So. I’m super late to the Fenty game, but I finally put down the money to purchase a bottle of the company’s foundation for myself. Dear God, this is amazing foundation, and I’m not blowing smoke either! I did a tutorial on my Instagram stories (which I saved in the highlights btw); you could see that my skin looked smooth and translucent. I want to share my takeaways:

1) It didn’t turn orange, which is a common occurrence with me and liquid foundations. The only foundations that don’t turn on me are powders, but they are still just a twinge too yellow for me. My skin didn’t turn greasy either. Fantastic.

2) This is the only brand I’ve noticed that managed to crack the code relating to olive undertones. This is a huge struggle for many cosmetic brands. Bare Minerals (the company I used to work for) came close, by making fair to deep foundations with more golden undertones. However, they were still not able to get this close. When I pumped out my Fenty foundation, it was a soft green. Most brands make foundations too red. Hence why I mentioned that most of my foundations in the past, turn me orange.

3) The product comes out watery, but dries to a powder finish. I love that. I didn’t have to use a lot to get good coverage, and it feels super light. Believe it or not, I don’t like to look or feel super “done” like many makeup aficionados you would see on Instagram. Especially when auditioning for various projects. The casting directors and production companies want to see me for who I am. If I look too made up: it can screw me out of a job. Needless to say this foundation was a good investment.

4) The foundation matched me so well, that it confused my mom. She thought I looked too clear, pale, green, etc, because she wasn’t used to seeing me not orange. My mom never had acne or uneven tone, so she never had to use foundation in her life (lucky.) Because of this, she has a hard time differentiating between what is good makeup and what is bad makeup.

5) The packaging is really simple and it looks like you get a good quantity for the money. Like I said earlier, it didn’t take a lot of product for me to get good coverage. If I were to forecast my cost per wear, I’m looking at about 25-35¢ each time. Probably even less.

6) I also went into a darkened room and took a flash photo. The reason is to see how the foundation does under bright lighting. Working under bright stage lighting, set lighting, and flash photography, creates a problem with foundations. The term is called Photo Flashback. See example below:

(Source: Pinterest. It happens to the best of us.)

I had no flashback and no melting from sweat or oil.

From now on, I will be preaching the gospel of Fenty to the masses. I’m super satisfied with this product and will definitely continue to purchase it in the future. Does Rihanna have to be awesome at everything she does?

(Source: @chuuzus Twitter.)

The answer is Yes.

The Press Tour

(Source: ABC News)

This past Sunday, I did a podcast interview with Bored In DE with our segment called ‘Black Women in Theatre.’ To summarize the interview, it was a series of questions about how we got into theatre, what is our perspective about theatre as black women, and have we ever encountered issues because of it. Here is the link to that interview. A couple of things in the interview I want to clarify: 1) the moment we began recording, my stomach decided to mimic a whale’s mating call. I was a little fidgety and distracted, because I thought the mic was picking all of that up and it was triggering a panic attack….ugh! 2) there is a part in the interview (I couldn’t pin down the time stamp) where I’m discussing about men getting weird with me when I tell them I’m an actress. I was having a hard time completing my thought, however, I wanted to add to my statement about “the perception of what men think actresses do to land roles, is sell their bodies”; I know with an absolute fact that is a total myth. I think many of these men turn a blind eye to sexual coercion because they think it’s acceptable. Also I’m intersectional, so the statement wasn’t a put down to the women who work in the adult entertainment industry either. It’s just a weird pattern I noticed with these men.

Moving on to today: I was invited to appear on a local Philly talk show. A friend of mine is connected with the host of that show and makes regular appearances. Since he is a fashion designer and stylist, I will be modeling clothes as he talks about them with the host. A fun gig and an opportunity to appear on TV.

The day before Valentines Day, I will also make an appearance at the Film and Theatre Artists Networking Exchange. I was cast back in September for a web series that will film in Philadelphia and the production company wanted the entire cast to attend. This will be an opportunity to meet everyone working on the project, as well as, meeting other filmmakers and possibly booking more work.

I will post more as I progress.