An Update to the Update


(Source: Yuri!!! On Ice. Viktor Nikiforov 💗)

So what I thought was "No" was actually a very delayed "Yes" the film project wrote me back and sent me a script. I still have no idea what part I'm playing (there are only 2 female speaking parts and the rest are background.) I sincerely hope I have one of the parts as I really need the experience to list on my resume. The only reason why I agreed is because of the concept of the script.

I can't go into too much detail but what I will say is that I could be a witch in this shoot. (Since I'm a crystal hoarding, tarot reading, incense burning, somewhat clairvoyant woman with a very loose Christian affiliation; playing a witch is probably closer to who I really am.) This also fulfills my dream role of playing Hecate in The Scottish Play. (Which was already cast when I came to audition last year 😢 However, I'm not playing Hecate in this shoot.)

Another good thing about this film is that they want us to wear as much black as possible. (Easy enough for me, that is the staple color in my wardrobe.) They also want us to bring a prop.(My tarot cards of course!)

One more thing to add about this film is that it is structured very similarly like my story writing prompts. This is a film competition with the contest runners making up strict rules that the production crew has to follow.

•A specific set of lines need to be included.

•A specific character and their background has to be included

•The production company has a time limit as to how long this film will run (roughly about 5 to 6 minutes.)

Both the lines and the character were selected in a random drawing last night and the writers had to structure the story around that. All of this shoots tonight and be a completely finished product by tomorrow night. (Talk about pressure!)

Hopefully, with their permission, I can share the final product with you on a later post.

No and Yes

At the request of my friends and family, I did try to go out for another film project. Mind you this is a film project that is Unpaid and open to everyone. The responding email included "do you have a reel?"

Interesting…

I thought the purpose of doing unpaid film work was to, in fact, build a reel. That's what the agents recommended to me. That's what all of the actors I'm associated with tell me to do. Needless to say I asked them to disregard my application and sorry for wasting their time.

And with that said; I'm never attempting to do film ever again.

On a somewhat positive note, I'm getting another chance to perform Shakespeare again. A theatre troupe in South Jersey needs a replacement for the role or Orlando in As You Like It, since their original actor dropped out. I audition for it on Tuesday. Fingers Crossed that I land it.

Makeup 💄


(Source: Batman TV Series and Pinterest)

Fun fact: I used to work as a Beauty Ambassador for Bare Minerals. I also worked briefly for Estée Lauder and Too Faced Cosmetics. It was a fun gig while it lasted and honestly I wouldn't mind doing makeup for productions.

The shoot requirements in the email I was sent told me to show up dewy; which led me to put on a highlight. Since my skin is super oily to begin with, I try to avoid putting on highlighter as much as possible (I think I'm already shiny). However, the request was to make myself as shiny as possible. The real question is…did I do a good job?

Cleaning Up

(Source: Softwedge Tumblr.)

The landlord of my building is looking to add new insurance to the property. Since my dad is the super of the building, he thought it would be a good idea to show off the apartment that we live in. This prompted me to really get my butt in gear with finishing up the task I started of packing my things up to move. Now I’m organized and I no longer live in a depression den. There’s still no improvement in the college situation, but I’m prepared to move regardless. Hopefully this was the shift I needed to see some further improvements in my life.

My First Sorta-Stunt Gig

All tears and sadness about school aside, I want to talk about what I am doing for my current show You’ve Got Red On You: A Musical Parody of Shaun of the Dead. I was originally hired on as a stage manager, and that is still part of my duties; however, I now have a small part as a florist and as multiple zombies. This, of course, is due to making sure we have enough people to play zombies and get killed off. I will have 6 costume changes in this show, and I will be doing a lot of stage combat. So much so, that I can now consider it a stage combat category on my resume. (A stunt category too since I have a planned fall.)

 

(I feel like I’m back in competition cheerleading doing this show.)

So this is cool! This play, I will be speaking in a British accent, fighting, falling, dying (multiple times), and spraying blood everywhere. It is helping me take my mind off of my reality for a little bit….

Writing 

(Source: a random share on Facebook, artist unknown.)

There have been a few gaps in between my blog posts and that is no accident. I’m having a bit of a weird kind of writer’s block. It’s not that I have nothing to write about, on the contrary, I have everything to write about! However, my life is moving so fast at the moment, it’s easier for me to do a quick post on Instagram instead of really taking the time I need to craft a post reflecting my thoughts. Plus I have a tendency to pump out too much information which isn’t necessary either.

This is a real problem. And now my meme collection grows larger by the day. I’m not sure if I’m going to have any storage left. 

Hopefully I can get some writing done on vacation…

Combat Workshop 

Piggybacking off of my previous post, I want to talk about my upcoming combat workshop this weekend. You have no idea how stoked I really am! This is a two day workshop down the street from my house (super convenient), that consists of knife fighting, found object fighting, Asian fan fighting, ripping weapons away from an opponent, and fighting with a small sword. I’m especially excited about the sword fighting because it will make me feel a little bit like my childhood hero, Red Sonja. SQUEE!!!


(Source: Marvel Comics Group. And check out Thor: Ragnarok since the writer Roy Thomas also co-created the Valkyrie.)

Needless to say, I freaking love fighting, and I may be a little too aggressive lol.

What Do I Do With My Life Now?

 (Source: It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia)

I have completed my run with Orange Is The New Musical over the weekend and my shoot as a stripper in the independent film Without You. It has been a very productive weekend and after a little bit of rest, I’m ready to tackle all of my stuff related to school. 


      (Source: Student Problems Facebook)

Applying for scholarship money is an ongoing battle, so there is nothing new to report on that end. I’m working on getting as many scholarships and grants I can possibly get before even daring to apply for a student loan. 

I may find myself working at a strip club after networking with the dancers they hired on set. I have too much money I need to make before leaving for Ireland. Since I don’t have a boyfriend anyway, this might be the best time to jump into it. 

Working at a strip club isn’t my only prospect for money. Like I mentioned in previous posts, I can’t legally work in Ireland with a student visa. This means that I do have to seek remote jobs and side businesses that I can start up and work on while I’m in school that doesn’t interfere with my visa. It includes writing for other blogs based in the US, having a network marketing business, and affiliate marketing. The big thing is to work for a blog or even revamp this blog without being click-baity and annoying. Over sensationalized writing gets on my nerves, and the language is terrible. 


     (Source: @comedian_g on Instagram)

Of course I did put in for other gigs and things in the future. Some I lost…(like the pole teaching gig) and some I am still in consideration for (like Firefly). Hopefully I hear back from them soon.

Birthday Weekend 

My birthday is coming up this Friday and I’m starting to make a clear assessment and some hard decisions for my life. I want to leave the US knowing that I will be financially secure in Ireland. I want to be able to see my friends and family before I go. I want to be able to continue working in my industry while in school. Ultimately all I want is a better life for myself. 

No, not everything is bad, but it’s not amazing either. With that said, all I can do is press on as I have been, even though I’m getting to the point where I’m pretty much crying everyday. With that said, here are the things going right:


                      (Source: Pinterest)

I’m performing the last two shows of “Orange Is The New Musical” this weekend and the creators of the musical are flying in from L.A. to watch one of the shows. They are going to do a sort-of talk back to the audience and the cast which should be very fun.

The shoot that I’m doing for the film “Without You” is also this weekend where I play one of the strippers in the scene. I have a cute outfit ready and raring to go, along with trying to drop as much weight, wrapping, and tanning myself as much as possible. I have a stripper background myself, so it’s nice to be able to utilize that background for an actual film. Who knows, maybe I should go back if I want to raise the funds needed for school. Once I move to Ireland, I’m not allowed to dance anyway, it can be a last hurrah. 

My Jane Austen scholarship essay is due the following weekend. I’m going to be responsible and get it done and turned in this weekend so I’m not stressed out about it. The guidelines are fairly easy so it shouldn’t take too long to write an 8 page paper with a citation page right? Right?! 

Time to get to work…happy birthday to me *sigh*.

Instagram Famous 

                      (Source: Facebook)

As I continue this saga of the search for consistent funding, while attending school in Ireland; one of the routes I will have to go with is affiliate marketing on my Instagram page. So far I have applied to a few different brands that I use and various affiliate sites, all with the same answer…I’m not popular enough.  So I need to have a following in the thousands in order to promote. How do I do that?! 

Flashback to last year when I spoke to the students of my old high school. One of the questions that came up was “what do you feel is the big problem with social media?” My response was “everyone wants to be Instagram famous and base their worth upon how popular they are.” 

I should have just kept my mouth shut. 😒