Wonder Woman 1984

(My jammies from the 1980’s when I was little. It has a cape attached too.)

Production for Wonder Woman 1984 is in full swing. Although I’m trying to work on bigger parts than just background, this is a film I can’t afford to ignore. Obviously because I used to watch the Lynda Carter reruns when I was a kid. I had the jammies as featured above. I later dressed up as Wonder Woman for a pole dancing recital which was so much fun!

But a little known fact about this film in particular:

I was born in Washington D.C. in ’83. In 1984, I would have been still residing in D.C. with my mom as a 1 year old riding around in a stroller. How fun would it be to perform in a film that’s shooting in my birthplace and taking place during a time period that I would have been alive?

If they let me push a baby girl around in a stroller, I could play the role of my mom and the baby girl could play the role of me. Now that would both be funny and historically accurate!

Mini-Break

(Source: Pinterest.)

My family was away this past weekend. Dad is still getting treatment at the outpatient facility and Mom took a business trip out of state to consider a possible relocation.

It reminded me of the old days before I was homeless. I used to have my own space, a working vehicle, a job that paid all of my bills, and freedom…

So what did I do with my new found quiet time? Slept a bit, organized some papers, reassessed my life, and prayed.

Lately I’ve been down about my career. It’s been a dry year for me and seems like it’s taking forever just for me to pull together my down payment for SAG. Even though I’m working three jobs, the money is sparse; which makes me worry if I can even get to Dublin at this point. Having to focus on my family’s care has also added to the stress, which makes this break all the more beautiful.

My Mom will be home late tonight. My Dad, a few days later. I will miss the peace a quiet for now, but I know I will get back to it soon.

Again…

(Source: Facebook.)

Originally this was supposed to be a good post about work. Especially since there was a resolution and free food involved. Instead it’s a report that my dad has to go back into the hospital again.

I’m tired.

I’m tired of the repeated treatments, the surgeries, the extended hospital stays.

I just want him to be okay.

It’s just too much to deal with and yet I’m required to.

Can my family get a break please?

Alzheimer’s

(Source: Spongebob Squarepants Nickelodeon.)

A couple of events happened to me over the weekend that left me a bit emotional.

The first was at a cafe where I was walking to the bathroom and an older woman walking out of the rooms started talking to me. She was telling me something that happened years ago when she was working, as if she was still an employee there. Her relative came over to collect her and revealed to me that she has Alzheimer’s Disease.

The second was at my theatre job. We are currently playing ‘The Leisure Seeker’ starring Dame Helen Mirren and Donald Sutherland. The plot consists of an elderly, unwell couple, who take one last road trip together to visit Ernest Hemingway’s house in Key West, Florida. The husband played by Sutherland had Alzheimer’s.

Oof!

To share something personal, my maternal grandmother suffered from the disease at (what I consider to be) a very young age. She also showed signs of decay earlier in her life, that had also contributed to a toxic family dynamic for my mother. My grandmother died when I was 16 years old.

Life wasn’t easy during my adolescence, and it was difficult not to get frustrated when she couldn’t remember me at all. There were times when it was also dangerous…she pulled a knife on me because she thought I was a stranger breaking into the house. Ultimately, I was sad for her. She was a woman who was super athletic. Popular. Loved to go out dancing (I take after her.)

She lived a full life, with no memory of it when she died.

In the present day I wonder if that is going to be me. Losing all of my mental faculties, not remembering anyone or anything. There are times when I feel like I’m losing my mind now. I have horrible anxiety, depression, I stutter, I forget things, my mind is scattered at times. I’m also independent and I don’t want people to have to babysit me, especially in a weakened state.

Anyway, this was something I wanted to get off of my chest since it has been gnawing at me most of my life.

Celebrities Are Not Babysitters

(Source: Facebook.)

There’s been several people complaining on Twitter about appetite suppressants being sold by Kim Kardashian. Their anger is that she is promoting it to impressionable youth. How dare her?!

Let me be clear…I don’t like Kim Kardashian or her family. I think they get way too much press and to quote something I tweeted earlier: she enjoys wearing the cloak of a sex worker without any of the backlash. With that being said, I think people are making this a bigger thing than it is.

I sell diet products and I have used appetite suppressants recently. But if I were to tell you that, in my youth, a celebrity compelled me to be skinny, I would tell you no.

For me it started at home. Not to air out my dirty laundry, but my mom complained about being fat (she never was) all of the time. That mindset trickled down to me, which is where most of my issues regarding weight come from. So if kids are desperate to use this product, the people who raised them is where I would look to first. Besides, if she really is in charge leading youth to follow in her image, then their parents really are failing to guide them properly.

Stepping off my soapbox now.

A Very Obvious Publicity Stunt

(Source: memegenerator.net and Facebook.)

Black Slaves did opt out of slavery…it was called The Underground Railroad, and that mission for freedom was fraught with danger.

But that is beside the point.

This is a publicity stunt performed by, what many call, a malignant narcissist. I’ve been talking about publicity stunts for the last few posts and I find the act to be fascinating. Mainly because it begs the question:

What depth is a celebrity willing to go, to make money?

In my “expert” opinion, as someone who takes many odd jobs for a quick buck, I would say this particular depth is somewhere near the Earth’s core.

However, I don’t have it in me to throw my ancestors under the bus. My elders raised me on the stories of our family’s past. It’s too horrific for me to deny or diminish what happened to them for a dollar. That’s plain evil.

Creed 2….FINALLY!

(Source: Quickmeme.com and of course Rocky 2.)

Your girl finally got picked to work Creed 2! It also appears that I won’t have to play Sister-Cousin to Tessa Thompson (Hooray!)

Thank you. Thank you. THANK YOU!

However…knowing how production companies have picked me for roles so far, I’m probably reprising my role as a rich socialite.

*Sigh* I wish my bank account reflected how I look.

Anyway, I’m working on Monday. I can’t wait!

Filler Post

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Hello Friends,

Queen Procrastinator here. My apologies for being so late with posting on my blog. I was too lazy to write very busy and couldn’t make the time to write. But I’m back and brimming with ideas. Instead of writing a separate post each day, I’m going to write short topical blurbs I have to share/have opinions on, in this post. This way I’m all up to date and will have a fresh post for tomorrow. Ok, here we go.

Publicity Stunts

(Source: quickmeme.com and ABC)

I think the debacle with Conor McGregor is a total publicity stunt, here’s why:

I have found in the entertainment biz, that in order to keep the dollars rolling in and to create buzz, people pull publicity stunts, sell stories to tabloids, and drum up drama on social media seemingly from nowhere. UFC is a form of entertainment even if it consists of people beating the crap out of each other. Now while I’m a martial artist myself, watching others fight for profit is not my jam, but I get that it’s a business. The fight that McGregor had with Floyd Mayweather was insanely profitable, even though many fans watching it felt like they were fleeced out of their money. Much of the latest drama with CM flying in his people from Ireland (which is some next level shenanigans if you ask me) and attacking a bus full of fighters, feels along the same mode of operation. But what really stuck out to me that this may have been fraudulent? It was the subsequent interview with UFC’s owner, Dana White. He described the chaos in full, but for someone who claimed to be disturbed by the whole ordeal; he looked and sounded like a kid who’s struggling to hold in a secret that one of his classmates has a crush on his friend. It was really strange and frankly very suspicious to me. And while Conor McGregor did turn himself in for arrest, at best he is going to get a slap on the wrist. (Wealth and celebrity is a privilege.) Does this mean that all entertainment publicity stunts are done for profit? No. Some are done for vengeance, but profit leads the way most times.

Acro Yoga

(Source: Shared on Kurohime’s Palace FB.)

I was a flyer last night, which is shocking! I was always a backspot/base in cheerleading…I’m usually too tall and heavy to be a flyer. Somehow, during the quick lesson I took, I managed to do the “Bird” pose (as seen here):

(Source: Jeff Nelson, Yoga Journal , and Pinterest.)

All 200 lbs of me (no exaggeration.) I did have a spotter because I was a tad bit nervous about being up in the air. I want to practice some more (and drop some weight in the process) to see if this helps with re-conditioning my body back to the strength level it once was.

Working At The Theatre

(Source: Thespian Peacock Tumblr and Pinterest.)

In this case, I’m referring to the independent movie theatre I’m currently working at. I initially got hired in the Summer of 2016. Unbeknownst to me, the city planned to sell the theatre to a private buyer and I ended up being laid off after 2 short months of working, while the sale was finalized and renovations were made to the space. It’s almost 2 years later and I was hired back to my old position. I forgot how much I liked working here. Not just because I’m getting paid to watch movies, but the movies themselves are quality. As mentioned before, this is an independent movie theatre, meaning we play predominantly independent films (though it’s not part of a franchise either.) So far between my previous stint and currently I have watched:

•Weiner (documentary about Anthony Weiner.)

•I Saw The Light (biopic about Hank Williams Sr.)

•First Monday In May (documentary about the Met Gala.)

•Phantom Thread (the only movie I watched so far, that I hated.)

•All The Queen’s Horses (documentary about the Rita Crundwell fraud case in Dixon, IL.)

•A Fantastic Woman (winner of the Best Foreign Language Film Oscar.)

•Faces Places (Independent Spirit Award winner for Best Documentary.)

•And many more.

I’m eagerly awaiting ‘The Death of Stalin’ and to watch some of the AFI Top 100 films too.

Instagram Series

(Circa a few weeks ago with the ‘One Color Makeup Challenge’)

If you don’t follow me on Instagram, please do so! This blog is great for deeper thought, but Instagram is where I post all of the fun “behind the scenes” stuff. Since I’m working at Tribeca and got picked to the highest Crew position I can be in; I’m spending this week creating Instagram stories where I’m styling myself for the week. The theme: Creative Ways of Wearing All Black.

Storage

(Source: Iyanla: Fix My Life.)

The family storage unit had to be emptied because the rent was too high and we were getting behind on payments. This isn’t a bad thing. I take it as a sign that we have to get rid of more stuff. The biggest issue is much of it previously belonged to my great grandmother and grandmother. They shopped compulsively with no where to put things. After they died my family was left with the burden of picking up the pieces. Hopefully we can get it down to a manageable amount before I head off to Dublin.

Dublin

(Source: Facebook.)

Speaking of Dublin…I have a secret project I’m working on that will make my experience over there better. I’m not going to reveal too much as I don’t want to jinx it. Just know that once it gets closer to when I start school, I will write a whole post about it.

Whew! That’s all I have for now. Expect a fresh post tomorrow!

Wow, Wow, and More Wow!

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I have an amazing support group. I quit my very brief job at the restaurant and in the same week, one of my closest friends set up a fundraiser on my behalf! The fundraiser will provide the down payment I need to get into SAG. I can pay off the rest while I’m working on projects. Plus, I still have my two jobs at the pole studio and the independent movie theatre which will help me stay alive. I’m beyond words of how grateful I am to her and everyone that gave me money. My biggest wish is to work on a major project, with a decent sized part, so they can see where their investment took me.

Fenty Beauty

(Source: Black Nerd Problems Twitter.)

Ok. So. I’m super late to the Fenty game, but I finally put down the money to purchase a bottle of the company’s foundation for myself. Dear God, this is amazing foundation, and I’m not blowing smoke either! I did a tutorial on my Instagram stories (which I saved in the highlights btw); you could see that my skin looked smooth and translucent. I want to share my takeaways:

1) It didn’t turn orange, which is a common occurrence with me and liquid foundations. The only foundations that don’t turn on me are powders, but they are still just a twinge too yellow for me. My skin didn’t turn greasy either. Fantastic.

2) This is the only brand I’ve noticed that managed to crack the code relating to olive undertones. This is a huge struggle for many cosmetic brands. Bare Minerals (the company I used to work for) came close, by making fair to deep foundations with more golden undertones. However, they were still not able to get this close. When I pumped out my Fenty foundation, it was a soft green. Most brands make foundations too red. Hence why I mentioned that most of my foundations in the past, turn me orange.

3) The product comes out watery, but dries to a powder finish. I love that. I didn’t have to use a lot to get good coverage, and it feels super light. Believe it or not, I don’t like to look or feel super “done” like many makeup aficionados you would see on Instagram. Especially when auditioning for various projects. The casting directors and production companies want to see me for who I am. If I look too made up: it can screw me out of a job. Needless to say this foundation was a good investment.

4) The foundation matched me so well, that it confused my mom. She thought I looked too clear, pale, green, etc, because she wasn’t used to seeing me not orange. My mom never had acne or uneven tone, so she never had to use foundation in her life (lucky.) Because of this, she has a hard time differentiating between what is good makeup and what is bad makeup.

5) The packaging is really simple and it looks like you get a good quantity for the money. Like I said earlier, it didn’t take a lot of product for me to get good coverage. If I were to forecast my cost per wear, I’m looking at about 25-35¢ each time. Probably even less.

6) I also went into a darkened room and took a flash photo. The reason is to see how the foundation does under bright lighting. Working under bright stage lighting, set lighting, and flash photography, creates a problem with foundations. The term is called Photo Flashback. See example below:

(Source: Pinterest. It happens to the best of us.)

I had no flashback and no melting from sweat or oil.

From now on, I will be preaching the gospel of Fenty to the masses. I’m super satisfied with this product and will definitely continue to purchase it in the future. Does Rihanna have to be awesome at everything she does?

(Source: @chuuzus Twitter.)

The answer is Yes.