My Career Is Stagnant At The Moment…

(Taken late last month.)

There’s not much I can do about it. What I can do is take stock of where I’m at now:

•SAG eligible

•A decent theatre resume

•A film credit

•Nominated for a regional award

That’s what I have for the time being, though I managed to get this done at a rapid pace of 3 years (SAG alone takes some people a decade.)

Right now, the only thing I have going on is my YouTube channel until I work another film in 2019. I’ll try to keep this page updated on any industry related things that may come up in the meantime.

At Another’s Expense

(Source: Facebook.)

If you were following my blog up to this point, you would know that I currently have three jobs. Pole Dance Instructor, Arthouse Movie Theatre Projectionist, and Host/Server at a popular restaurant.

Recently, at the restaurant, I managed to pick up more serving shifts and ultimately that means more money in my pocket. However, that came at a cost: the person to trained me on the restaurant’s system was removed from the schedule.

I don’t like it.

Let’s be clear that I’m in no way ungrateful for the extra income (I NEED it), but I was hoping to earn it on my own merits and not because someone was forcibly removed. If you’re wondering if there was a valid reason for their removal? Yes. I will not disclose why though.

The next question you may be wondering is, if there was a valid reason this person had to go, why do you feel guilty about it? Well, as I stated earlier, they trained me. It’s a really ugly situation when companies require employees to train their replacements when they’re being let go by said company. Even worse when you train someone, get let go, and then find out that person you trained filled your spot. It feels sneaky.

Personally, I prefer to cover shifts for people. When they can’t for reasons due to illness or conflict of schedule. Better yet if they are quitting their position and are training their replacement to do the job well. I like to call this “an approved exchange” where no one gets hurt.

I liked this person. I bore no ill will, though I had concerns. They were cool and easy to talk to. Plus, believe it or not, they did train me well and did their job well when they could. It also worries me that I may be blocking my own blessings from feeling immense guilt about it. In the grand scheme of things, this job is temporary. Hopefully this sick feeling I have subsides by the time I leave.

Poor Casting Choice

(Source: Mean Girls, Paramount Pictures.)

Everyone is up in arms about Scarlett Johansson playing a trans man in her newest film. This, coming after the backlash of whitewashing the role of Motoko Kusanagi from ‘Ghost in the Shell.’ I don’t dislike her, though there are some things about her association with Woody Allen to be problematic. I don’t think this role is right for her.

Before I go any further, let me admit that I have played roles that did not fit my cultural background, gender, sexual orientation, or age group. If an actor does their job well, then you should know them by the role they embody more than the person themselves. However, Scarlett Johansson has reached the point in several of her roles where she is “Scarlett” in a film, and not the character she is playing. Therefore, the character of Dante Gill will not be portrayed correctly.

Now if it were up to me to find an actual trans man, who looks like Gill, and can act, that would be my preference. It’s a challenge, however, since I would have an extremely small pool to work from. The closest I would be able cast is Lea DeLaria from ‘Orange is the New Black.’

The biggest issue I have with casting films in Hollywood is the cronyism associated with it. In this case Ms. Johansson is working with the same director from ‘GITS’, which is pissing people off further (myself included.) I get it: if you want to work consistently, it’s best to build a strong network and work with many of the same people. Roles like Gill need a little more thought and use of common sense before calling up your homie to take the part….

But I digress.

Big Things In The Works!!!

(Taken Monday after my epiphany.)

While I was rambling on one of my Instagram stories (saved in the highlights) about one of the films we showed at work: I thought about vlogging film and television reviews. A friend of mine suggested I use a separate platform as to not disrupt my current social media brand. Well that sparked something.

Currently I have an active YouTube channel that I use specifically for self-tape auditions. Since those links are usually private, I don’t have other content posted for the public to view. Until now.

Posting reviews is hardly anything new and there is plenty of competition out there for me. However, I just want a platform to air my grievances at other people over what I should actually be doing myself…work in the film industry. That is the premise. You are going to watch an actress who is also trained in the technical side of film, bitch and complain about why the production was bad, while also praising what’s good about it.

Don’t expect it to be comedic. Comedy is a precious skill afforded to few and its not my forte. My biggest hope is that it’s relatable and informative. Just like my blog.

I’m excited aren’t you?

The Follow Up and Film News

(Taken this past Friday evening. This was my audition number.)

As of right now it’s not looking likely that I was picked for the project with the industry leader. That’s ok, because I’m grateful for the fact that I got this far and met her. I will continue to apply as long as she is putting out casting notices and she highly encourages it.

In other good news, it looks like I’m going to film another project with the same director who gave me my first speaking part (yay another role and reel footage!)

(Source: Facebook.)

The synopsis of this film is a gentleman who travels from his home in Boston to work in Côte d’Ivoire. I would be playing the lead’s girlfriend. The part currently is limited, but they asked for my input on how I would play it. They got straight away to re-writing it.

(Source: Prinze Whyee. A still shot from MUDA, currently in distribution in Africa.)

Re-writing a part is nothing new, the director did it the first time when I had to step in on ‘MUDA’ as the last lead’s little sister. I think it’s awesome that he is able to do that for me and immediately thought of me for this new film.

I’m excited to embark on something new!

Let’s All Take a Moment of Silence…

(Source: Facebook.)

Tomorrow is the big day. My audition with the industry professional. Before that, I have to work. Tomorrow will be my first official serving shift at this job. There are issues however.

We have a new POS system that I’m not familiar with.

Friday lunches are usually very busy.

Plus my nerves will be racked the entire time thinking about my audition.

Pray for me that I survive the day.

Men, Again 🙄

(Source: Twitter.)

The founder of a website that I follow, has just been exposed as an abuser. Creating insanely strict rules for his girlfriend to follow, fat shaming her, and sexually assaulting her. He even went so far to ruin her acting career by blacklisting her when she walked away from him.

(Source: Pinterest.)

One thing I took away from the article that was written, is that dating someone high powered isn’t all that it is cracked up to be. I mean, dating in general isn’t all that great, but adding fame to the mix makes it especially difficult. Look how easy it was for this poor woman’s career to be tanked simply because he didn’t want her story to be believed? He was worried about bad publicity and his actions have led him down the path of…bad publicity.

If he had not been an asshole, he wouldn’t need to worry as his conscience would be clear. But that’s far too easy.

Anyway, I’m happy that this woman is safe and recovering financially, spiritually, emotionally, to be able to tell the tale. He is a scumbag.

Sound

(Source: whatspopping-sugar Tumblr and Pinterest.)

In 2015, I attended my first screening party as an actress. I was there due to appearing as a featured extra in a small independent project. While there, I overheard one of the other guests in attendance, answering a question asked of him:

What makes a good film?

Interestingly enough, his answer had nothing to do with the script, the actors, or the direction. His answer was purely technical….

“The film has to have good sound. If the sound is bad, it ruins the entire film.”

Sound advice if you ask me (pardon the pun.)

Having previously studied film and television production, along with currently working at an art house movie theatre, sound really can make or break the film!

I’m in a constant battle with the volume knob of the sound board every time I’m working as a projectionist. A couple of issues that I have with the films are, 1) too loud music but too low speaking volume. Or 2) too low/too loud altogether.

The second one seems simple enough. Just turn the volume up or down. It’s a little trickier than that. Too low volume is a combination of both low music and mumble acting (actors who speak with poor enunciation. It drives me up a wall.) If the volume is too high, the sound has a weird blown out effect to it, which also makes it hard to hear the actors even when the volume is at a reasonable level.

How can a filmmaker combat this?

Part of me suspects that low speaking volume, but high music volume, may be to mask a shit story. In which case the filmmakers are just going to have to own it and make the sound level across the the board. Special effects sounds should be louder, but only by a few decibels (we are not trying to destroy our patrons’ ear drums.) And please tell the actors to stop mumbling!

I Didn’t Get It

(Source: Facebook. I think that is the artist’s watermark on the bottom of the card but reverse searches yielded no results. Instead I’m just sharing where I found it.)

I didn’t land the gig that was shooting today. Which means I work at my day job today… yay.

I’m bummed, but not hurt. In this industry you have to be prepared for a lot of rejection and very limited success. Still, I’m grateful for getting an initial response.

I’m on this person’s radar now.

THIS wasn’t the project for me, but maybe a future one will be. We shall see.

All Of My Friends Are In France Right Now! 🇫🇷

(Source: Dragon Ball, Akira Toriyama.)

Ok, maybe not “all” of them, but several and I’m a little bitter about it. Mostly at myself since I could never get it together financially to take regular trips around the world.

I’m hoping that changes once I move to Dublin. I’ll be a European resident for 4 years, and fully plan on taking advantage of it. My goals are, first, tour all of the British Isles. Then, go to France to visit Paris, Le Mont Saint-Michel, Bordeaux, and Nice. Followed by Italy (I plan to buy a few tarot decks in Milan) and the rest of Europe.

Good goals right?