How It Always Works Out

(Source: Yuri!!! On Ice, Mitsurou Kubo.)

This morning I received an invite to audition for a role on an indie film that would be shooting next month. The timing comes right after I complain about my career going stagnant, which now renders that post null and void.

There’s no guarantee that I will get the part, however, the fact that the director reached out to me is important.

So what is the film?

It’s about a young woman who has major relationship failures with except for a meaningful relationship with another woman in her early twenties. I was offered to play one of the supporting roles in this film. The best part is, it’s a paying role too.

YES. This is the dream. To play a speaking part in a film or television show and actually getting compensated for it.

The only issue is that the schedule may roll into when I’m supposed to leave the country. Who knows what will happen, but it’s an opportunity I feel I couldn’t turn down. Prayers and fingers crossed for the best possible outcome.

Pole Competition

(Taken yesterday at the Kleinlife Center in Northern Philadelphia.)

Yesterday, one of my students performed in the local pole dancing competition. She had wanted to compete for some time now so she took a brave step and signed up.

She choreographed her own routine and did not ask us for any input. The result was a marvelous! She also placed 4th in her division. Not bad for a first-timer huh?!

More so than that, I was inspired. For years I was a competition cheerleader and loved the thrill of preparing for a competition whether we won or not. It’s the same thrill I get when preparing for a show…which is also why I’m feeling a little empty about my career right now.

I have done pole comps in the past, but they were significantly smaller in comparison to yesterday’s, and that isn’t even the largest.

My goal is to compete as a way of getting out of my rut. I think focusing on my career too much can actually be detrimental rather than helpful.

Hopefully there is a small comp in Europe that would allow me to perform.

I’m Sticking To Philadelphia. For Now…

(Source: Meanwhile in Philadelphia Facebook Page.)

I’ve been sighing a lot lately. There has been a lot of motion without progress and I find myself super depressed. The Manhattan Monologue Slam didn’t net me much but an invite to the Philly Slam (which I’m still going to.) Still, I’m just a little disappointed on how few my bookings have been in New York and how few and far in between they have been in Philadelphia. However, they are my closest market and if I want to build up my resume at a lower cost, Philadelphia is where I will remain. The question now is, what’s out there?

The last panel of agents I auditioned for in Philly was a total bomb. Now with my new eligibility status with SAG, they wouldn’t be able to represent me at this point in time anyway. Once again I feel like I’m stuck without any prospect of a breakthrough. I was seriously hoping for that one good booking before starting school, but I don’t think it’s going to happen.

Tribeca: The End and What’s Next?

(Photo taken last night on the red carpet at BMCC Tribeca PAC.)

Last night was my last shift at the festival. It was another star studded event featuring the film ‘Disobedience’, starring Rachel Weisz and Rachel McAdams. Both Rachels wore lovely gowns for the premiere and were absolutely stunning. It’s funny, now that I’ve have seen so many celebrities in passing, I’m compelled to get into better shape; though I don’t aim to be, nor could I be as thin as they are. My wish is to make my body better than what it is right now.

So the big post-festival question is: where do I go from here? I’ve already talked about my need to perform again. Yes, that has to happen before I sink further into depression and outdate my résumé. I’m thinking about doing some more training in my field, like an audition workshop, dialect course, or on-camera acting course. Something to get back into the flow. The voiceover project is coming along slowly, but I should have some better news about that later on this week.

I will say, this whole experience has motivated me to further work on my craft.

Filler Post

(Source: someecards.com)

Hello Friends,

Queen Procrastinator here. My apologies for being so late with posting on my blog. I was too lazy to write very busy and couldn’t make the time to write. But I’m back and brimming with ideas. Instead of writing a separate post each day, I’m going to write short topical blurbs I have to share/have opinions on, in this post. This way I’m all up to date and will have a fresh post for tomorrow. Ok, here we go.

Publicity Stunts

(Source: quickmeme.com and ABC)

I think the debacle with Conor McGregor is a total publicity stunt, here’s why:

I have found in the entertainment biz, that in order to keep the dollars rolling in and to create buzz, people pull publicity stunts, sell stories to tabloids, and drum up drama on social media seemingly from nowhere. UFC is a form of entertainment even if it consists of people beating the crap out of each other. Now while I’m a martial artist myself, watching others fight for profit is not my jam, but I get that it’s a business. The fight that McGregor had with Floyd Mayweather was insanely profitable, even though many fans watching it felt like they were fleeced out of their money. Much of the latest drama with CM flying in his people from Ireland (which is some next level shenanigans if you ask me) and attacking a bus full of fighters, feels along the same mode of operation. But what really stuck out to me that this may have been fraudulent? It was the subsequent interview with UFC’s owner, Dana White. He described the chaos in full, but for someone who claimed to be disturbed by the whole ordeal; he looked and sounded like a kid who’s struggling to hold in a secret that one of his classmates has a crush on his friend. It was really strange and frankly very suspicious to me. And while Conor McGregor did turn himself in for arrest, at best he is going to get a slap on the wrist. (Wealth and celebrity is a privilege.) Does this mean that all entertainment publicity stunts are done for profit? No. Some are done for vengeance, but profit leads the way most times.

Acro Yoga

(Source: Shared on Kurohime’s Palace FB.)

I was a flyer last night, which is shocking! I was always a backspot/base in cheerleading…I’m usually too tall and heavy to be a flyer. Somehow, during the quick lesson I took, I managed to do the “Bird” pose (as seen here):

(Source: Jeff Nelson, Yoga Journal , and Pinterest.)

All 200 lbs of me (no exaggeration.) I did have a spotter because I was a tad bit nervous about being up in the air. I want to practice some more (and drop some weight in the process) to see if this helps with re-conditioning my body back to the strength level it once was.

Working At The Theatre

(Source: Thespian Peacock Tumblr and Pinterest.)

In this case, I’m referring to the independent movie theatre I’m currently working at. I initially got hired in the Summer of 2016. Unbeknownst to me, the city planned to sell the theatre to a private buyer and I ended up being laid off after 2 short months of working, while the sale was finalized and renovations were made to the space. It’s almost 2 years later and I was hired back to my old position. I forgot how much I liked working here. Not just because I’m getting paid to watch movies, but the movies themselves are quality. As mentioned before, this is an independent movie theatre, meaning we play predominantly independent films (though it’s not part of a franchise either.) So far between my previous stint and currently I have watched:

•Weiner (documentary about Anthony Weiner.)

•I Saw The Light (biopic about Hank Williams Sr.)

•First Monday In May (documentary about the Met Gala.)

•Phantom Thread (the only movie I watched so far, that I hated.)

•All The Queen’s Horses (documentary about the Rita Crundwell fraud case in Dixon, IL.)

•A Fantastic Woman (winner of the Best Foreign Language Film Oscar.)

•Faces Places (Independent Spirit Award winner for Best Documentary.)

•And many more.

I’m eagerly awaiting ‘The Death of Stalin’ and to watch some of the AFI Top 100 films too.

Instagram Series

(Circa a few weeks ago with the ‘One Color Makeup Challenge’)

If you don’t follow me on Instagram, please do so! This blog is great for deeper thought, but Instagram is where I post all of the fun “behind the scenes” stuff. Since I’m working at Tribeca and got picked to the highest Crew position I can be in; I’m spending this week creating Instagram stories where I’m styling myself for the week. The theme: Creative Ways of Wearing All Black.

Storage

(Source: Iyanla: Fix My Life.)

The family storage unit had to be emptied because the rent was too high and we were getting behind on payments. This isn’t a bad thing. I take it as a sign that we have to get rid of more stuff. The biggest issue is much of it previously belonged to my great grandmother and grandmother. They shopped compulsively with no where to put things. After they died my family was left with the burden of picking up the pieces. Hopefully we can get it down to a manageable amount before I head off to Dublin.

Dublin

(Source: Facebook.)

Speaking of Dublin…I have a secret project I’m working on that will make my experience over there better. I’m not going to reveal too much as I don’t want to jinx it. Just know that once it gets closer to when I start school, I will write a whole post about it.

Whew! That’s all I have for now. Expect a fresh post tomorrow!

Do I Bother?

(Source: Beyond Scared Straight, A&E.)

It looks like Twitter is cleaning house by suspending accounts left and right. Even if you did nothing wrong, but have certain words arranged in a tweet, it can trigger an algorithm that will automatically suspend you. This is one of the social media outlets I have recently put more time into engaging with people. As you know, social media has become increasingly important for promoting yourself and your business.

The day may come, where my profile will trigger the algorithm, and I have to ask myself “is it worth saving?”

With everything that Twitter isn’t doing, like not suspending our “leadership’s” profile for serious violations. Barely, if at all, suspending accounts that target and harass others for speaking out; but God Forbid, you mention suicide.

*sigh*

The answer is probably No.

So what will I do from here? Probably focus on another platform and build that. Jack and Twitter are on the wrong side of history anyway.

Flexibility Training

(Source: Facebook. This is me 50 years from now.)

Last night my pole studio had an open house. Since I’m staying stateside, I kept my job here and I set some new goals for how I want to teach the class. My main focus this month will be flexibility training. It is much needed for both myself and my students.

The big goal that I have for myself is to get my splits back (regular and Russian on both legs.) I’m also going to do back bends again (people will say it doesn’t really stretch anything; that is until they have to do something that requires a back bend…so they can just shut the hell up.)

I have some moves in mind that I want to do that will keep me motivated:

(Source: Studio Veena and Pinterest.)

(Source: Pinterest.)

(Source: Pinterest.)

Don’t let the bare feet fool you on the first and last photos. Those moves can also be done in heels (which is my intention.)

The pole room is free just before my class begins so I will be doing solo work as well as work with the class. I hope to document my progress.

A Hard Promise To Myself

(Source: Real Housewives of Atlanta, Bravo TV)

A concern was brought up to me by my mom and I’m in agreement with her. Since my school has officially been approved for deferment until September 2018, anything I do now must be dedicated to my success in school. She could care less that I go to school (I am an adult and can make my own decisions after all), but she knows that attending college overseas has been a dream of mine since I was a kid. She doesn’t want to see me lose it. So that leads me to make some hard promises and agreements with myself:

•If (in the unlikely event) of me meeting a guy that I want to date, I’m to never compromise for him. Either he is just going to have to make a way to see me in Ireland or not at all.

•I should still be acting as if I’m moving there. I’m not going to be comfortable where I’m at in Delaware and should be completely uprooted.

•I’m also working a regular job until it is time to go, so I have money and I’m not struggling to live or pay rent in Ireland.

•This is still my dream and unless I land some massive role in a major motion picture, I’m not to be distracted from it.

This should be fairly easy as I have way less patience for people wasting my time like they did in the previous years. 2018 is officially the “Get My Life Together” year.

My Christmas Gift To Myself

(Source: The Disaster Artist 2017 and Cine-Series.com)

Merry Christmas! It has been a pretty mellow one in my house. This year has been filled with so much chaos, plus being so busy, that we really didn’t do much as far as presents or anything big. We didn’t even get a regular tree this year, and had to settle for a small artificial tree from the dollar store. Still better than nothing.

However, I did try to do something for myself this year and that was to go see The Disaster Artist: starring James Franco and his brother Dave Franco. I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but I have had some acting training in Meisner and the first place I went to was James’ school, Studio 4 NYC. I went out of business a few short months ago, right when I was planning on going back…bummer.

(Source: Facebook. Extraordinary Journey of a Black Nerd Group.)

Back in the Summer of 2016, I went to an open call for his HBO show: The Deuce. Simply because I wanted to see Professor Franco in action. Of course professional set conduct prohibits me from talking to him or any principal actor/director and I was fine with that. I just thought it would be really cool to work with the founder of my first acting school. Kind of a bragging right if you will. Although I was selected initially in the first round of open calls, they never used me on the show. However, all was not lost. Attending that open call was the best thing that happened to me as the casting agency ended up using me in a multitude of projects:

•Quantico (3 Times)

•Gotham

•Homeland

•An upcoming Rebel Wilson movie

•A new 2018 CBS show

•The Show I Was Dinged for Mentioning

For that I can be grateful to James Franco for launching my career.

Now about this movie…

I have a couple of takeaways about the film that I want to share:

First and foremost, The Disaster Artist is great storytelling of a very shady man with delusions of grandeur. For a while I forgot it was James Franco playing Tommy Wiseau. I first saw the original film, ‘The Room’, at my best friend’s bachelorette party. One of the bridesmaids did some Wikipedia research on why this film was so insane, and just who the hell is Tommy Wiseau? When I first heard that James Franco was making this film, I was so excited and he did not disappoint.

Second, I don’t know if I can watch anyone’s bare ass on the big or small screen ever again. Seeing Tommy’s rear the first time was traumatizing enough. James twisted the knife in for me. I felt a little violated.

(Source: JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure.)

Money Management

(Source: Facebook.)

It’s looking like I’m going to stay stateside. I had a conference call with my family yesterday and the money situation is so bad, that I’m not sure I would make it to February. My family would prefer that I still go as they are not happy about my decision (with the exception of my dad, who like me, sees that it is not sustainable.)

I still plan to go to school and I want to start in September of 2018; when the course cycle starts. Until then, there are some things I want to do here to make myself better prepared for success. Besides submitting my paperwork for the union, I also want to take a personal finance course. They offer these for free or low cost in my city.

I figure this would be a benefit to me since I have a hard time managing a varied income. When I worked traditional jobs, I was accustomed to seeing a regular check bi-weekly or weekly. When it was structured like that, it was very easy to stay on top of bills and manage a savings. Things went downhill after I was laid off and had to work jobs and gigs with varied incomes. Working at Starbucks did provide me some structure, but I made so little money that my financial situation was not improving. It’s been a scramble since then.

All of this came about when I watched a video by Marie Forleo. She talked about using her regular income to support her art, as opposed to having her art support her. As a result, she had less stress and was able to build her art/business into something that could actually support her. This is something I really want as I’m tired of struggling.