What Do I Write About?!

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Good grief this was a week for news, huh?!

 

I’m having a hard time focusing on a topic. Do I write my thoughts about the College Cheating Scandal? Bryan Singer’s long overdue firing from directing ‘Red Sonja’? How about the latest scandal involving Brett Ratner, the CEO of Warner Bros. and the actress Charlotte Kirk?

 

And that was only a small handful of what happened this week.

 

I can’t blame this Mercury Retrograde because I don’t believe in it. Truthfully I think this planet and everyone on it has been caught up in a vortex of bizarre behavior since 2015. With it being 2019 I think we are experiencing the worst of the vortex and soon we will be out of it (if we all survive that is.)

 

Until then, I’m just going to keep my nose to the grindstone and mind my business. This is too much.

 

Letting Go of Entitlement

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I was on Twitter today where I saw actor Laura Benanti respond to an incredibly rude tweet. The person who authored the original tweet complained that they paid good money to see Laura perform in a show, but she wasn’t in attendance that day. So as a result she, and I quote, “doesn’t want to see her again.” Laura responded by telling the complainer that she had to take her kid to the hospital that day and she “hopes that she never has to see her again either.”

Seriously? I swear some people really take the cake.

Shows have understudies for a reason. If a performer gets sick or has an emergency, the show is covered an can go on. While I’m sure it can be a real bummer when your favorite actor can’t perform that evening, you also have to remember that they have lives outside of their performances too.

Let me put this into perspective for you:

You work in customer service. You have people who appreciate the service you provide for them and begin telling other people that they should go to your store and ask for you because you are the best.

Now stick with me.

You get terribly ill one day and you have to call out of your job to go to the doctor; so a fellow coworker is called in to cover your shift while you figure out why you are so ill. On the same shift a customer comes in based upon a referral and asks for you. The coworker proceeds to them you are are out for the day because you are unwell. Now the customer is enraged and posts a bad yelp review because they spent money to see you, and you had the AUDACITY to be sick…

See how ridiculous that sounds?

Keep in mind that even though entertaining is a public job, that it’s still a job. Entertainers are going to have off days when they just want to keep to themselves and not be bothered by fans. It doesn’t mean they don’t appreciate you, but it does mean that you need to respect their space. They don’t owe you anything for the job they do. Much like you don’t owe anything to the customer who’s chasing after you with a million questions when you’ve already clocked out for your lunch break. It’s nice, but you deserve to take a break too.

I hope this helps to keep things in perspective.

The Curious Case of Jussie Smollett

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For those of you unaware of the case or who Jussie Smollett is; let me break it down for you as it was previously reported:

Jussie is a star on the hit show ‘Empire’ starring Taraji P. Henson and Terrance Howard. About three weeks ago, he was the victim of a hate crime. Two unknown men (described as white and dressed in MAGA hats) jumped Jussie in the middle of the night, on a Chicago street (same city where ‘Empire’ is filmed) wrapping a noose around his neck and pouring bleach on him. They called him the N-word and said “this is MAGA country.” He then reported the crime to Chicago police.

When the report was first released, there was a huge outpouring of sympathy and support as it was not uncommon for someone like Jussie who is Black and LGBTQ to be violently attacked. He was the most prolific, so of course it sparked a conversation for the non-marginalized to understand why this happens. Good. It should have done that. However, as time and reporting went on, more people are discrediting the story. The common denominator being that this was a staged publicity stunt.

Now here is something I can sink my teeth into.

For a little background about myself: I’m an actor, who is working an internship with an industry insider who’s job is dedicated to publicity. I benefit from this gig not only for college credit but also for a better understanding of how to promote and manage myself in this industry. I have previously wrote about the publicity stunt orchestrated by Conor MacGregor (which I still hold firm due to my time in Dublin and all of the rumblings I have heard about him); and another possible chance of two celebrities “dating” to make their exes jealous (though I did delete that post because no one could possibly be that stupid.)

Now you know where my head is at, let’s talk about how this could either make a good publicity stunt or a bad one.

As far as a good publicity stunt goes…like I said, sparking the conversation people need to have about violence towards Black LGBTQ communities benefited from this. It also sheds a much needed light on the fact that there are people emboldened by hate due to our current “leadership.”

Bad publicity would mean that he staged this for sympathy and attention devoted solely to him and not the community as a whole. Ultimately wasting time and resources by law enforcement and labeled a liar for the rest of his life.

Regardless of whether the publicity is good or bad, it does make people talk which would be a win for Jussie; but there’s no real gain beyond that. He doesn’t stand to make more money from this. There are no additional acting jobs being thrown at him. He’s not getting written off ‘Empire’. There’s absolutely nothing.

Some suspect that maybe the details of the case were fudged to cover up a sexual encounter gone wrong with, possibly, the two suspected male assailants in the case. But why? Smollett is openly gay, so making up this story to cover up a sexual relationship with another man in the year 2019 would be pointless.

There’s also the theory that he was purchasing drugs and was assaulted. In order to hide from the shame he made up a story about a hate crime. Once again pointless. Celebrities are notorious for dipping into illegal substances. He could be charged with a crime, yes, but he’s not going to completely have the book thrown at him as opposed to someone like me who is common and poor. If anything he would just issue a bullshit public statement about his drug use and then spend a couple of weeks in rehab.

The big theory amongst the social media rabble is that the creator of ‘Empire’, Lee Daniels, set Jussie up in an attack for reasons unknown to them…

This took the cake for me.

I have heard that Lee Daniels is not the most pleasant person to work with, but he is running a business, so harming someone who keeps his business running would not make sense either.

With all of this said: I believe he was attacked.

Now could Jussie have embellished the details of his attack in order to point fingers at a group he doesn’t like? It’s possible. Maybe it was a simple mugging and he used the opportunity to say racists did it, I don’t know. What I do know is that the reporting of this case from start to finish is a hot mess. I hope for a resolution and the truth to come out soon.

Best Laid Plans

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All fell to pieces. It looks like my planned trip to train as a production assistant is a no go. The flight I needed to be there on time is overbooked. Not only that, it looks like flights even heading back home to the Philadelphia airport are overbooked.

Which means I’m stuck here…

I’m hurt, because I did put a deposit down for this that’s non-refundable. I also scheduled it in such a way so that I could go back to the office back home and gather my work assignments and new credentials.

This would have been less of a problem if didn’t have to spend most of my money on my survival here. If I was back home, I would have had the extra cash I needed to maybe splurge on a guaranteed booking instead of a standby flight ticket.

With the way things look, I’m probably going to have to quit my gig with the insider since I’m now hindered from completing my duties with them too. This is a shitty situation in more ways than one.

Excuse me while I go scream.

Fundraiser and Other News

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Somehow my Event Management class got roped into putting on a fundraiser for the school and I have to be present for it now in order to pass. 😒

The Musical Theatre students will put on a show while the rest of us, including myself, will be serving drinks and food to the guests. I’m already a little put off by the whole thing for good reason: they want all of the servers to dress in costume which we have to provide ourselves, with no reimbursement. The event is already Black Tie. No biggie since I do keep gowns for special occasions. However, dressing up as a character from a musical theatre production that I will never wear again, chaps my ass. I think everyone working would have been better served to adhere to the dress code of the guests present.

Another thing that bothers me is that the person who’s property we are using is famous. He has been featured in the tabloids on numerous occasions for all of his philanthropy and this event is no exception. So now in addition to being dressed as a goofy character, I’m now going to have to avoid the paparazzi like the plague while trying to work so they can get good pictures of our host and his guests.

It was easy to not get in the way at Tribeca since I was not authorized to stand on the red carpets or in the way of the celebrities being photographed. This time…not so much. Pray that my rear end doesn’t block anyone’s shot.

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As it turns out, work with the industry insider hasn’t been slowing down at all. For some reason the other members of my team aren’t sharing the workload with me. I think it’s mainly due to me being “out of sight, out of mind.” Since I have to make a quick trip back to the States this weekend for Production Assistant training anyway, I may see if there is time in my schedule to pop in and open the lines of communication between me and the other team members. But I still have the gig which is good. I’m hoping to learn more as I go along and plug in the hours I need for internship credits.

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So onto the happier stuff. My training is this weekend and I couldn’t be more stoked! The place that is training me doesn’t offer too many of these workshops since it’s mostly genuine production crew members that train us. They are far too busy. My sincerest hope is to make more connections on the West Coast. The opportunity for me to travel out there has opened up this year, now making me Bi-Coastal like I dreamed; and with that I want to take on as much work as possible whether it’s in front of the camera or behind. I know full well that PA work is grueling and thankless, but it is work. It is relevant to my industry, and it puts next to the people I will hope to be working with regularly. Wish me luck!

People Have Poor Taste

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So I’m watching the Ted Bundy Tapes on Netflix and I’m paying attention to people describing how handsome he was on social media and I have a simple question:

How is he handsome?

Rhetorical question: he’s not handsome and he aged like milk.

Not only that, he was a rapist and serial killer. That in itself should be a major turn off. I have low faith in humanity and I know there is a deep sickness in the world that is incurable; so trying to apply common sense and logic to this situation is next to impossible.

Also: Ted Bundy looks like the bully professor I wanted to fight. Cementing my loathing for both men.

Tech Struggle

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Good news, I’m now working with the industry insider that I wanted to work with. Because she is such an insider, I’m bound by an NDA so I won’t be able to post about my job. What I can talk about is one struggle associated with my job:

Word processing software.

Not necessarily the software in general, but the version that is downloaded on my laptop…it’s giving me serious hell! It took me nearly 2 hours to get one document done due to tabs being missing on this version without an option to download. I’m super pissy about it because I want to do well and not look like a total idiot.

When I go home tonight, I’m going to play around with it a bit more to see if I can correct the problems before Monday.

Evicted. What Do I Do Now?

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Truth be told, I saw this coming. Some time earlier in November, the Dublin Fire Brigade came to inspect the apartment I lived in with my roommate along with the other tenants. They searched high and low for anything that is a potential fire hazard along with questions about livable conditions. As a result they gave our landlord a list of things that need to be improved along with a deadline. If it couldn’t be completed within that time, then the tenants would have to move out at once.

I heard rumblings that we might be evicted the night before I was to leave for the States and I found out a week later that the landlord made the decision to evict all of the tenants instead of making the safety improvements. *Sigh*

Once again I’m homeless in Dublin, but never fear: my now former roommate found a tip on a place for me to live that I’m actively pursuing. As for my roommate she is living in quarters provided by her employer.

There is still no guarantee of that working out and I’m looking at other places in the meantime. However, I do take it as a blessing. The building was a fire hazard and there were definitely times when I told friends and family that I didn’t think it was fire safe. So there’s that. We’ll see what happens.

Run Away!!!

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The above picture is me internally screaming.

Why?

Well it’s because I ran into the industry insider that I want to work with, and the situation was so awkward that now I just want to hide. Here’s the backstory:

I mobile ordered food from Starbucks and went to the cafe I normally go to, to pick it up. I walk in the building and she is there fixing her coffee. I walk past her trying to avoid eye contact because, 1) I just woke up and I look rough, 2) I didn’t want her to think I was just in there to follow her. Still as I turned around from the pickup bar, food in hand, we made eye contact. I mustered a smile even though I died inside, grabbed some napkins and rolled out as quickly as I could. Later I saw her post an Instagram story of her pulling up to the cafe shortly before I got there…

NOOOOO!!!!

Now I look REALLY suspicious for being in the same place at the same time.

Just put me out of my misery now. 😔

The Short Film Recap

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Actually I think I’m just a trash actor regardless.

Ok maybe that’s a little harsh. However, I just saw the short film I worked on in school and needless to say: I’m not a fan of my performance.

My acting through screen coach says it’s not great to watch yourself on screen as it dashes your confidence. I’m inclined to agree. Film is a different beast from live theatre. It requires smaller movement due to the fact that the camera picks up every little detail on your face. For me, it’s not just my reactions that annoyed me, but my vocal inflection as well. It just sounded like I was reading the lines as opposed to breathing life into the character I was playing. It’s going to take a significant amount of more training for me to be comfortable with putting myself out to potential projects. Aside from the upcoming film I’m working on in the summer, I’m definitely not auditioning for any other projects in the meantime.

This is so disappointing.