(Source: Facebook.)

Earlier this month, I read my March horoscope. The advice that was given:

Take as many naps as possible this month. You are going to need it.

I found it hilarious that a horoscope would give me this advice, but you know what? I do need it.

Tomorrow is the first day of training at my new job. I also have a private pole dance lesson to teach that night. On Friday, I have a modeling gig and later, I need to be at Wilmington Drama League to work their lights again. Pretty much for the rest of March, I’m going to be running between three jobs, a community theatre gig, a modeling gig, and a podcast interview.

I’m going to take a nap right now. ✌🏽


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I talk about weather quite often on most of my social media outlets, and for good reason: weather is often a deciding factor in my day to day decisions. Seems extreme I know, but I can explain:

•Since that awful car accident totaled my car, I haven’t bought a new one. Instead, I either walk or take public transportation. This puts me in the elements daily, and I’m often not dressed properly for the weather. Only for work or whatever occasion is going on at the time. It means occasionally having to walk out in a full suit during the summer. I sweat profusely and it’s not a good look once I finally get to my location. There is also the risk of hypothermia or frostbite in colder temps too.

•Since I live in the Mid-Atlantic region of the United States, there is about a 50/50 chance that businesses will close or events will cancel due to inclement weather. Just like today when I was supposed to attend a job fair. The coordinators shut it down completely, with no option to reschedule 😒.

•I live in a craphole apartment building with poor insulation. My place is never at a comfortable temperature.

•I have busted my ass in icy conditions commuting to work. It was not fun let me tell you.

•When I did have a car and used to drive, I would be stuck on the road with idiots who drove recklessly in rain and snow. I have nearly been in several accidents because cars in front of me have spun out of control.

Yeah, living in an area which constantly has weather mood swings, keeps you on your toes. While the subject may seem boring to you, I have to function in this nonsense. Ugh.

Fenty Beauty

(Source: Black Nerd Problems Twitter.)

Ok. So. I’m super late to the Fenty game, but I finally put down the money to purchase a bottle of the company’s foundation for myself. Dear God, this is amazing foundation, and I’m not blowing smoke either! I did a tutorial on my Instagram stories (which I saved in the highlights btw); you could see that my skin looked smooth and translucent. I want to share my takeaways:

1) It didn’t turn orange, which is a common occurrence with me and liquid foundations. The only foundations that don’t turn on me are powders, but they are still just a twinge too yellow for me. My skin didn’t turn greasy either. Fantastic.

2) This is the only brand I’ve noticed that managed to crack the code relating to olive undertones. This is a huge struggle for many cosmetic brands. Bare Minerals (the company I used to work for) came close, by making fair to deep foundations with more golden undertones. However, they were still not able to get this close. When I pumped out my Fenty foundation, it was a soft green. Most brands make foundations too red. Hence why I mentioned that most of my foundations in the past, turn me orange.

3) The product comes out watery, but dries to a powder finish. I love that. I didn’t have to use a lot to get good coverage, and it feels super light. Believe it or not, I don’t like to look or feel super “done” like many makeup aficionados you would see on Instagram. Especially when auditioning for various projects. The casting directors and production companies want to see me for who I am. If I look too made up: it can screw me out of a job. Needless to say this foundation was a good investment.

4) The foundation matched me so well, that it confused my mom. She thought I looked too clear, pale, green, etc, because she wasn’t used to seeing me not orange. My mom never had acne or uneven tone, so she never had to use foundation in her life (lucky.) Because of this, she has a hard time differentiating between what is good makeup and what is bad makeup.

5) The packaging is really simple and it looks like you get a good quantity for the money. Like I said earlier, it didn’t take a lot of product for me to get good coverage. If I were to forecast my cost per wear, I’m looking at about 25-35¢ each time. Probably even less.

6) I also went into a darkened room and took a flash photo. The reason is to see how the foundation does under bright lighting. Working under bright stage lighting, set lighting, and flash photography, creates a problem with foundations. The term is called Photo Flashback. See example below:

(Source: Pinterest. It happens to the best of us.)

I had no flashback and no melting from sweat or oil.

From now on, I will be preaching the gospel of Fenty to the masses. I’m super satisfied with this product and will definitely continue to purchase it in the future. Does Rihanna have to be awesome at everything she does?

(Source: @chuuzus Twitter.)

The answer is Yes.


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I don’t remember if this is a subject I touched on here, but today I wanted to talk about reels. If you’re new to this industry a reel can be summed up as 2 minute footage of an actor’s previous work. The premise of it is for the Casting Director and the client they represent to see how well the actor looks and performs on film. Often times when you submit yourself to a casting, you would include a headshot, résumé, and a copy of your reel.

Here are some issues that come into play with a reel: 1) you need to work on projects that will give you reel copy, like very low budget and/or student films. Even though I submit myself to projects like these quite often, I very rarely get picked. 2) In place of not getting picked for projects like these, what you can do instead is pay to have a custom reel made…however, you are looking at paying a considerable sum of thousands of dollars for a quality reel.

Now the latter half is only a temporary problem. Yes, the cost is high and I need to raise the capital first, but it can be done nonetheless.

My issue is actually with the low budget projects, because the producers are now getting very bold about requesting a reel to even be seen for an audition. Why does this bother me at all? Well, if the low budget production was giving me monetary compensation for my work on their project, then it wouldn’t be a problem at all. It’s the NON-PAYING projects that really irk my nerves in regards to a reel. This is to do with the very fact that they offer the footage of your work as copy for your reel as compensation. Do you see the failed logic here?

If a production is offering me copy for my reel and credit on their film as compensation, what makes them think I have a reel to begin with? And if I did drop the few thousand dollars for a custom reel, why would I submit that to projects that aren’t going to offer me a return on my investment?

Where is the compensation?

Now mind you, there are plenty of people in this industry that would tell you, this is a labor of love, it shouldn’t be about the money. On some level they are right, but not quite. My landlord isn’t going to accept my labor of love as rent. The power company isn’t going to accept my labor of love to keep the lights on. My cell provider isn’t going to accept my labor of love to keep my phone on. So on and so forth. I also acknowledge that there are projects that I’m going to do for free and that is perfectly normal, but guess what? I do get some form of compensation for my time.

I get IMDB credit for my time.

I get another theatre credit to add to my resume for my time.

I get training to add to my résumé for my time.

I get reel footage for my time.

I get nominated for awards for my time.

Every step brings me closer to what I want out of this career, to do something I love and be able to take care of myself financially to do it. That’s the point.

This industry gets on my nerves sometimes.

Ash Wednesday

(Source: Facebook.)

Today is Valentine’s Day and also Ash Wednesday. I went to church because my grandfather was delivering the sermon at the noon mass today. He is retired as a Reverend Canon, but on occasion he will speak to the congregation. The sermon itself was quite interesting because I find it to be relevant to some issues happening in the world today: Virtue Signaling and Outrage Culture.

Now technically, me talking about Ash Wednesday to begin with is a form of Virtue Signaling to begin with and I will keep my thoughts brief. However, I did want to share my takeaway from the sermon as it relates to what I see. First, Jesus’ teachings talk about how being overtly pious or virtuous for the sake of acknowledgement doesn’t reward us in the long run. Think about it: don’t we know at least one person whether public or private who behaves this way? It’s not to say that they don’t do good things, but it’s almost as if doing the good things to be recognized, only fuels their ego and comes off as not genuine. (I know of a handful of famous people in my industry who behave this way, but I won’t name them.) I think that has to wear on the psyche over time. Because if you have one slip-up of just being human, it’s far too easy to get torn down for it. Which is why, even though I’m perfectly guilty of being a Virtue Signaler, I’m also guilty of being a Hot Mess too. Balance is key.

Second, Outrage Culture. I’m definitely part of the pitchfork mob of Outrage Culture. Many of us are, and we have gotten to the point where even simple human error is grounds for a shunning. With that said, there are plenty of people who do horrible things, NO EXCEPTIONS. The real question is, how can we make corrections to the bad behavior, without turning bad ourselves? Because one day, that same hammer is going to fall on our heads and we won’t have anyone to blame but ourselves.

No Humor

(Source: Facebook.)

As I still await my fate for Tuesday, I want to talk about people with no humor. With this said, I’m aware that not everyone is a natural born comedian or has good comedic timing (like me, for example.) However, I do think being able to identify humor when you see it, is very important.

Today, I shared something online that I thought was pretty funny…

(Taken today. Source of photo is from Pinterest and Olympic Channel Twitter.)

Look at it, and read my post about being a potato.

It’s supposed to be wishful thinking. Using the photo of a guy who semi-looks like me. The man has abs for goodness sakes. Even at my lowest weight, all my stomach did was go concave.

Yet someone (a repeat offender) couldn’t take the joke and it makes me wonder: how do these people live? Is there no color in their world? Who hurt them?

I think taking yourself way too seriously, takes away from your quality of life. No one wants to be around the person who doesn’t find anything funny or shames them for finding humor in such things. It also shows me that you may not be able to handle life when it throws you a curveball.

When I was first evicted from my apartment, all I could do was laugh. Not because it was super hilarious, but at the disbelief of it all. If I couldn’t find any humor in it, I probably would have walked down to the Brandywine River, right then and there, to drown myself. Instead, having humor kept me alive, calm, and sane.

Humor saves lives.

A Sad Story of Unrequited Love

(Source: Facebook. I don’t know if this meme is really appropriate but it was the best one I could find for this post.)

Last night after the Eagles won, a guy that I used to date frequently told me that he was in love with me. But… I’m not in love with him back.

Now I feel like a garbage human being.

Back in early 2014, I thought for sure he would be my boyfriend, but he didn’t feel the same way. Sad and rejected, I had to pick up the pieces and move on with my life.

Which brings me to the present moment: I’m keeping my agreement to myself about staying single to achieve all of my goals and dreams. However, I’m really frustrated that this happened. Mainly because of me being the Goddess of Poor Timing.

Telling him all of this hurt my heart, but hearing that he supports my dreams is wonderfully kind. He doesn’t want to stand in my way, and I’m truly grateful for his understanding. Needless to say, we’re both are going to be a little blue for a while.

The Press Tour

(Source: ABC News)

This past Sunday, I did a podcast interview with Bored In DE with our segment called ‘Black Women in Theatre.’ To summarize the interview, it was a series of questions about how we got into theatre, what is our perspective about theatre as black women, and have we ever encountered issues because of it. Here is the link to that interview. A couple of things in the interview I want to clarify: 1) the moment we began recording, my stomach decided to mimic a whale’s mating call. I was a little fidgety and distracted, because I thought the mic was picking all of that up and it was triggering a panic attack….ugh! 2) there is a part in the interview (I couldn’t pin down the time stamp) where I’m discussing about men getting weird with me when I tell them I’m an actress. I was having a hard time completing my thought, however, I wanted to add to my statement about “the perception of what men think actresses do to land roles, is sell their bodies”; I know with an absolute fact that is a total myth. I think many of these men turn a blind eye to sexual coercion because they think it’s acceptable. Also I’m intersectional, so the statement wasn’t a put down to the women who work in the adult entertainment industry either. It’s just a weird pattern I noticed with these men.

Moving on to today: I was invited to appear on a local Philly talk show. A friend of mine is connected with the host of that show and makes regular appearances. Since he is a fashion designer and stylist, I will be modeling clothes as he talks about them with the host. A fun gig and an opportunity to appear on TV.

The day before Valentines Day, I will also make an appearance at the Film and Theatre Artists Networking Exchange. I was cast back in September for a web series that will film in Philadelphia and the production company wanted the entire cast to attend. This will be an opportunity to meet everyone working on the project, as well as, meeting other filmmakers and possibly booking more work.

I will post more as I progress.

The College Student Diet

(Photo taken in my kitchen.)

I had to put my attempt at the Keto diet on the back burner due to my limited budget. I’m in between bookings without much money coming in so I had to make do with what was already in my pantry as well as purchasing some extra items.

No, it’s not the healthiest and no, I won’t lose weight (I gave up trying.) It’s basically sustenance until I’m in a better financial standing.

A few things you don’t see in the picture that I want to share with you:

•I have frozen vegetables, that I threw in with that bowl of ramen along with garlic and ginger to taste. It was super tasty.

•I have a bag of apples and oranges that are fresh and cheap. I eat them all of the time.

•We keep water stocked in the fridge at all times and the Hawaiian Punch is low calorie and my alternative to soda. I also drink powdered greens that I sell, along with an abundance of tea (decaf Earl Grey and Herbal.)

•I have both real milk and almond milk in the fridge and chia seeds to make pudding with.

At least I’m trying to do better right?

Aggressive Spamming

(Source: Facebook.)

This is a personal opinion blog, it’s not a news source, just a journal of yours truly. If you haven’t followed this blog for too long, you will also find out that I state strong opinions and pretty much expect to get flamed for them all the time. With that said, one thing I have done since the creation of this blog, and at the recommendation of WordPress, is to put limits on the comments section. I didn’t understand why since I’m open to conversation. It certainly wouldn’t be the first time I got into an argument on social media over a strong opinion. However, lately my comments section got overwhelmed with spam.

Now I get it. 🙄

Imagine getting email notifications saying “you need to moderate your comments!” Which made me think that people were either really interested in my blog or they want to cuss me out. Instead I find multiple comments from the same account (with pretty much the same comment at that) blowing up my feed. How annoying.

It’s silly to have such high security on something as small as the comments section. However, I spent the better part of 20 minutes marking these random comments as spam; which was way better than having to go through each individual page to do it. If you leave me a comment that I have to moderate, I’m sorry it’s not you I’m blocking, it’s the spam.