The Dream is Dead

The more I keep getting denied for a loan, the more I keep getting fed up with my life. My dream of attending school overseas is swiftly dwindling and now I must figure out alternatives to continue to make my career work. Student aid is denying me on all fronts, so going to college in the United States won’t make a bit of difference. Instead I will have to pay for training out of pocket and continue to work low paying gigs in order to support myself. I guess it makes no difference, I would have had to take a low paying job in Ireland anyway to stay afloat. However, I really wanted to move away from my family and Delaware; to move to a city that supports the arts. 

But all is not lost, I could go back to training where I started up in NYC at Studio 4 or stay in the Philly area and go back to Playhouse West Philadelphia. I’m still going to make a goal to move out of my family’s home. Staying in Delaware while working on an acting career has become cumbersome in traveling, opportunities, and expenses. Plus like I said the environment has become toxic (even though I love them) which is also dragging me down. 

So I put myself out there to see if there are any opportunities that could make me union eligible and provide more paying opportunities along with more opportunities to have speaking parts. I’m probably going to have to make a customized reel and seek an agent as well. I have to keep going or I will be trapped in a void forever.

My First Sorta-Stunt Gig

All tears and sadness about school aside, I want to talk about what I am doing for my current show You’ve Got Red On You: A Musical Parody of Shaun of the Dead. I was originally hired on as a stage manager, and that is still part of my duties; however, I now have a small part as a florist and as multiple zombies. This, of course, is due to making sure we have enough people to play zombies and get killed off. I will have 6 costume changes in this show, and I will be doing a lot of stage combat. So much so, that I can now consider it a stage combat category on my resume. (A stunt category too since I have a planned fall.)

 

(I feel like I’m back in competition cheerleading doing this show.)

So this is cool! This play, I will be speaking in a British accent, fighting, falling, dying (multiple times), and spraying blood everywhere. It is helping me take my mind off of my reality for a little bit….

Taking a Loss

I got my ass kicked in Muay Thai sparring today and I’m actually really happy. 

Because 1) this was my first time sparring in many years (and after my accident too.) 

2) I know what I need to work on for next time and 

3) I better understand my opponent. She was very physically strong and it has been some time that I have had to battle someone with that much strength. 

My endurance to the hits will take some time to build up and then I will work on my technique and flow a little more. People are always so afraid of getting stung by the hits, but I like it. Even those hard hitters run out of juice eventually.

I’m Back

(Current Mood: Annoyed Little Girl Eating Mac and Cheese.)

No, I didn’t disappear. It’s been an incredibly hectic week. My dad ended up back in the hospital, which he will stay for another week. I didn’t book any work and my money is dwindling. I have yet to hear from student aid and since I’m moving to Ireland, dad’s job has to go to someone who will be committed to it for a while. Basically, life is kinda rough right now. I’m completely beside myself and I’m not sure what to do. 

    (I sound like a broken record at this point.)

So what is good? I’m taking Muay Thai right now and the studio isn’t far from home. I’m booked to see my friends on the West Coast and Vegas, so that’s cool. I don’t have too much else to report. Hopefully something good will come my way soon.

Combat Workshop 

Piggybacking off of my previous post, I want to talk about my upcoming combat workshop this weekend. You have no idea how stoked I really am! This is a two day workshop down the street from my house (super convenient), that consists of knife fighting, found object fighting, Asian fan fighting, ripping weapons away from an opponent, and fighting with a small sword. I’m especially excited about the sword fighting because it will make me feel a little bit like my childhood hero, Red Sonja. SQUEE!!!


(Source: Marvel Comics Group. And check out Thor: Ragnarok since the writer Roy Thomas also co-created the Valkyrie.)

Needless to say, I freaking love fighting, and I may be a little too aggressive lol.

I Almost Got Into a Fight

I almost had to beat a girl down, a little while ago, for putting her hands on my dad. The crazy part is, that it has nothing to do with my family personally. My dad is the super of our apartment building, he was kicking her out in a peaceful fashion. 

One thing I do know, is that people are crazy and I feel justified to take on more training. Not just for the stage, but for real life as well. (Especially if I have to deal with any further bullshit like that.) I have a feeling that I may have to utilize this training in the future. How that will manifest? I have a hunch, but I’m not going to speak on that until the time is right.

Retiring from Background Acting

I consider last Wednesday to be my last time on set as a background actress. And what a way to finish out…with Quantico. It’s really funny considering, that was the show I started with. It was even more fitting that I was in an early episode, a middle episode, and the season finale as probably the same character in Quantico world; Someone upscale from the D.C. area. Another thing that made that role interesting, is that I was born in D.C., so I probably gave off the vibe of a Preppy D.C. resident when they cast me.

I haven’t too much other work than Gotham, Homeland, and Untouchable. The decision to stop was based off of many factors: cost of travel, lack of time, and of course trying to find a little more stable work in my area. I may find my way back to New York before leaving for Ireland, but at least not until May. (I’m booked with stuff near my home until then.) Plus I want to do something different. Maybe some Non-Descript stunt work on a show, some modeling jobs, maybe go to a high profile party, or even attend another Broadway show. 

I have enough acting gigs here at home. Titanic is coming up and soon after, Orange is the New Musical. That will be the last run of my U.S. season until I move to Dublin. After that it will just be teaching pole, hopefully hearing back from some of the scholarships I put in for, visiting my family and friends and kissing them goodbye, maybe working some odd jobs. Still, I’m a little sad. I love working in New York, I just want to work there a different way.

Fighting 

No, I’m not writing about whatever drama is happening in my life this time. I’m talking about actual fighting, or in my case fight scenes! I have to correspond with my fight partner soon to see what scene we would like to choreograph. Much of what we have to include will be what we learned over the past few weeks:

Punches 

Chokes

Slaps

Aikido rolls

Hair pulling 

Blocks and grappling

These scenes will also include a little bit of dialogue to give context as to who we are and why are we fighting. Is it serious? Is it comedic? Do I owe this person money? Are they stalking me? Does pineapple go on pizza? It’s up to my partner and I to tell a story through violence. I hope to have it recorded and shared with you on this site soon! In the meantime here are a selection of fight scenes that I really love:

Yuen Biao vs. Dick Wei-Millionaires Express

Any fight from the 1966 Batman Series

James Bond Quantum of Solace Knife Fight

My FAVORITE fight Kill Bill pt.1 Beatrix Kiddo vs. Vernita Green

Simply because this scene is so bad and the fact that Jean Claude Van Damme is showing off his twerk team skills-Kickboxer Dance scene

Michelle Yeoh and Cynthia Rothrock in YES MADAM

Last one I promise, Ong Bak Final Fight Scene, full of Muay Thai flying knees and elbows!

I hope you enjoy these as I did 😊

A Heavy Weekend 

(Source: Yuri!!!On Ice. This is a factual depiction of me on St. Patrick’s Day.)

Well friends, I’m exhausted. I did stick to my promise of not consuming alcohol…that was until St. Paddy’s evening and I didn’t have to pay for my drinks. I was invited to go see burlesque at one of the local bars and I was in love! Not only because of the burlesque show, but due to the fact that they were a dive entertainment bar, complete with a pole. And I may be trying out for the burlesque troupe. 😊

Anyway, I want to give a quick update on my progress so far:

• April 7-9th I will be performing Titanic: Tragedy and Trial in Delaware City for the Reedy Point Players, I am double-cast and not doing anything else but performing so it should be a solid performance.

•I had to pass on roller derby assessments because of my show schedule being back to back and on the same nights as practice. It couldn’t be done. (Holy Over-Commitment Batman!) 

•Speaking of shows and why my schedule is full; I got cast in Orange Is The New Musical at Bootless Stageworks. This is my second performance this year, with my first being Body and Sold.


(He had it comin’!!! Oh wait…wrong musical.) 

•My school advisor is trying to work their voodoo magic to get me accepted into school, this means I have to update my resume and submit to the program directors to show I’m serious about my education.

•I’m also attending a casting call for a fit modeling job in town. For those that don’t know what “fit modeling” is: you are invited to a fashion lab to try on clothes for fashion brands and give feedback about how well they fit. The brand wants to know how well the garment fits and feels before they mass produce it, and put it out on the market. It’s good money if you can get it. The last time I did it, I ended up getting a free pair of jeans and socks out of the deal. (I don’t think that’s common, so please don’t expect that if you do get the job.) 

•I’m making progress, slowly but surely in my combat class. I got a fight partner today, so we will be going over scenes to work on soon. 

•I’m still trying to pick up some more background jobs, especially since it is pilot season and there are new shows coming out. No such luck right now.

That’s all I got for now, I will keep you posted on anything new.

So, what’s next?

Well, all is not completely lost on the work front though I really won’t see any money until at least May. (The tough part is getting caught up now, so I’m not completely crushed by the time May comes.) 

The first thing is that it’s looking like I got the pole teaching job. (Yay!) I won’t be teaching advanced skills (you have to be certified for that) but I will be doing all Pole tease and how to be seductive (meow!). I consulted my friend and she gave me a list on how to go about it. I’ll need some pole time before then to prepare, but I did dust off these babies to practice walking in the meantime:


    (I haven’t worn these in a solid year.)

In addition to that, I may be in a musical, though I still have to submit a video of myself singing before confirming that casting. I still have Titanic to do at the moment. 

I will be catching up with the dates that I missed for Stage Combat so I don’t miss out on being certified and we start picking our fight partners this week. I’m super excited! 


(I sincerely hope we get a scene like this to perform.) 

And in other great news, I will be back at the Great Philly Comic Con! This year they automatically put me on Celebrity Row because of working at James Frain’s table last year. I’m curious to see who they pair me up with this year. Though I won’t be working Wizard World this year. It was a nice show, don’t get me wrong, but it was really overwhelming; and it seems to be scheduled the same weekend as the College Rugby Tournament. I want to go watch that instead.

Speaking of Rugby…well, sort of. Roller Derby assessments are this Sunday after stage combat and I’m going to go back out for it and do the Referee program. 


(Hopefully, I make good calls and won’t be heckled with signs like these.)

All in all a busy time.