Crew pt. 2

(Source: Backstage Badger Tumblr page and Pinterest)

The musical production of You’ve Got Red On You is coming together quite nicely and I was sent a newly revised script that will be covered in notes by the end of this evening. Being a stage manager in this production is a little simpler due to that fact that I will also be acting in it. I’m working with the special effects crew and managing props as well. Lights and sound are on their own, but we are such a small theatre they wouldn’t need me to call cues anyway. 

(Source: Backstage Badger Tumblr and Pinterest)

In addition to working on this show; God must have heard my tearful plea about moving on with my life since I failed to pay for school. Three job notices for Crew work in Atlanta popped up on my social media newsfeed last night and I applied for all of them as a Makeup Artist (since that is my strongest skill and most recently used). It’s high time I updated my makeup kit (most of the stuff in the kit expired and I had to trash it). I hope one of the gigs reach me back for an interview soon. 

The Dream is Dead

The more I keep getting denied for a loan, the more I keep getting fed up with my life. My dream of attending school overseas is swiftly dwindling and now I must figure out alternatives to continue to make my career work. Student aid is denying me on all fronts, so going to college in the United States won’t make a bit of difference. Instead I will have to pay for training out of pocket and continue to work low paying gigs in order to support myself. I guess it makes no difference, I would have had to take a low paying job in Ireland anyway to stay afloat. However, I really wanted to move away from my family and Delaware; to move to a city that supports the arts. 

But all is not lost, I could go back to training where I started up in NYC at Studio 4 or stay in the Philly area and go back to Playhouse West Philadelphia. I’m still going to make a goal to move out of my family’s home. Staying in Delaware while working on an acting career has become cumbersome in traveling, opportunities, and expenses. Plus like I said the environment has become toxic (even though I love them) which is also dragging me down. 

So I put myself out there to see if there are any opportunities that could make me union eligible and provide more paying opportunities along with more opportunities to have speaking parts. I’m probably going to have to make a customized reel and seek an agent as well. I have to keep going or I will be trapped in a void forever.

My First Sorta-Stunt Gig

All tears and sadness about school aside, I want to talk about what I am doing for my current show You’ve Got Red On You: A Musical Parody of Shaun of the Dead. I was originally hired on as a stage manager, and that is still part of my duties; however, I now have a small part as a florist and as multiple zombies. This, of course, is due to making sure we have enough people to play zombies and get killed off. I will have 6 costume changes in this show, and I will be doing a lot of stage combat. So much so, that I can now consider it a stage combat category on my resume. (A stunt category too since I have a planned fall.)


(I feel like I’m back in competition cheerleading doing this show.)

So this is cool! This play, I will be speaking in a British accent, fighting, falling, dying (multiple times), and spraying blood everywhere. It is helping me take my mind off of my reality for a little bit….

Upcoming Shows and a New Focus 

It’s been a very busy week for me with fashion week going on in Philadelphia. I have also taken this time to contemplate what I can do as an income producing activity while I support my career that’s flexible. In the meantime I have good news of upcoming shows that I will be a part of.

In the next week and a half, the Wilmington Drama League will be presenting Eurydice, written by Sarah Ruhl and directed by my friend Sean McGuire. I will be working as a Backstage Badger for this show as an assistant tech so I will not be seen on stage at all (which is cool.) After that it’s full blown rehearsals for Titanic: Tragedy and Trial, written by Pat Cook and directed by my friend Gail Wagner. In that production I will be performing as more than one character, (much like what I did for A Christmas Carol where I played two small parts.) She’s bringing in a British Dialect coach so I can tighten up my Standard British Accent for one of the characters and I will also be playing a Swedish woman (another part of my ancestry which would be fun to play.)  And of course the Arden Shakespeare Gild is hosting auditions for A Midsummer’s Night Dream I can’t possibly miss that! 

As far as my new focus. I’m doing more skills in my stage combat class (I even had to drop out of a fashion show so I can complete my required hours.) With the level of dedication needed to perform those skills safely and effectively, my fitness needs to be up to par. I’ve already mentioned some of the activities I would like to get back into. Roller Derby is one of them and they have a skating assessment coming up in a couple of weeks. I think getting back into pole dancing will be a huge asset due to the incredible amount of strength I need to build as well as flexibility and fluidity in my movements. There is a ballet studio down the street that I can take classes at and some additional martial arts classes that I can do on my off time. The biggest obstacle is the lack of money and transportation. So I’m going to have to get crafty with training as a broke girl.

I’m going to have to put modeling on the backburner. I have to relinquish my teaching job because of the hectic schedule I have currently. I’m going to have to let go of a lot of things in my life and work with the bare minimum to be able to achieve my goals. But I can do it.


        (Source: Emm Roy and Facebook. It’s entirely accurate for me.)

I have not watched the Oscars tonight due to the fact that I do not have a traditional television, and I’m completely reliant on my phone for entertainment at the moment. So far I have been watching Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries on Netflix and has been pretty excellent. I won’t jump into the pretentious mode of saying that awards are not important or self-congratulatory. What I will say instead, is that I have won enough awards in my lifetime that it does get boring after a while. Recognition is great (and truthfully what many people want is to be valued) however, what I want most in life is to recognize myself more. Not in an egotistical way at that. I just don’t want to continue to kick myself down when I’m doing the best that I possibly can. It’s not possible to receive a trophy for that. It’s something that manifests from the inside. 

Things Coming Together 

(Source: My friend Deandra posted this and I HAD to save it lol.)

A quick update on good things happening right now. 

• I finally registered for a stage combat course starting this week. Right now, I’m slowly but surely working on my fitness so I’m not super rusty when I take the class.

• I was contacted by the same agency that I did background for on the show Homeland. Because it is the same type of role they contacted me to work on a different show as they same type of character. I plan on doing a couple of days of shooting.

• I will be doing some tech work for the show Eurydice, directed by my friend Sean McGuire. I’m really excited about this because it will be at the Wilmington Drama League and I want to see how their crew does work. 

• The final designer castings for Philadelphia Fashion Week and soon I will find out my itinerary for the week and fittings to come.

• I also have a shoot in early February that I can add to my reel and get a SAG credit for. 

•Another project that I’m involved in may begin shooting in the summertime. 

All good and pleasant things. I’m really looking forward to putting in some work. 

Near The End of Year Review 


I really put myself to task this year and for lack of a better word, I would call it hectic. Not saying there hasn’t been good moments; but even with the good I felt like I was pretty much getting my ass kicked. Truth be told, I wasn’t alone…

Let’s start with what was crap first so I can lift myself up with the good after:

•It took me most of the year to recover from my car accident. Winter time was the worst for my aching muscles and bones. 

•Because of my accident in the beginning and then my pursuit of my career, I had to cut down my hours significantly at my job and eventually having to resign because I couldn’t do the job anymore without calling out. This would have eventually led to me being terminated so I’m glad I resigned instead.

•My love life is still crap and I did try dating (to very little success). There was someone that I admired secretly, but he turned out to be a twat so…no to that. (I can’t even stand to see his face it is so bad. And I still have dreams about him, ew.)

•Financially this year was much harder than last year (mostly due to the accident) but also due to picking up more gigs. (Not a horrible thing but still very expensive with travel and all.)

•Because I’m a stress eater, my weight kinda came back up since my weight loss post, but now for some reason it’s going down. (Mostly due to being so stressed out that I’m now not eating.)

•Practically the whole world is in turmoil and like a lot of other people, I’m at a loss on how to solve it. (I love solutions, but no one seems to want to move in any direction.) My faith in humanity is all but shot at the moment.

•I’m losing some of friendships because of my career change.

•Prince and David Bowie are gone and never coming back.

•I’m still not where I want to be. (This is just me whining though.)

And now for the good:

•I made a ton of new and genuine friends, who are so funny, intelligent and talented that I want to grow up and be just like them. And along with them, my existing friendships are still just as strong.

•I booked a lot of paying jobs this year and ended up being featured background on National TV.

•The independent feature film, MUDA, by the Liberian production company Ducor Media had been nominated for 13 awards at the African Oscars. They won 3 including People’s Choice for Best Actress, Best Supporting Actress and Best Screenplay.

•I was cast in my first Shakepeare play and I’m a member of the board for the Arden Shakepeare Gild.

•I had the lead role in “Carmilla” and stayed with Reedy Point to help with “A Christmas Carol.”

•Because of staying at Reedy Point I’m now doing a staged reading at Bootless Stageworks for a play called “Body and Sold.” I will have an individual post about this production at a later time.

•I’m cast for at least one designer at the moment for Philadelphia Fashion Week and also Synergy (a fashion show hosted by the University of Delaware fashion design students.) I hope to work as a volunteer at NYFW and have been keeping my finger on the pulse for that.

•There is also some film work now booking in Philadelphia that I submitted for so I’m still splitting my time between both major cities. (The City of Brotherly Love, that Never Sleeps lol.)

•I’m finally cleared by my medical team to move around like a normal human again (though I still have some physical limitations.) Just in time for winter so I don’t have to suffer in pain like I did last year.

•I had to push back my start date for my education in Ireland due to being booked out until February and possibly March. Not a bad thing work wise, but I am a little depressed that I’m not in Dublin right now.

•My teacher gig is pretty cool and my students are sweet. Though I think this will be my only semester due to working to get myself back into school.

I still have goals that are now rolling over into 2017, because they were not accomplished in 2016. I hope soon to deliver better news and less complainy posts.

Jesus Take The Wheel

(Yeah…looks like I picked the wrong week to quit drinking.)

 So it’s official, I’m the Assistant Stage Manager for A Christmas Carol. This should be fun and good resume experience for me. Not only that, but I will also be doing lighting and two small parts on stage. My script is already covered in notes and will be the master script by the time this show is over.

(Source: Pinterest and the Backstage Badger Tumblr page.)

This is my first try at being a Stage Manager in a production and of course it is the most challenging play due to the size of the the cast and lack of structure. The only thing I can do is pray that it turns out well. One thing is certain, we have a Divo (yes a man) in our midst; who, even though he is just an actor for this production, thinks he is the director for some reason.

                              (Boy, Bye)

 If he survives til the end it will be a good run. Fingers crossed, because I don’t look good in prison orange.