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(Source: Facebook.)

Not two hours after writing the previous post about entering into a field of land mines, a.k.a. gross people, in my industry, I ran into one of the people I used to work alongside with everyday. He said he couldn’t be happier that great things are happening to me, and he hopes my career blossoms in big ways this year.

(Source: Giphy. Ok but seriously, who is chopping onions in here!?)

Fine then. The gross people won’t stop me from being great. Which is a good thing too.

I’m strangely optimistic.

Now optimism isn’t the same as excitement. No. Besides, any time I get too excited, the rug gets ripped out from under my feet.

So I’m entering this field with a LOT of caution, some hope, and zero giddiness. I hope to report some progress soon.

Upcoming Podcast Interview, and a Blast From The Past

(Source: Urban Dictionary.)

Good news! One of the first bookings I have for the new year is a podcast. An acquaintance of mine launched a new website called Bored in DE, which details all of the interesting happenings in Delaware that doesn’t simply include drinking at the local watering hole or going to the new Italian restaurant around the corner (both of which are fairly common in this state.)

He is also highlighting many of the residents who are getting things done or have interesting careers. Prior to Joe Biden becoming our VP, Delaware was just a tiny speck on the map of the U.S. and well…we still are. It’s the reason why my Twitter account’s location is written as “Delawhere?” No one knows or cares where we are.

(Source: Wayne’s World)

Since I have an interesting career, I was invited along with two other actresses to sit down for a podcast interview that will also have a live broadcast on Facebook. A couple of weeks ago a friend of mine, Sara Jones, was just interviewed on the same podcast for her career in fashion: Anara Original, her blog: Blondie Jones, and her book: The Playbook to Essential Style; it was a great interview.

This isn’t the first time I was interviewed for a podcast. Last year during the summer of 2016, I was interviewed by Slate about my financial struggles. The podcast as far as I know hasn’t been released yet, which makes me a bit sad. I was hoping to share the link on this blog, but no such luck. Which brings me to my next topic on this post:

(Source: Jeffree Star’s Facebook Page.)

I wrote this comment two years ago before it was revealed that Jeffree Star made horrible racist comments which eventually led him to be canceled in my opinion. One of his fans liked my comment and I was half-tempted to delete it as I didn’t want to have any associations with him anymore. However I chose not to for a reason, this was my true story, and someone listened and liked it. I do need to make some corrections though because I had abridged an already long comment and I want everything I write to be consistent.

1) The job that I was living Paycheck to paycheck on was my HR job. I had previously posted how much easier it was to structure paying the bills and saving when working a 9-5 job. This was in fact the job I was referring to and I did save money…in the beginning. It was about a month later, was when I was living paycheck to paycheck after loaning my family money to live and my car kept breaking down. My savings was plundered and I wasn’t able to recover for a while. Hell, even now I’m still on shaky ground.

•I did find a job while I was on unemployment, working part-time at a restaurant. It was great timing too, because my unemployment money ran out not long after that. The only issue, I was making the same as I was on unemployment and I soon became homeless because, like I said, financial recovery took a really long time.

•I really didn’t have anything to lose by becoming an actress. I’m moving quickly for the time I started this career. It takes people up to a decade sometimes to get into SAG and I managed to accomplish it in only 2 years. I’m seriously looking forward to what the new year will bring. One of the projects I want to book begins the 2nd week of January. We’ll see what happens.

I’m Stuck…

(Source: Someecards.)

The decision to go to school is rapidly approaching and this is everything I have ever wanted. However something else came up that I have always wanted too: my union eligibility.

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Why not both? There are a lot of factors that come into play:

•Money. I don’t have an abundance of it and I don’t have the good credit needed to take out a loan for either school or for my initiation fee. All of it will come out of my pocket. I’m stuck in an either/or situation.

•I won’t be able to take advantage of my union membership fully if I’m out of the country and in school. I’m not saying they aren’t available, on the contrary, SAG is a world-wide union. However, my school schedule will be a full course load and they have a strict attendance policy. This means I won’t be able to miss any days to shoot, otherwise I will fail the course. Plus, in order to work in my new country, I have to be approved for a work permit. Which could take up to two months for that to happen, and I’m only permitted to work 20 hours a week during the semester.

• There are more gigs stateside that I am a better fit for. (Believe me, I checked.) Working on some of those with a union contract would greatly improve my financial situation.

• I was supposed to be fully eligible back in September, but the production company cut my shoot schedule from 3 days, down to 2. The fact that I earned my last waiver so late in the year, and so close to when I would have just said yes, and take off for Ireland gives me major pause. I feel like I’m on the cusp of something big here and I don’t know what it is.

•But still, it’s Ireland and what I really wanted. I collapsed and had a nervous breakdown when I couldn’t go. To just turn it away now would be insane. I don’t think the scholarship offer is set in stone if I need to push back my start date. But I really can’t afford to start right now either.

Needless to say, I’m sick and guilty about the whole situation. What do I do?

Getting Ready For My Audition

(Source: Thespian Peacock Tumblr and Pinterest.)

I’m super nervous about tonight. The weather is absolute crap right now and I have to walk through this frozen tundra after I get off the train to get to the audition site. Plus I’ve been practicing my monologue and 30 seconds of a song, it’s just not clicking. I’m still going to go tonight, but it already feels like a wash.

For my monologue, I went with Orlando’s opening monologue in As You Like It. The casting group wanted a monologue from one of Shakespeare’s comedies and I have performed it before. My song is Who Wants To Live Forever by Queen. Both pieces are a total scramble in my mind right now.

I was hoping this would run smoother, but no…

(Source: Facebook and Tyler Perry.)

Her…

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I’m about a week late with this post. Last Wednesday marked my childhood friend’s 33rd birthday. The beginning of January will be the 5th anniversary of her death.

Around this time 5 years ago, I had wished her a Merry Christmas on Facebook. She had announced that she was planning to visit Delaware and she was hoping to spend time with family and meet up with old friends including me. I told her I missed her and I love her and that I will see her soon. When she got to Delaware, she had a serious falling out with her mother which ended up with her going back home. Her cousin, who is also her best friend, let me know that she was devastated. A week later she passed away.

I was so numb when I heard the news. I didn’t cry, not because I wasn’t upset, but because I knew she wasn’t in pain anymore. Without going into deep details, she, along with her siblings had a troubled life. She left 3 children behind, along with many friends. When the news broke that she passed, the outpouring of love she received was on a grand scale. I had some dreams about her during this time that she has been gone that I want to share with you:

• Immediately after her passing, she visited me in my new apartment. She looked around without speaking and giving me approval that I did a good job. She later giggled (she had a distinctive laugh) and blew as hard in my ear to wake me up (she was a prankster too.)

• This dream occurred a week after my car accident. It was really weird as it was semi-prophetic and the situation played out as she said: I was walking on a path when I heard a man’s voice telling me that my friend wanted to speak with me. All of a sudden I heard her voice clear as day warning me about her sister, and how she was going to make my life a living hell, instead of getting the help she needs to make hers better (her sister is the individual I referred here as The Snake.) The rest of the dream was about her visiting me again in my waking life. She said that she will be dressed as Captain America (there was a little girl at Wizard World who had the same name as my friend and she was dressed as Captain America. 💗) She also said she was staying at the United States Marine Corps HQ (I figured this was in reference to Quantico, since that is the real USMC HQ, and my first foray into national television.) The last thing she said was “I’ll see you in California. I love you and I miss you.” …….This one I have no idea about. I went to California this past summer, but other than having a nice time with my friends, nothing profound happened. I have yet to see how this plays out.

•The last dream I had was near Christmas time last year. She insisted that I study Hamlet. I read the play from my “complete works” book, but I wasn’t able to attend any of the performances this year. Thankfully, I’m a subscriber of Shakepeare Magazine, who announced that they are dedicating the whole January 2018 issue to Hamlet (weird that it coincides with her passing right?)

I think about her often and I consider her a guardian angel of mine. I know she is looking after all of her loved ones and I feel honored that I’m one of them.

A Background Shoot and An Audition

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It’s been a productive couple of days after the unsuccessful attempt to work at my old company again. I booked another background shoot in Philly on Monday, and an audition in Philly two weeks from now. I don’t want to talk about what project I’m working on this week. Not because they are preventing me or anything (nor would I ever give away any details); but because of the last shoot I did over a month ago, the casting agency dinged me for mentioning that I’m working on the show (I’m taking no chances this time.) What I will say is: this is a very important shoot for me. Once I officially step on set and complete my job, I will talk more on the subject.

The audition, however, I can talk about liberally. It’s Shakepeare in Clark Park, located in West Philly. The audition is in December, but the first rehearsal isn’t until June 19th, 2018. If I get it, I will have plenty of time to truly learn the text and get off book by June. The production is ‘Twelfth Night’ with a bit of a rock n’ roll twist. The info about the audition was forwarded to me by my Stage Combat instructor, who coordinated the fights for Coriolanus this past Summer. They were looking for actor combatants and it piqued my interest. From now until then I will be preparing a monologue and a 30 second rock ballad to perform. I hope to convince the casting team that I’m a better fighter than a singer and to pick me on that alone. Fingers Crossed.

Going Back To The Company That Broke Me…

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Money is tight. Even though I have two jobs right now, it’s still not enough money. It also means putting all of my Acting stuff on hold, including trying to earn my last SAG waiver.

This won’t be for long as it is only a seasonal position, but this company is the one that laid me off unceremoniously when I worked at a higher position for them (and launched me into my acting career in the first place.) They are also very indirect with people and will send your calls to voicemail only. Needless to say, I’m wary.

However, with everything going on I need to make the most money possible and they pay well. I’m biting the bullet on this one.

NaNoWriMo

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November is National Novel Writing Month and I need to come up with an idea. The concept is to write a 50,000 word manuscript by the end of November. What?! As if I’m not busy. As if I don’t already struggle with staying consistent with this blog. As if I don’t have theatre reviews to write. As if I don’t have a job.

(Source: Facebook.)

I think that writing a novel about my life is unnecessary since this blog is pretty much updated in real time. Which leads me to write fiction. What genre though? Who is my lead character? I guess I’ll figure that out tonight and tomorrow.

Work Stories From Hell!! 👿🔥

(This actually happened.)

There are 3 blogs that I follow religiously. The first is Gala Darling’s blog about Radical Self Love. Next is On Stage Blog which is industry related and I retweet their articles regularly. Lastly is Ask A Manager; which is more related to my previous industry than this one. However, when it comes to work place conduct and etiquette, it’s one that I enjoy reading.

Recently on AAM, Alison asked her readers to share their input about red flags from potential employers. While I really didn’t clarify the red flags too deeply in my post, this is the story I shared:

(Source: Ask A Manager. This link will go directly to Alison’s article about how to identify a bad boss before taking the job.)

Ultimately, what is being revealed to me about my current industry, is that the shenanigans associated with working with people is not new. Like I said in a previous post: the entertainment industry is kind of the Wild West when it comes to workplace conduct. In reality, WORK of any kind is basically the Wild West.

(Source: Pinterest.)

So let me share with you some of the weirdest and the rudest stories I have had to deal with in my adult working life.

1) One of my first jobs was at Victoria’s Secret and I witnessed a male customer sniffing the panties.

2) While working at Bare Minerals, a customer’s husband dipped his fingers in one of the loose eyeshadows and snorted it. He had glitter all over his nose.

3) Pretty much any cosmetics store I have worked at, there were customers that would try on mascara using the original wand it came with instead of a disposable wand we offer. We have to throw those testers out immediately after.

4) The first day of my HR job, computer started burning and smoking the moment I turned it on. My boss helped me quickly unplug it.

5) One day at the HR office, a job candidate decided to pee all over the walls of our public bathroom.

6) At the same office, I would have people curse at me regularly because their I9 work documents were expired. We couldn’t offer them the job until they updated it. (Like seriously, you drive around with an expired driver’s license or fly with an expired passport?)

7) Last year, someone pooped on the floor in one of the bathrooms at Starbucks. My shift manager took the initiative to clean it and spared the rest of us.

8) On a recent background gig I did, the entire shoot was disorganized and the crew members were really rude. One of the PAs announced, sarcastically, the SAG rep was on-site if we wanted to bitch about the way we are being treated. Several people did just that.

9) Right now, I’m temporarily working box office at a theatre on Penn’s Landing. Last night’s shift was a proverbial Murphy’s Law. Massive tech problems from the internet being down; to the copier being down, so I had to write the list of patrons down by hand. The cloud ticketing system ran slow. The ticket printer wasn’t working, and I had a line of antsy customers. Somehow (by the grace of God really) I got everyone into the show on time. I had a shot of tequila once I got home to calm my nerves.

I have more I could share, but some of them were so ridiculous, I’m trying to push them out of my mind.

Burlesque and Pole Dancing

(Source: Facebook, Artist Unknown.)

A couple of things have come up in the striptease realm for me. One of them I am definitely involved in and the other one conflicts with my schedule.

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There is an upcoming audition for one of the big burlesque troupes in Philadelphia. Sadly I have to miss it because I can only do half of the shows on the list. I’ve wanted to do burlesque for quite some time; especially since I did a variation of burlesque, when I attended classes at my old Pole studio. I’m really disappointed, but I do hope I can participate in some way in the future.

(Circa: St. Patrick’s Day 2017.)

The video above is what happens when a slippery pole, felt carpet flooring, and too many cocktails are combined.

With that said, the pole studio I applied to is finally open and the owner and I are finalizing a schedule soon. I’m only teaching pole tease with heels (no pole tricks of any kind) and I need to come up with a routine. She is also making a promotional video for the studio and I am participating in that; so yay for pole fitness! I’ll post a video later of the routine I came up for November.