(Source: Facebook.)

Earlier this month, I read my March horoscope. The advice that was given:

Take as many naps as possible this month. You are going to need it.

I found it hilarious that a horoscope would give me this advice, but you know what? I do need it.

Tomorrow is the first day of training at my new job. I also have a private pole dance lesson to teach that night. On Friday, I have a modeling gig and later, I need to be at Wilmington Drama League to work their lights again. Pretty much for the rest of March, I’m going to be running between three jobs, a community theatre gig, a modeling gig, and a podcast interview.

I’m going to take a nap right now. ✌🏽

Do I Bother?

(Source: Beyond Scared Straight, A&E.)

It looks like Twitter is cleaning house by suspending accounts left and right. Even if you did nothing wrong, but have certain words arranged in a tweet, it can trigger an algorithm that will automatically suspend you. This is one of the social media outlets I have recently put more time into engaging with people. As you know, social media has become increasingly important for promoting yourself and your business.

The day may come, where my profile will trigger the algorithm, and I have to ask myself “is it worth saving?”

With everything that Twitter isn’t doing, like not suspending our “leadership’s” profile for serious violations. Barely, if at all, suspending accounts that target and harass others for speaking out; but God Forbid, you mention suicide.


The answer is probably No.

So what will I do from here? Probably focus on another platform and build that. Jack and Twitter are on the wrong side of history anyway.

Fenty Beauty

(Source: Black Nerd Problems Twitter.)

Ok. So. I’m super late to the Fenty game, but I finally put down the money to purchase a bottle of the company’s foundation for myself. Dear God, this is amazing foundation, and I’m not blowing smoke either! I did a tutorial on my Instagram stories (which I saved in the highlights btw); you could see that my skin looked smooth and translucent. I want to share my takeaways:

1) It didn’t turn orange, which is a common occurrence with me and liquid foundations. The only foundations that don’t turn on me are powders, but they are still just a twinge too yellow for me. My skin didn’t turn greasy either. Fantastic.

2) This is the only brand I’ve noticed that managed to crack the code relating to olive undertones. This is a huge struggle for many cosmetic brands. Bare Minerals (the company I used to work for) came close, by making fair to deep foundations with more golden undertones. However, they were still not able to get this close. When I pumped out my Fenty foundation, it was a soft green. Most brands make foundations too red. Hence why I mentioned that most of my foundations in the past, turn me orange.

3) The product comes out watery, but dries to a powder finish. I love that. I didn’t have to use a lot to get good coverage, and it feels super light. Believe it or not, I don’t like to look or feel super “done” like many makeup aficionados you would see on Instagram. Especially when auditioning for various projects. The casting directors and production companies want to see me for who I am. If I look too made up: it can screw me out of a job. Needless to say this foundation was a good investment.

4) The foundation matched me so well, that it confused my mom. She thought I looked too clear, pale, green, etc, because she wasn’t used to seeing me not orange. My mom never had acne or uneven tone, so she never had to use foundation in her life (lucky.) Because of this, she has a hard time differentiating between what is good makeup and what is bad makeup.

5) The packaging is really simple and it looks like you get a good quantity for the money. Like I said earlier, it didn’t take a lot of product for me to get good coverage. If I were to forecast my cost per wear, I’m looking at about 25-35¢ each time. Probably even less.

6) I also went into a darkened room and took a flash photo. The reason is to see how the foundation does under bright lighting. Working under bright stage lighting, set lighting, and flash photography, creates a problem with foundations. The term is called Photo Flashback. See example below:

(Source: Pinterest. It happens to the best of us.)

I had no flashback and no melting from sweat or oil.

From now on, I will be preaching the gospel of Fenty to the masses. I’m super satisfied with this product and will definitely continue to purchase it in the future. Does Rihanna have to be awesome at everything she does?

(Source: @chuuzus Twitter.)

The answer is Yes.


(Source: Pinterest.)

I don’t remember if this is a subject I touched on here, but today I wanted to talk about reels. If you’re new to this industry a reel can be summed up as 2 minute footage of an actor’s previous work. The premise of it is for the Casting Director and the client they represent to see how well the actor looks and performs on film. Often times when you submit yourself to a casting, you would include a headshot, résumé, and a copy of your reel.

Here are some issues that come into play with a reel: 1) you need to work on projects that will give you reel copy, like very low budget and/or student films. Even though I submit myself to projects like these quite often, I very rarely get picked. 2) In place of not getting picked for projects like these, what you can do instead is pay to have a custom reel made…however, you are looking at paying a considerable sum of thousands of dollars for a quality reel.

Now the latter half is only a temporary problem. Yes, the cost is high and I need to raise the capital first, but it can be done nonetheless.

My issue is actually with the low budget projects, because the producers are now getting very bold about requesting a reel to even be seen for an audition. Why does this bother me at all? Well, if the low budget production was giving me monetary compensation for my work on their project, then it wouldn’t be a problem at all. It’s the NON-PAYING projects that really irk my nerves in regards to a reel. This is to do with the very fact that they offer the footage of your work as copy for your reel as compensation. Do you see the failed logic here?

If a production is offering me copy for my reel and credit on their film as compensation, what makes them think I have a reel to begin with? And if I did drop the few thousand dollars for a custom reel, why would I submit that to projects that aren’t going to offer me a return on my investment?

Where is the compensation?

Now mind you, there are plenty of people in this industry that would tell you, this is a labor of love, it shouldn’t be about the money. On some level they are right, but not quite. My landlord isn’t going to accept my labor of love as rent. The power company isn’t going to accept my labor of love to keep the lights on. My cell provider isn’t going to accept my labor of love to keep my phone on. So on and so forth. I also acknowledge that there are projects that I’m going to do for free and that is perfectly normal, but guess what? I do get some form of compensation for my time.

I get IMDB credit for my time.

I get another theatre credit to add to my resume for my time.

I get training to add to my résumé for my time.

I get reel footage for my time.

I get nominated for awards for my time.

Every step brings me closer to what I want out of this career, to do something I love and be able to take care of myself financially to do it. That’s the point.

This industry gets on my nerves sometimes.

Side Work

(Source: Pinterest.)

Not the restaurant kind (though I’m familiar with that too.) The side work I’m talking about involves me writing résumés for fellow actors.

This all started about two weeks ago when a friend reached out to me to help them with their résumé. They didn’t know where to start and they wanted a streamlined process to continually update their file as their career progresses. That’s where I come in!

I did some research, to look how well an actor’s résumé is structured. Some are great. Some are pure garbage. I’m not a total expert, but here are some tips I have learned over time:

•Never put your Background work on a résumé. It is unfortunate that most casting directors don’t view it as real work, even though you are acting in a role no matter how small. However, those are the breaks for now, so don’t include it.

•Don’t put your personal information on there. My friend gave me their birthday, their address, their weight, everything BUT what I needed to construct their résumé. This is for your own protection. If the #MeToo movement has taught us anything, it’s that there are creepers still running amok in this industry. Don’t let them find you.

•With that said, if you have an agent, you put their point of contact info on there. That includes the agent, agency name, and agency phone number. If you have a work website like IMDB or a personally constructed one with your reels included; add that too.

•If you are super green to this industry, make a separate work phone number and email address. Google offers Voice and Gmail for free.

•Acting résumés are whole dimensions different from traditional résumés (believe me, I know.) Things you would think to include on an acting résumé, wouldn’t fly on a traditional résumé and vice versa. Keep this in mind when writing your own. Your proficiency in MS Office won’t help you here, but your ability to ride a unicycle would.

I hope I was able to provide you with some insight into how this process works. Feel free to reach out to me in the comments if you have any additional questions or if you would like this service for yourself.

The Press Tour

(Source: ABC News)

This past Sunday, I did a podcast interview with Bored In DE with our segment called ‘Black Women in Theatre.’ To summarize the interview, it was a series of questions about how we got into theatre, what is our perspective about theatre as black women, and have we ever encountered issues because of it. Here is the link to that interview. A couple of things in the interview I want to clarify: 1) the moment we began recording, my stomach decided to mimic a whale’s mating call. I was a little fidgety and distracted, because I thought the mic was picking all of that up and it was triggering a panic attack….ugh! 2) there is a part in the interview (I couldn’t pin down the time stamp) where I’m discussing about men getting weird with me when I tell them I’m an actress. I was having a hard time completing my thought, however, I wanted to add to my statement about “the perception of what men think actresses do to land roles, is sell their bodies”; I know with an absolute fact that is a total myth. I think many of these men turn a blind eye to sexual coercion because they think it’s acceptable. Also I’m intersectional, so the statement wasn’t a put down to the women who work in the adult entertainment industry either. It’s just a weird pattern I noticed with these men.

Moving on to today: I was invited to appear on a local Philly talk show. A friend of mine is connected with the host of that show and makes regular appearances. Since he is a fashion designer and stylist, I will be modeling clothes as he talks about them with the host. A fun gig and an opportunity to appear on TV.

The day before Valentines Day, I will also make an appearance at the Film and Theatre Artists Networking Exchange. I was cast back in September for a web series that will film in Philadelphia and the production company wanted the entire cast to attend. This will be an opportunity to meet everyone working on the project, as well as, meeting other filmmakers and possibly booking more work.

I will post more as I progress.

Things Have Been a Little Hectic

(Source: Classical Art Memes Facebook.)

Especially with my dad, a.k.a. The Six Million Dollar Man. He’s back in the hospital currently with multiple small surgeries already done and more to go. While non of his issues at the current moment are fatal, he was definitely teetering on that edge. Hopefully his medical team is able to repair him so his entire body doesn’t blow up.

All the while that is going on, I’m still trying to make headway at home. I went to the job interview I mentioned in a previous post, yesterday. It went well and I’m optimistic. It would be either administrative assistant work or in my old field of HR. I’m also trying to find some part time work, as well as applying for more gigs here and there. I will also be stage managing a show at the end of February, so there is some money to be made there. I just wish I have some kind of breakthrough work wise. Things are getting to be too stressful and hard to manage with little money and so many goals to achieve.


(Source: Facebook.)

Not two hours after writing the previous post about entering into a field of land mines, a.k.a. gross people, in my industry, I ran into one of the people I used to work alongside with everyday. He said he couldn’t be happier that great things are happening to me, and he hopes my career blossoms in big ways this year.

(Source: Giphy. Ok but seriously, who is chopping onions in here!?)

Fine then. The gross people won’t stop me from being great. Which is a good thing too.

I’m strangely optimistic.

Now optimism isn’t the same as excitement. No. Besides, any time I get too excited, the rug gets ripped out from under my feet.

So I’m entering this field with a LOT of caution, some hope, and zero giddiness. I hope to report some progress soon.

Upcoming Podcast Interview, and a Blast From The Past

(Source: Urban Dictionary.)

Good news! One of the first bookings I have for the new year is a podcast. An acquaintance of mine launched a new website called Bored in DE, which details all of the interesting happenings in Delaware that doesn’t simply include drinking at the local watering hole or going to the new Italian restaurant around the corner (both of which are fairly common in this state.)

He is also highlighting many of the residents who are getting things done or have interesting careers. Prior to Joe Biden becoming our VP, Delaware was just a tiny speck on the map of the U.S. and well…we still are. It’s the reason why my Twitter account’s location is written as “Delawhere?” No one knows or cares where we are.

(Source: Wayne’s World)

Since I have an interesting career, I was invited along with two other actresses to sit down for a podcast interview that will also have a live broadcast on Facebook. A couple of weeks ago a friend of mine, Sara Jones, was just interviewed on the same podcast for her career in fashion: Anara Original, her blog: Blondie Jones, and her book: The Playbook to Essential Style; it was a great interview.

This isn’t the first time I was interviewed for a podcast. Last year during the summer of 2016, I was interviewed by Slate about my financial struggles. The podcast as far as I know hasn’t been released yet, which makes me a bit sad. I was hoping to share the link on this blog, but no such luck. Which brings me to my next topic on this post:

(Source: Jeffree Star’s Facebook Page.)

I wrote this comment two years ago before it was revealed that Jeffree Star made horrible racist comments which eventually led him to be canceled in my opinion. One of his fans liked my comment and I was half-tempted to delete it as I didn’t want to have any associations with him anymore. However I chose not to for a reason, this was my true story, and someone listened and liked it. I do need to make some corrections though because I had abridged an already long comment and I want everything I write to be consistent.

1) The job that I was living Paycheck to paycheck on was my HR job. I had previously posted how much easier it was to structure paying the bills and saving when working a 9-5 job. This was in fact the job I was referring to and I did save money…in the beginning. It was about a month later, was when I was living paycheck to paycheck after loaning my family money to live and my car kept breaking down. My savings was plundered and I wasn’t able to recover for a while. Hell, even now I’m still on shaky ground.

•I did find a job while I was on unemployment, working part-time at a restaurant. It was great timing too, because my unemployment money ran out not long after that. The only issue, I was making the same as I was on unemployment and I soon became homeless because, like I said, financial recovery took a really long time.

•I really didn’t have anything to lose by becoming an actress. I’m moving quickly for the time I started this career. It takes people up to a decade sometimes to get into SAG and I managed to accomplish it in only 2 years. I’m seriously looking forward to what the new year will bring. One of the projects I want to book begins the 2nd week of January. We’ll see what happens.

I’m Stuck…

(Source: Someecards.)

The decision to go to school is rapidly approaching and this is everything I have ever wanted. However something else came up that I have always wanted too: my union eligibility.


Why not both? There are a lot of factors that come into play:

•Money. I don’t have an abundance of it and I don’t have the good credit needed to take out a loan for either school or for my initiation fee. All of it will come out of my pocket. I’m stuck in an either/or situation.

•I won’t be able to take advantage of my union membership fully if I’m out of the country and in school. I’m not saying they aren’t available, on the contrary, SAG is a world-wide union. However, my school schedule will be a full course load and they have a strict attendance policy. This means I won’t be able to miss any days to shoot, otherwise I will fail the course. Plus, in order to work in my new country, I have to be approved for a work permit. Which could take up to two months for that to happen, and I’m only permitted to work 20 hours a week during the semester.

• There are more gigs stateside that I am a better fit for. (Believe me, I checked.) Working on some of those with a union contract would greatly improve my financial situation.

• I was supposed to be fully eligible back in September, but the production company cut my shoot schedule from 3 days, down to 2. The fact that I earned my last waiver so late in the year, and so close to when I would have just said yes, and take off for Ireland gives me major pause. I feel like I’m on the cusp of something big here and I don’t know what it is.

•But still, it’s Ireland and what I really wanted. I collapsed and had a nervous breakdown when I couldn’t go. To just turn it away now would be insane. I don’t think the scholarship offer is set in stone if I need to push back my start date. But I really can’t afford to start right now either.

Needless to say, I’m sick and guilty about the whole situation. What do I do?