(Source: Facebook and my feelings exactly.)

Well…I received my first week’s schedule of my new job…and…it doesn’t adhere to my availability at all. I made it clear in my availability sheet what days I could work, and why I couldn’t work the days I’m not. I have other jobs and obligations to attend to that were scheduled before being called in to this place for an interview.

I’m going in on Monday to see if I can sort it out. Hopefully I can get back on the right track. If not, I have to walk away from it. Once again, another rug has been ripped out from under my feet. I don’t think my heart can take much more of this.


(Source: Facebook.)

Earlier this month, I read my March horoscope. The advice that was given:

Take as many naps as possible this month. You are going to need it.

I found it hilarious that a horoscope would give me this advice, but you know what? I do need it.

Tomorrow is the first day of training at my new job. I also have a private pole dance lesson to teach that night. On Friday, I have a modeling gig and later, I need to be at Wilmington Drama League to work their lights again. Pretty much for the rest of March, I’m going to be running between three jobs, a community theatre gig, a modeling gig, and a podcast interview.

I’m going to take a nap right now. ✌🏽

I Got a Job!

(Source: Fresh Prince of Bel Air NBC.)

After weeks of searching, I finally landed a job. I’m really super happy about it too since it’s close to home and I will earn money right away. I’m still gunning for the film festival job since that can be worked on the weekend; as well as possibly working my old gig at the independent movie theatre (also close to home).

The shifts are during the day, so my pole teaching gig is safe. I may have days free to work production gigs too! However, that will be on be back burner until I get my union dues paid.

While I’m on the subject about union dues, this is what this new job will help me pay for and hopefully with speed. Not saying I’m going to make thousands of dollars right away, but it’s possible to get a nice head start.

I have a lot of monetary goals and it’s fantastic to have another supplemental income while working on my career. This is so exciting.

Do I Bother?

(Source: Beyond Scared Straight, A&E.)

It looks like Twitter is cleaning house by suspending accounts left and right. Even if you did nothing wrong, but have certain words arranged in a tweet, it can trigger an algorithm that will automatically suspend you. This is one of the social media outlets I have recently put more time into engaging with people. As you know, social media has become increasingly important for promoting yourself and your business.

The day may come, where my profile will trigger the algorithm, and I have to ask myself “is it worth saving?”

With everything that Twitter isn’t doing, like not suspending our “leadership’s” profile for serious violations. Barely, if at all, suspending accounts that target and harass others for speaking out; but God Forbid, you mention suicide.


The answer is probably No.

So what will I do from here? Probably focus on another platform and build that. Jack and Twitter are on the wrong side of history anyway.


(Source: Pinterest.)

I talk about weather quite often on most of my social media outlets, and for good reason: weather is often a deciding factor in my day to day decisions. Seems extreme I know, but I can explain:

•Since that awful car accident totaled my car, I haven’t bought a new one. Instead, I either walk or take public transportation. This puts me in the elements daily, and I’m often not dressed properly for the weather. Only for work or whatever occasion is going on at the time. It means occasionally having to walk out in a full suit during the summer. I sweat profusely and it’s not a good look once I finally get to my location. There is also the risk of hypothermia or frostbite in colder temps too.

•Since I live in the Mid-Atlantic region of the United States, there is about a 50/50 chance that businesses will close or events will cancel due to inclement weather. Just like today when I was supposed to attend a job fair. The coordinators shut it down completely, with no option to reschedule 😒.

•I live in a craphole apartment building with poor insulation. My place is never at a comfortable temperature.

•I have busted my ass in icy conditions commuting to work. It was not fun let me tell you.

•When I did have a car and used to drive, I would be stuck on the road with idiots who drove recklessly in rain and snow. I have nearly been in several accidents because cars in front of me have spun out of control.

Yeah, living in an area which constantly has weather mood swings, keeps you on your toes. While the subject may seem boring to you, I have to function in this nonsense. Ugh.

Back To Work!

(Taken today on Instagram.)

I’ve been unemployed for only 24 hours and so many things opened up to me in that time. Today, I resume teaching pole class. I’m excited due to getting back to something I love and getting physical again (I gained so much weight 😔.) Some job opportunities have popped up as well. I could possibly be working at a hotel, restaurant, or a film festival. I’ll keep you posted on everything that happens.

Fenty Beauty

(Source: Black Nerd Problems Twitter.)

Ok. So. I’m super late to the Fenty game, but I finally put down the money to purchase a bottle of the company’s foundation for myself. Dear God, this is amazing foundation, and I’m not blowing smoke either! I did a tutorial on my Instagram stories (which I saved in the highlights btw); you could see that my skin looked smooth and translucent. I want to share my takeaways:

1) It didn’t turn orange, which is a common occurrence with me and liquid foundations. The only foundations that don’t turn on me are powders, but they are still just a twinge too yellow for me. My skin didn’t turn greasy either. Fantastic.

2) This is the only brand I’ve noticed that managed to crack the code relating to olive undertones. This is a huge struggle for many cosmetic brands. Bare Minerals (the company I used to work for) came close, by making fair to deep foundations with more golden undertones. However, they were still not able to get this close. When I pumped out my Fenty foundation, it was a soft green. Most brands make foundations too red. Hence why I mentioned that most of my foundations in the past, turn me orange.

3) The product comes out watery, but dries to a powder finish. I love that. I didn’t have to use a lot to get good coverage, and it feels super light. Believe it or not, I don’t like to look or feel super “done” like many makeup aficionados you would see on Instagram. Especially when auditioning for various projects. The casting directors and production companies want to see me for who I am. If I look too made up: it can screw me out of a job. Needless to say this foundation was a good investment.

4) The foundation matched me so well, that it confused my mom. She thought I looked too clear, pale, green, etc, because she wasn’t used to seeing me not orange. My mom never had acne or uneven tone, so she never had to use foundation in her life (lucky.) Because of this, she has a hard time differentiating between what is good makeup and what is bad makeup.

5) The packaging is really simple and it looks like you get a good quantity for the money. Like I said earlier, it didn’t take a lot of product for me to get good coverage. If I were to forecast my cost per wear, I’m looking at about 25-35¢ each time. Probably even less.

6) I also went into a darkened room and took a flash photo. The reason is to see how the foundation does under bright lighting. Working under bright stage lighting, set lighting, and flash photography, creates a problem with foundations. The term is called Photo Flashback. See example below:

(Source: Pinterest. It happens to the best of us.)

I had no flashback and no melting from sweat or oil.

From now on, I will be preaching the gospel of Fenty to the masses. I’m super satisfied with this product and will definitely continue to purchase it in the future. Does Rihanna have to be awesome at everything she does?

(Source: @chuuzus Twitter.)

The answer is Yes.

Aww Man!

(Source: Facebook.)

I wish I was more into cosplay. There is a background job coming up on Tuesday who needed Comic Con types with non-licensed cosplay. It’s times like these when I wish I had a spare Lolita costume floating in my closet.

I’m bummed, but I hope more castings come up soon. My aunt is finally back from vacation, so I can resume going to NYC for work. I need it too, money is super tight right now.

There hasn’t been much going in on in Philly right now, though they did just open up the casting for Creed 2. I submitted for it, but much like before, I might not get booked because production may feel I look too similar to Tessa Thompson. Hopefully this time they have a scene with some of her “family” members, and maybe I get picked for that. Fingers crossed.


(Source: Pinterest.)

I don’t remember if this is a subject I touched on here, but today I wanted to talk about reels. If you’re new to this industry a reel can be summed up as 2 minute footage of an actor’s previous work. The premise of it is for the Casting Director and the client they represent to see how well the actor looks and performs on film. Often times when you submit yourself to a casting, you would include a headshot, résumé, and a copy of your reel.

Here are some issues that come into play with a reel: 1) you need to work on projects that will give you reel copy, like very low budget and/or student films. Even though I submit myself to projects like these quite often, I very rarely get picked. 2) In place of not getting picked for projects like these, what you can do instead is pay to have a custom reel made…however, you are looking at paying a considerable sum of thousands of dollars for a quality reel.

Now the latter half is only a temporary problem. Yes, the cost is high and I need to raise the capital first, but it can be done nonetheless.

My issue is actually with the low budget projects, because the producers are now getting very bold about requesting a reel to even be seen for an audition. Why does this bother me at all? Well, if the low budget production was giving me monetary compensation for my work on their project, then it wouldn’t be a problem at all. It’s the NON-PAYING projects that really irk my nerves in regards to a reel. This is to do with the very fact that they offer the footage of your work as copy for your reel as compensation. Do you see the failed logic here?

If a production is offering me copy for my reel and credit on their film as compensation, what makes them think I have a reel to begin with? And if I did drop the few thousand dollars for a custom reel, why would I submit that to projects that aren’t going to offer me a return on my investment?

Where is the compensation?

Now mind you, there are plenty of people in this industry that would tell you, this is a labor of love, it shouldn’t be about the money. On some level they are right, but not quite. My landlord isn’t going to accept my labor of love as rent. The power company isn’t going to accept my labor of love to keep the lights on. My cell provider isn’t going to accept my labor of love to keep my phone on. So on and so forth. I also acknowledge that there are projects that I’m going to do for free and that is perfectly normal, but guess what? I do get some form of compensation for my time.

I get IMDB credit for my time.

I get another theatre credit to add to my resume for my time.

I get training to add to my résumé for my time.

I get reel footage for my time.

I get nominated for awards for my time.

Every step brings me closer to what I want out of this career, to do something I love and be able to take care of myself financially to do it. That’s the point.

This industry gets on my nerves sometimes.

Side Work

(Source: Pinterest.)

Not the restaurant kind (though I’m familiar with that too.) The side work I’m talking about involves me writing résumés for fellow actors.

This all started about two weeks ago when a friend reached out to me to help them with their résumé. They didn’t know where to start and they wanted a streamlined process to continually update their file as their career progresses. That’s where I come in!

I did some research, to look how well an actor’s résumé is structured. Some are great. Some are pure garbage. I’m not a total expert, but here are some tips I have learned over time:

•Never put your Background work on a résumé. It is unfortunate that most casting directors don’t view it as real work, even though you are acting in a role no matter how small. However, those are the breaks for now, so don’t include it.

•Don’t put your personal information on there. My friend gave me their birthday, their address, their weight, everything BUT what I needed to construct their résumé. This is for your own protection. If the #MeToo movement has taught us anything, it’s that there are creepers still running amok in this industry. Don’t let them find you.

•With that said, if you have an agent, you put their point of contact info on there. That includes the agent, agency name, and agency phone number. If you have a work website like IMDB or a personally constructed one with your reels included; add that too.

•If you are super green to this industry, make a separate work phone number and email address. Google offers Voice and Gmail for free.

•Acting résumés are whole dimensions different from traditional résumés (believe me, I know.) Things you would think to include on an acting résumé, wouldn’t fly on a traditional résumé and vice versa. Keep this in mind when writing your own. Your proficiency in MS Office won’t help you here, but your ability to ride a unicycle would.

I hope I was able to provide you with some insight into how this process works. Feel free to reach out to me in the comments if you have any additional questions or if you would like this service for yourself.