(Source: Google Image Search)
Good grief this was a week for news, huh?!
I’m having a hard time focusing on a topic. Do I write my thoughts about the College Cheating Scandal? Bryan Singer’s long overdue firing from directing ‘Red Sonja’? How about the latest scandal involving Brett Ratner, the CEO of Warner Bros. and the actress Charlotte Kirk?
And that was only a small handful of what happened this week.
I can’t blame this Mercury Retrograde because I don’t believe in it. Truthfully I think this planet and everyone on it has been caught up in a vortex of bizarre behavior since 2015. With it being 2019 I think we are experiencing the worst of the vortex and soon we will be out of it (if we all survive that is.)
Until then, I’m just going to keep my nose to the grindstone and mind my business. This is too much.
All fell to pieces. It looks like my planned trip to train as a production assistant is a no go. The flight I needed to be there on time is overbooked. Not only that, it looks like flights even heading back home to the Philadelphia airport are overbooked.
Which means I’m stuck here…
I’m hurt, because I did put a deposit down for this that’s non-refundable. I also scheduled it in such a way so that I could go back to the office back home and gather my work assignments and new credentials.
This would have been less of a problem if didn’t have to spend most of my money on my survival here. If I was back home, I would have had the extra cash I needed to maybe splurge on a guaranteed booking instead of a standby flight ticket.
With the way things look, I’m probably going to have to quit my gig with the insider since I’m now hindered from completing my duties with them too. This is a shitty situation in more ways than one.
Excuse me while I go scream.
(Source: I saw this on Facebook, but I don’t know the original creator of this photo.)
This is a public service announcement for all who have been following so far:
Just because I’m the only person you know who is capable of doing the job you need done, doesn’t mean I’m willing or available to do that job.
Here’s the backstory to that PSA:
One of my bosses from one of the three jobs I’m working at is putting on a live stage show that needs a Stage Manager. So far, I’m the only person they know that’s capable of doing the job, but one problem…I’m not available AT ALL. Besides the fact that I’m already not too keen on how things have been going with the production so far. It seems like more trouble than it should be, and my boss just won’t let up even though I said no.
Worse yet, they are bringing other people into the fold by saying I’m going to do the job.
Why does this annoy me?
1) I despise being volunteered for things I did not agree to. It’s rude and crosses a boundary because that person is pressuring me. They’re hoping I break down and say yes.
2) It’s not other people’s business what I’m doing work wise. If I want other people to know what I’m doing, I will tell them myself.
This may be a gig that I have to quit sooner than expected if the nonsense persists. I have zero patience right now.
(Source: Facebook. I think that is the artist’s watermark on the bottom of the card but reverse searches yielded no results. Instead I’m just sharing where I found it.)
I didn’t land the gig that was shooting today. Which means I work at my day job today… yay.
I’m bummed, but not hurt. In this industry you have to be prepared for a lot of rejection and very limited success. Still, I’m grateful for getting an initial response.
I’m on this person’s radar now.
THIS wasn’t the project for me, but maybe a future one will be. We shall see.
(Circa yesterday on my break.)
Last night was my first shift of the festival and it was different for sure. The job of being an Orange Hat isn’t difficult, but there is so much excitement going on that trying to help our VIPs can be overwhelming. That being said, we have a mixed bag of VIPs to assist and that includes celebrities. When that happens, it’s essential to keep your game face on, and not get star struck.
Speaking of celebrities: I have also witnessed my first red carpet in real time. The flash from the cameras were blinding (I don’t know how they can stand it.) One thing I did notice was how quickly they do a red carpet event. It was all of 10 minutes max that I saw Ethan Hawke and Noomi Rapace (both appearing for their film ‘Stockholm’), fly through the entire thing with interviews included. Then the Tribeca crew had to replace the name tags of the previous paparazzi with different paparazzi, change the background, and set up new barricades for a new set of celebrities to walk past. Absolutely nuts!
Speaking of paparazzi: I made friends with one! I spoke to him on my break. He noticed I had Crew credentials on and asked me how I liked the festival so far. I told him it was cool and I had never seen anything like this before. Even though I have worked at comic cons, this was a new level of chaos. I also told him how I’m utilizing this opportunity for my career since I’m an actress too. We chatted for a while longer, he broke down the process of a successful red carpet experience for both the celebrity and the photographer. The process of selling photos, and showed me some of his work. He also does professional headshots, so I may reach out to him in the future.
Speaking of making friends (this post has the most convenient segues): the Orange Hat Crew is very cool. Since we are all mixed in the chaos together, we are also bonding. So far, I have met a woman who travels to work the big film festivals on crew (I wish I had the cash flow to do that.) I also met a woman who works both the HR division (my old gig) and is also helping out on crew. Another person I met is the one who was courteous enough to buy me the coffee you see in the photo, even though I didn’t ask him. He works on a production crew and is aspiring to be a screenwriter. When the festival wraps up there will be an after party in early May. I think I’m going to attend.
I think that’s everything I want to post about so far. Today is day two and it may be much of the same, but I will keep you posted on any new developments.
(Source: Grumpy Cat Facebook.)
Update, my hell neighbor from next door moved out. My very loud downstairs neighbors moved out as well. Our building had about half a month of peace with the cool neighbors before we had a new person move in.
I’m not exactly sure if he is a prostitute or filming a porno, but the sexual activity in the apartment above me is loud and really uncomfortable.
Of course I could just be bitter because I have been celibate for a few years now. And, of course, it’s “cuffing season” so everyone is trying to find a mate so they won’t be lonely for the holidays. Still, it’s annoying and painful. I really need to move out.
If you have been following me up until this point, you know that there is a specific man on this planet that shattered my heart to pieces. Last year he apologized to me for causing so much pain. Thinking that would be the end of it, he managed to find me on one of my other social media channels and tried to forge a friendship again. I’ve decided to put a stop to it today.
I was already very suspicious about why he would try to reach out to me again in the first place. Still, I stayed cordial. Recently however, he started to pull the same old tricks again in the way he communicates with me. No. He’s dealing with the wrong woman now. My heart isn’t the same anymore and I have very little patience for having my feelings abused again.
So I closed off that channel and I’m not speaking to him anymore. He doesn’t need to know what I’m doing in my life now. He just needs to stay gone.
(Source: Is featured on the bottom left of this meme and Pinterest.)
I’m definitely going all in with my acting career. However, I will always have some sort of a side hustle to keep me alive too. Why? Because of things like this, or like this; or the two instances of my loss of employment that both led to extreme poverty and initially to homelessness.
My mother passed down a term to me that she learned from her mother…”always have Mad Money.” If you are familiar with the term, great! For those that aren’t, all it means that if you are a woman who is on a date with a man that is untoward in any way, you always keep a store of cash on you to be able to take a cab home and buy your own dinner.
When it comes to work, it should be the same way. I nor you should be beholden to abuse by superiors because you really need the work; and although it is my dream to take my career as far as it can go, the entertainment industry is basically the Wild West when it comes down to workplace conduct. I would love to be able to have the freedom to walk away with my chosen finger in the air if I hear a producer, director, co-star, or any employer say “if you defy me, you’ll never work in this business again.” That is when you can walk away with confidence.
(Source: Zoolander and Facebook.)
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