My Career Is Stagnant At The Moment…

(Taken late last month.)

There’s not much I can do about it. What I can do is take stock of where I’m at now:

•SAG eligible

•A decent theatre resume

•A film credit

•Nominated for a regional award

That’s what I have for the time being, though I managed to get this done at a rapid pace of 3 years (SAG alone takes some people a decade.)

Right now, the only thing I have going on is my YouTube channel until I work another film in 2019. I’ll try to keep this page updated on any industry related things that may come up in the meantime.

Poor Casting Choice

(Source: Mean Girls, Paramount Pictures.)

Everyone is up in arms about Scarlett Johansson playing a trans man in her newest film. This, coming after the backlash of whitewashing the role of Motoko Kusanagi from ‘Ghost in the Shell.’ I don’t dislike her, though there are some things about her association with Woody Allen to be problematic. I don’t think this role is right for her.

Before I go any further, let me admit that I have played roles that did not fit my cultural background, gender, sexual orientation, or age group. If an actor does their job well, then you should know them by the role they embody more than the person themselves. However, Scarlett Johansson has reached the point in several of her roles where she is “Scarlett” in a film, and not the character she is playing. Therefore, the character of Dante Gill will not be portrayed correctly.

Now if it were up to me to find an actual trans man, who looks like Gill, and can act, that would be my preference. It’s a challenge, however, since I would have an extremely small pool to work from. The closest I would be able cast is Lea DeLaria from ‘Orange is the New Black.’

The biggest issue I have with casting films in Hollywood is the cronyism associated with it. In this case Ms. Johansson is working with the same director from ‘GITS’, which is pissing people off further (myself included.) I get it: if you want to work consistently, it’s best to build a strong network and work with many of the same people. Roles like Gill need a little more thought and use of common sense before calling up your homie to take the part….

But I digress.

Big Things In The Works!!!

(Taken Monday after my epiphany.)

While I was rambling on one of my Instagram stories (saved in the highlights) about one of the films we showed at work: I thought about vlogging film and television reviews. A friend of mine suggested I use a separate platform as to not disrupt my current social media brand. Well that sparked something.

Currently I have an active YouTube channel that I use specifically for self-tape auditions. Since those links are usually private, I don’t have other content posted for the public to view. Until now.

Posting reviews is hardly anything new and there is plenty of competition out there for me. However, I just want a platform to air my grievances at other people over what I should actually be doing myself…work in the film industry. That is the premise. You are going to watch an actress who is also trained in the technical side of film, bitch and complain about why the production was bad, while also praising what’s good about it.

Don’t expect it to be comedic. Comedy is a precious skill afforded to few and its not my forte. My biggest hope is that it’s relatable and informative. Just like my blog.

I’m excited aren’t you?

The Follow Up and Film News

(Taken this past Friday evening. This was my audition number.)

As of right now it’s not looking likely that I was picked for the project with the industry leader. That’s ok, because I’m grateful for the fact that I got this far and met her. I will continue to apply as long as she is putting out casting notices and she highly encourages it.

In other good news, it looks like I’m going to film another project with the same director who gave me my first speaking part (yay another role and reel footage!)

(Source: Facebook.)

The synopsis of this film is a gentleman who travels from his home in Boston to work in Côte d’Ivoire. I would be playing the lead’s girlfriend. The part currently is limited, but they asked for my input on how I would play it. They got straight away to re-writing it.

(Source: Prinze Whyee. A still shot from MUDA, currently in distribution in Africa.)

Re-writing a part is nothing new, the director did it the first time when I had to step in on ‘MUDA’ as the last lead’s little sister. I think it’s awesome that he is able to do that for me and immediately thought of me for this new film.

I’m excited to embark on something new!

Second Chance

(Source: Sailor Moon, Toei Animation. Creator Naoko Takeuchi.)

Remember two weeks ago when I submitted my information to a high level mover and shaker in the industry? That gig they advertised has come and gone with me not working on it, but they advertised another casting call scheduled for this week.

As always, I strike while the iron is hot with this strike leading to some success! I got a call back for a live audition.

This gig may also not be for me, however, I will definitely be on their radar for any future project.

The other rumor about this individual…they may be able to represent talent. Ultimately that is my goal: to get representation, bigger parts, and more work. Wish me luck!

Mini-Break

(Source: Pinterest.)

My family was away this past weekend. Dad is still getting treatment at the outpatient facility and Mom took a business trip out of state to consider a possible relocation.

It reminded me of the old days before I was homeless. I used to have my own space, a working vehicle, a job that paid all of my bills, and freedom…

So what did I do with my new found quiet time? Slept a bit, organized some papers, reassessed my life, and prayed.

Lately I’ve been down about my career. It’s been a dry year for me and seems like it’s taking forever just for me to pull together my down payment for SAG. Even though I’m working three jobs, the money is sparse; which makes me worry if I can even get to Dublin at this point. Having to focus on my family’s care has also added to the stress, which makes this break all the more beautiful.

My Mom will be home late tonight. My Dad, a few days later. I will miss the peace a quiet for now, but I know I will get back to it soon.

Men, Again 🙄

(Source: Twitter.)

The founder of a website that I follow, has just been exposed as an abuser. Creating insanely strict rules for his girlfriend to follow, fat shaming her, and sexually assaulting her. He even went so far to ruin her acting career by blacklisting her when she walked away from him.

(Source: Pinterest.)

One thing I took away from the article that was written, is that dating someone high powered isn’t all that it is cracked up to be. I mean, dating in general isn’t all that great, but adding fame to the mix makes it especially difficult. Look how easy it was for this poor woman’s career to be tanked simply because he didn’t want her story to be believed? He was worried about bad publicity and his actions have led him down the path of…bad publicity.

If he had not been an asshole, he wouldn’t need to worry as his conscience would be clear. But that’s far too easy.

Anyway, I’m happy that this woman is safe and recovering financially, spiritually, emotionally, to be able to tell the tale. He is a scumbag.

So What’s Up With Diss Tracks?

(Source: Facebook.)

Of course the news from the past 24 hours is the release of an extreme diss track from one recording artist to another. It seems like a silly concept to me, given that I’m old school, when someone talks trash on you…you meet them outside to fight.

I consider diss tracks to be the equivalent of a keyboard gangster posting on social media: All words and no action.

That’s not to say creating art isn’t a good way of expressing hurt or frustration. I mean, hell, I do it all the time. But in the effort to keep people talking or in this case, to promote an album, it’s petty for no reason.

On a side note: while the actions of one of the recording artists using blackface and what they have done in their personal life is abhorrent; isn’t it kind of hypocritical of the creator of the diss track to call that out, but gloss over their employer’s allegiance to white supremacy? Where’s the outrage there? Oh yeah, I forgot…they’re being paid a princely sum.

Manhattan Monologue Slam

(Source: Thespian Peacock Tumblr and Pinterest.)

I got a last minute invite to the Manhattan Monologue Slam. Believe it or not, I have never heard of this showcase until a couple of weeks ago. One of the background actresses I met on the set of Creed 2 was inviting a group of us to be a part of the Philadelphia branch of this project. They weren’t able to pull off the May start date like they wanted, so instead we were invited to the original in NYC.

They only give us 30 seconds of time to perform a monologue. If they like us, we can move on to a bigger event where we would perform a 1-2 minute monologue. Either way it is a good event to attend as there are agents, celebrities, casting directors, and a slew of creatives in the audience watching you. The event itself is great for networking.

My biggest hope is to perform the monologue all the way through. I chose a brief part from the play ‘Carmilla’ that I was in as that would be most comfortable for me. The last time I attempted to perform one, I bombed it and had a panic attack during my audition for ‘Twelfth Night.’……………………………………………………………Please Jesus, see me through this.

Well…

(Source: Facebook.)

My job somehow obtained the court record of the Weinstein Co. bankruptcy proceedings. Before starting my shift today, I took some time to be nosy and peruse through the document.

A detail that I have forgotten about living in Delaware, is that this state makes it all too easy to incorporate businesses here…sometimes in shady forms. The Weinstein Company is no different and it made me wonder, how many major entertainment companies are incorporated with a business address in Delaware? (I once heard a rumor that Creative Artists Agency has an address here, but I don’t know that for certain.)

At some point before the hearing, Harvey Weinstein had to make an appearance in Delaware in order to retrieve some of his company’s documents. Given that the business address, bankruptcy law firm, district court, and possible hotel he stayed at are all a few short blocks within each other and my home; I shudder to think that a monster like him was so close by. I sincerely hope a few employees of the hotel and court at least gave him a noticeable stink eye as he walked past.